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Finale - "I. Love. Power." ~Jodi

I think I am toast at f4. It sounds like either everyone wants to take anastasia or vote her out but I'm about to play the idol and then I just told anastasia I'd go to rocks for her bc people are between wanting to take her or take her out at 4. I can't believe it sounds like elle wants to take jodi to f3 to be spicy like Jodi will win hahahahaha I have been trying to vote her out since the chaos idol but she had such a hold on people you know what congrats to her 🤣 I can't believe she's even still here rn. Maybe I should have tried to flip it onto jodi rather than go to rocks at 6. Apparently both anastasia and jodi are saying brayden doesn't like them in the game but that literally makes no sense 1 bc brayden is anastasia's bestie irl and 2 bc brayden literally wished good luck for jodi to win before he was gone. I hope they put the votes on me here so I can idol someone out and not just to be safe lol. I kind of hope jared also idols but in that case I'm definitely toast at f4 lol bc idk why they all want to sit by jodi she has convinced them the jury hates her but we literally all said if she makes it to the end she wins ☠️ and tbh I cant say it in the game or they will definitely vote me out but I will vote jodi to win if I'm in the jury and she's f3. If it's anastasia elle and jared I probably vote elle tbh but that one I'll have to hear cases more. It's a fun one for sure! But like the fact that I literally flipped on everyone and had a hand in everyone sitting on the jury.... And I still haven't received any votes is wild. And people just handed me immunity twice. Hahahaha I really think f4 is my end unless I can force fire between anastasia and jodi like why is that even an option. I guess it's not currently on me? But wtf is this I just can't see wanting to take jodi 🤣 everyone loves her despite what she is claiming lol. But I really think everyone in f5 has a solid case. Anastasia never needed immunity or advantages. Jared was last of the fools by merge and made it here and had an idol. Elle had me hand them an advantage lol was able to force rocks to avoid being out and had an idol. Jodi made it this far after having been chaos idoled out then won her way back and still was the biggest threat yet everyone wanted to keep her. Then there's me who no one knows I was the cause of the fake idol, the steal a vote (though played WEIRD), the merge idol yet (though they suspect), the mistake of fucking up the colin vote, the mistake of the 150 buy am advantage thing, the mistake of handing away my advantage, the mistake of not just trying to switch it to get jodi out instead of rocks, but yet here I am lol. It would be a fun one to win that's for sure because it's a hilarious story that I legit wasn't going to play at all. Maybe had I not been drinking so much on vacay and prevacay I would have made sounder decisions but sometimes it pays off to not seem as calculating and just blend in. Here's hoping 1) my merge idol is real (that would be evil if not) and 2) final immunity is something I can win. That's all I got I've been on planes for 12 days it feels like. Love to everyone hosting, in the game, and in the VL.

The second I saw what the challenge was, I knew it was Jodi’s to win. The first thing she said to me was “I studied your game” and then she studied for the buyback, she’s been studying this whole time. Sorry I’ve been drinking at Disney then had 1 hour after work to study and all that helped with was the names one lol. I kept track of the ones that I mathed wrong or knew but the time countdown was too stressful to think and it was 4 meaning we would have tied LOL oh well.I just hope elle doesn’t turn on me and I can at least go to fire. I told anastasia before that I would force fire for her is the others want her gone but if it’s me or her sorry girl.The difficult part is IF I make it out of this tribal, I still truly believe it’s Jodi’s game to win. If I’m in the jury I’m probably voting Jodi but maybe Elle. I have a lot to convince the jury of because I was so behind the scenes. I think I have Dennis and Colin for sure for votes, Babs is a mystery. I think Josh hates us all but I’m the direct reason he was rocked out. Jodi has Brayden and Jared and probably Jay I think. So it would be really tough to beat Jodi. I will have to use the exact arguments that I don’t actually agree with that were used against me in subrosa (though there I wasn’t voted at 9, it was like 24 lol) saying I was at least never voted out and you shouldn’t need to win challenges to keep yourself alive. I will have to use her own words and say it can be seen as being a coward to not commit to a vote and instead try to keep your hands clean (the Jared vote) so whoever survived she could be good with but also good with the jury members even though he straight up said he made Jared play his idol on her to be able to vote him out soon after lol. Idk I’m thinking ahead of myself bc honestly if I were them I’d vote me out right here. I do want to reiterate that I think Jodi is amazing and we play pretty similar game styles overall. I just made messy moves all game channeling my inner Raffy. I wish this challenge would have been the chop style bc I think jodi loses and Elle wins. Oh well. I’m sunburnt and dehydrated and exhausted bye! Hope I make FTC but we will see lol

I have decided what I'm going to do tonight.... Who ever thought I'd get here? I guess my studying paid off. Tonight is a big tribal council, because it's more nuanced than just sending 2 people to fire or voting somebody out. Whoever wins fire also has a "cherry on top" in terms of a final comp win to earn their spot into FTC, so as a Final Immunity winner, this becomes a dilemma of do I try to take out my biggest threat to win, at the risk of giving them a possible final flashy move? Essentially, the obvious situation is whether or not I send Amy and Anastasia to fire tonight. I owe my life in this game to Anastasia, who was my most loyal ally since I came back into the game. Amy flipped and played Colin's game and is the representative of that "side"'s game. She is definitely my biggest threat for votes. If she goes, she has to go, she can't win fire. Elle won't flip on Amy, Anastasia's not confident, so what do I do? 1) Vote out Anastasia 3-1, fight with Elle and Amy in the end. This option means there's no fire for either Amy or Anastasia to have on their resumes. This option means I must get 5 votes, as Anastasia sitting beside me meant she would've given me the final tiebreaker vote. Elle and Amy vote for each other, so I have to win straight out here. 2) Convince Amy to vote Elle and then me and Anastasia vote Amy in a 2-1-1. Same reason as Elle, Amy won't vote Elle out. She went to rocks for them even while holding an idol! 3) Give my immunity necklace to Anastasia, and ask her to send me to fire with Amy, and I take out Amy myself. This not only robs Amy of the final flashy move (if I win), but I would directly take control of who I want in the final 3. Pulling an Underwood is obviously risky, but for the Amy stans on the Jury, they literally cannot be upset at me if I take her out like this. I've flirted with this idea ever since making Final 4, but of course, there's a really small (but still existing) chance of me getting Erik Reichenbach'd here. I had to gauge how my chances are at the moment and how much they'd change with a successful fire challenge, but alas, in the words of Jay Bee themself, this would be "the most Jodi move" to cap off my game. I won't reveal what I'm doing tonight here, but I promise it's what's going to win me the game. Tune in to tribal council tonight to find out 😈

Wow hahahahahahahaha what a journey this has been. From saying I won’t be playing the game, to saying a have to hard quit by May 28, to winning 3 hunts and knowing where every advantage was, to playing while on vacation literally in Disney World for a week, to avoiding any sort of target from either side somehow, to being here in FTC. Is this how I imagined FTC to be comprised? NO hahaha I still think Jodi is going to run away with it and I have a lot of convincing to do in my speech to try to win over the jury. I had a moment that I was going to have to do fire in my car at f4 haha but I offered Anastasia fire and she didn’t want to do it. Also my original plan to force fire was to try to get Jodi out haha but that girl earned her spot in FTC. I just want to say it’s been an incredibly fun game to play and I’ve enjoyed playing this game with everyone and I hope that I can get to know everyone better when I’m not doing a million other things too. I think my goal in FTC (depending on time limits, Raffy please give me 10 minutes for a speech haha) is to reveal my hunt wins, strategy to keep targets elsewhere, the flip and undercover agent for 3 rounds, being gifted immunity twice, risking my entire game for my allies, not asking anyone to play advantages on me (actually the opposite- please DO NOT play them on me), not needing to win immunities to make it to the end, being in a position to be ale to give away advantages (which benefitted me by making the rest believe Elle somehow had the other idol to ensure the votes were on me instead thus assuring we both made f4 with my idol play), and never being voted out of the game. I want to show thatI played a messy game actually trying to be voted out early with the two alliances set up following my plan of having Dennis and brayden believe I was their ideas all while becoming closer with jodi so she wouldn’t ever go against me. I played deliberately making moves and owning vote outs, never playing only to keep my hands clean. I was on the right side of EVERY vote except Colin - my biggest mistake of the game since had he played his idol there chances are he’d be sitting here too. I want to thank Dennis and the survivor gods for bringing Colin and I together at the perfect time to flip the game completely. I want to show my game was imperfect and I never tried to control people’s every move. I was flexible and worked collectively even going against my trust issues. I put my life in others’ hands and at any point people could have easily turned against me. Frankly I’m not sure why they didn’t. I want to show that I respected everyone and was able to make all the moves I did while being in constant transit or being Epcot drunk. I want to explain that a messy and imperfect game with big moves, never being voted out, many mistakes, hunt wins, a lot of information flowing to me, and a lot of fun in possible and deserving of the title of sole survivor. I kept my cards close as I usually do in games, but I played more risky than ever. Even being in a minority alliance I was never receiving votes nor was my name even being mentioned until it was too late. I’m really proud of the game I played, but I recognize much of the jury might be really bitter toward me and view Elle’s underdog story or Jodi’s power and comeback as more deserving. Either way I think it’s a great F3 and I look forward to a fun FTC. I won’t be stressing as much (hopefully) as my previous FTC. Thank you to everyone who made this game what it was. It might be my favorite game I’ve played even though I still refuse to learn anything about Persona. I look forward to many game nights (if I don’t hard quit skype again lol).

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Episode 14 - "This will be a fun finish" ~Amy

Ahahahahaha fuck Colin somehow went home and it's partly my fault but it was a mix of a mess. Colin really believed jodi and jared were voting with him to get josh which seemed odd from the start. I have been talking and I think I know or as much as I can. I was the sole vote on jodi lol but I didn't get the memo to do anastasia until 859 and didn't have time to switch so I thought it would still be okay but somehow elle colin and I all voted differently lol whoopsies. Now I'm told jared used his idol on jodi but if Josh knee we were split I don't think he did. I think anastasia actually voted colin with Josh and Jared. Anastasia And jodi aren't budging that they voted elle so I guess jared could have given her the necklace to get colin. I am just so mad I didn't vote the same as elle 🤦🏻‍♀️ I'm hoping josh believes elle used an idol so he votes with me and elle. I might need to use my steal this go and that would get it to 3-3 minimum and if Josh voted with me it would be 4-3 but I think Jared still has his idol. I am legit so sad about colin like I obviously flipped to save him and legit wanted him to win and I would come in second lol now I'm worried I won't make it bc Jodi is spreading I have an idol and obviously josh wanted to flush idols last round that's why he did that. I know hosht wants anastasia in his f3 but I'm just hoping he wants jared and or jodi out more but I think he wants me and elle out ☠️ the fact is if jared still has his idol he's safe now but he need to make it seem like we are voting him. I'm just so confused about the last one hahahaha I was going around asking like I'm not mad just confused lol. And I called colin before talking through everything and myself and elle I guess said I think we are fine ☠️ I can't believe it honestly just shocked. That's the thing like even when I said jared was lying to colin whichever round before colin was still trusting him and look jared did it again he is good at lying haha shooooot. This will be a fun finish. F6 and I just don't know how it's going to end. Rn I think I'd like any mix of elle josh or anastasia at the end WITH me but I won't be surprised if it's them but also elle said they might self destruct. So basically I don't know if I should use the steal and save my idol or just idol since I think it will be live. I guess if elle just says vote me out but like I need their number the next round. If I idol then elle votes with me next go, we'd be okay until 4. That's probably as far as I'm making it lol. That's my update 😭😭😭😭 sorry colin I wish you were still here

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Episode 13 - "I'm on the side with the biggest threats to win this game" ~Josh

Dear Colin: We do not want to vote you out. We simply want to flush your idol. I seriously hope you are still here after tonight. You know what? This round has been insane. I'm obviously on the bottom, ready to get voted out. I wanted immunity so bad. But instead of crying, I created a beautiful plan that I hope comes to fruition. Anastasia won immunity. My game move this round is multilayered. First step is to create immunity for 3 people: me, Anastasia, Jared. We told everybody that Jared had won immunity, and that he may or may not idol for me. This is perfect because if they vote for me, they'll have their votes negated, same with splitting them on Anastasia. They'll completely avoid voting for Jared to avoid their vote not being counted. Next step: flush idols. Josh approached me last night and he wanted to work with me and Jared to flush out idols from Elle, Amy, Colin. Originally before he even came to me, I had wanted to do a 2-2 on Amy and Colin and tell him it's between Elle and Amy, but he actually said that he wants to do a 1-1-1 on those 3 to guarantee either idols being flushed or we get our pick of who goes. Josh doesn't know that Anastasia is with us too, but it's sorted. Colin wants to vote out Josh here, but everybody wants to vote out me. He came to me and Jared to vote Josh, and hope that they (Colin, Amy, Josh, Elle, Anastasia) split the vote on me and Anastasia. However, since the split was (Elle, Josh, Anastasia) vote me, and (Colin, Amy) vote Anastasia, the vote split no longer works since Colin is voting for Josh and Amy wants to vote me. Essentially, it's a 4-3 Me to Josh in Colin's eyes, and he wants to get a vote thrown so that it could at least tie 3-3. Me, Jared, Anastasia have decided before even Colin and Josh approached us that we wanted to do a 2-1 on Colin and Amy or something, so the fact that Josh approached us is perfect. How are we countering advantages? 1. Idols Jared has one idol, and there's only 2 idols between Elle, Amy and Colin. By throwing votes on all 3, we either guarantee somebody flushes an idol, or we guarantee somebody gets idoled out 2. Floating advantage from hunt 5 From the wording, it's either an idol nullfier or steal a vote. I'm voting for Elle here just in case it's a steal a vote, so that at least Amy is still open for a revote in case Colin idols. (I'm hedging my bets that Elle has it not Amy) 3. Idol Nullifier In this case, I go if Colin idols, and I will just…not forgive Faffy for putting both a chaos idol and an idol nullifier in a game and those be the two ways I go. Let's just hope this isn't what hunt 5 is. The final plan should yield 2 votes Colin, 2 votes Jodi, 1 vote Josh, 1 vote Elle, 1 vote Amy. In a revote, we save Me > Josh > Elle > Amy > Colin. This vote is for the win. This will be my game winning move. Creating immunity for 3 people, flushing idols, picking who goes. Let's. Freaking Go.

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Episode 12 - "i'm baaaaaacckkkkk 😈" ~Jodi

This is literally worst case right now with jodi winning the play back like throughout the day she has won back her allies including anastasia since she swapped coins with her. Elle, colin, and josh all gave me all their coins to grab immunity before the other side to protect me but also it makes me a bigger target lol plus I gave elle some swapped to get the second thing the leftover because I THOUGHT it could give us an extra vote since that was ony menu but I was tired and drunk and it was a LOT of words and it was just the hunts which I knew didn't have any and I feel terrible bc 150 tokens and my actual alliance is going to be so mad when they realize THAT I HAVE THE LAST ONES and fucked up in suggesting it at all. First they were going for info. So now I think Jodi got all the other sides tokens and they are pooling for something idek. It's literally worst case like we were set to be up 5-2 or at least 4-3 and now it looks like it's 4-4 again hahaha neat. And it looks like colin is chatting with jodi again and they are making deals lol like tbh if she gets to the end I am voting for her to win I've said it many rounds. Turns out anastasia and brayden not only know each other irl they are besties so she mad mad. And Josh looks to be making deals and thinking about flipping so I am on borrowed time but tbh I never expected to make merge. I am glad I have immunity bc I physically couldn't do the challenge anywU here lol and I fucked that up too hahahaha. Good times all around. Like I want to tell them about my steal a vote to have official numbers but now they'd just be mad hahaha literally colin and I had every advantage except jared's idol now. Ahhhh idk what to do but it remains hilarious. I'm expecting Raffy to give my info in these in the market and that is no bueno ahahahaha. I am tempted to just give colin everything bc it's funny. Also jodi talked to me until 1am just trying to guilt me into being back with her I said I have to sleep goodnight like 5 times minimum. Her social game is so good that's why I think she has them all back with her and possibly josh. The problem is that I was keeping her close bc she had the info from others and from my game. I really never had a number one lol bc I was just vibing and I guess now colin is bc I flipped with him lol and I think it's hilarious he grew his army from 0 to 5 almost.

So after I voted my showmance Brayden out of the game I was left with an interesting situation. I had cried to Josh Colin and Amy that I was alone now and that my whole alliance hated me. With Jodi back in, I dont think they believe me. I literally flipped sides so I could be in their alliance because I didnt trust Jay and Jared and Jodi. But they literally lied to me about the vote and said it was nothing personal to me but they didnt tell me the plan because they wanted to see if I was lying. Which sucks for me because I then voted Brayden out :( Now that they know that im truthful they said they would work with me now. But all of them have been pretty inactive today. I talked to Amy the most and a little Colin and a little Josh. But I wasnt in their alliance. So I asked Amy if I could be added into an alliance chat since I was apperently in their alliance now. And she said sure. And they added me to a vote block. That is not an alliance group chat btw. So I was like wow thanks. But inside I was like screw this. So before this all happened, Jodi, Jay and Jared put me in a true alliance group chat. This morning I was ready to work with Colin and Josh but not anymore. Not after they put me in a vote block chat clearly saying to me that I am just a number to be used. They don't even need my vote either because Amy has an idol and Amy and Colin are safe. So I'm obviously voting with Jay, Jared, and Jodi. And I know they probably have a final three without me. They could call it something really cool like the three J's. But I called Jay and explained everything to him. (Also Jay forgave me for literally trying to get him out. He umderstands that its a game and all of my motives about not trusting him anymore.) He said he would be a hypocrite if he didnt forgive me because he told people my name in the chaos vote. So I actually think we are cool. And I told Jay that I am his number one. Which is true. He told me a lot of things about how Amy is actually really smart and stuff (I thought that girl was just a goat that I could take to the end with me) But her and colin are tight and both immune. This is bad. Basically we will go to rocks unless Elle flips to our side. Jay is giving his pitch to Elle tommarow. And maybe I will apologize to her correctly tomarow too. ALSO SPELLING THE WORD TOMARROW IS THE HARDEST THING IN MY LIFE. Also I took 62 minutes to complete a puzzle today so thats kind of emberassing. Anyways bye everyone this was so much fun to type omg.

Jodi is back, not just Jodi Jodi, but player Jodi. Player Jodi thinks a LOT. When I was out, the entire time I was hoping somebody caught on that Amy flipped because they knew to put a stray vote on Colin to protect him from chaos idol, but they left Josh exposed. Why? Because Colin knew Amy was going to throw a vote on Josh. Also, Colin tied with me for closest ally and that set off an alarm too. Onto the next. So Colin won immunity, Amy bought immunity, but this could possibly be good because it means they are playing knowing they are not at risk themselves. Anastasia is voting with them this round, but she's actually working with us. She told us that the actual plan on that side is: "Jay, Jared, Jodi vote elle and Elle, Amy, Colin vote Jay and Josh and Anastasia vote Jodi" Anastasia will vote me here to continue "working" with them for the next vote. Essentially, they thought that Jay had the merge idol this whole time and Colin was weary about it, and that's why he got nervous about sending out Jay last round. That told me Colin did not have the merge idol. Josh came to me too about Jay having the merge idol. But the way they're splitting the votes this round shows me now that somebody has stepped forward to mention they have it (likely Elle) because if Jay idoled, Elle goes in this split vote plan. Therefore, somebody must've been like "ok let's just be safe and split the votes, I have the other idol". That's good and bad because now Colin has no merge idol paranoia, and they're also able to use it together. It also did confirm to me they've talked about it. Here's where things get tricky. Player Jodi is so tempted to run with it and do a 4-3-1 Josh-Jay-Jodi but it's so risky and could possibly destroy the long term social game, especially if they idol for Josh and Jay goes anyway (we are not idoling for him here). So instead, I'm going to use Jay's vote out to the best of my advantage. Hopefully flush an idol if possible, maybe a steal-a-vote, something. Knowing about next round being invisible is good info for us. Having this info is so key and usually I would think that immunity for a round is bigger than this but being able to plan ahead for a GAME-CHANGING twist is crucial here. My move here is to play the game through psychological distress. I have no advantages! Since they're out of tokens from buying immunity, me/Anastasia/Jared/Jay bought advantages for ourselves and also sent out disadvantages to Colin/Amy/Elle. Seeing that not only we have advantages but also them having disadvantages, they probably still feel like things will be ok because they'll just split votes or whatever and one of them needs to win immunity. But given this is an invisible round, I think Amy is honestly paranoid enough to just play her idol, hopefully Elle does too, and then between me and Jared, we'll idol for one of us. I also plan on bluffing an advantage coming back from Jury, and say something along the lines of having to survive one round before the advantage got activated. I'm going for the win, everyone, I know that if I get to the end with anybody, I have a solid shot at winning. I just need to get there and to do that, I must play an adaptable game – more than ever. PS I am holding onto Jared's idol right now. Power (temporary) feels amazing. Dw I'm giving it back....😈

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Episode 11 - "It wasn’t 6-3 before, and it’s not 5-3 now…it’s 4-4" ~Jay

😂😂🤣🤣😂🤣😂🤣🤣😂☠️☠️☠️💃🏽🕺💃🏽🕺💃🏽🕺💃🏽🕺💃🏽🕺💃🏽🕺🤫🤫🤫🕵️‍♀️🕵️‍♀️🕵️‍♀️🧓🧓🧓🧓🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 The only thing that didn't go exactly as planned was that brayden played his fake idol that I gifted him ☠️. I really should have pushed more that it wasn't gonna be him because I didn't get the joy of watching him use it when the votes were actually on him. Damn. But y'all I am so glad I was not on camera and muted bc when I was in the bus line I was losing my shit with laughter throughout tribal with how flawlessly we played that. Literally went as planned and all my info was accurate hopefully meaning our chaos crew trusts me 100%. I only wish jared would have played his idol too. So we know jared has his idol still and that's the only thing on that side. Then Colin has one idol. And I have an idol and a steal a vote. Which I'm hoping I don't need to use this coming round. If I can still be on the inside super spy role we can probably just avoid it. Like if they "throw one rogue vote just in case" then we have numbers and don't need the steal a vote. So basically I need to be like 😮 where could the merge idol and steal a vote possibly be 👁️👄👁️. Anyway if jared indeed has the idol I have every advantage accounted for and I just hope they don't go against me without me realizing ahead of time. Gotta love a spicy game. So glad I decided to go all in with Colin when I did. The only concern is both elle and Josh are closest with Colin too. So I have to hope he doesn't cut me when it comes down to it or josh and elle don't cut me. Bc I played a key part in saving all of them at this point. Granted Elle idoled themself on Colin's info but that was bc we had no other choice there to keep them safe with how we were playing it and thank God they had that idol tbh. I did not want elle to go home and I did not want jay to go home here and I definitely did not want colin to go home after dennis gave us all the info we needed about what was going on verifying what I already heavily suspected. I honestly kind of wish we wouldn't have chaosed and just used Colin's idol on josh to save the very powerful one but I'm glad it was used before it could be used against me lol. I loved the dramatic flair of it all. But really we could have navigated without the chaos idol and imagine using it with the 4-4 if only but it's okay we are sitting golden. I really wonder if anyone suspects I have the merge idol or steal a vote. I might throw josh under the bus for those on one side and jay or jared on the other. Who the fuck knew this game would be going like this because it certainly wasn't me. Love all this cast and hosts ♥️ looking forward to next round. I will be very mia because I'm literally at disney world this whole week hahaha Speaking of laughter, Josh's evil laugh at tribal for those vote reveals and reaction was EVERYTHING 😆

Here's the thing: I got a taste of chaos and now I want moreee 😈😈😈 unfortunately for me i don't have anything else to ensue chaos with So instead I'm messing with my former allies. Them being Jay, Brayden, and Anastasia, not really messing with but I am just kind of going "hey what the heck was that last round where y'all just completely ghosted me :))))" which I previously never would've done bc I hate confrontation but as I said I'm feeling messy. So far the story is that I told Colin he was the vote in R9 which caused him to use his SWP (and I didn't, Amy probs did but no one knows she's a double agent yet so). I told them I didn't and hey, if I was their ally, shouldn't they have trusted me when I said I didn't instead of believe someone else??? Which once again, way too confrontational than I usually am. (I understand some people are way more chaotic than this, baby steps people 😂 Rome wasn't burned to the ground with the background music of maniacal laughter in a day) Jared won immunity, which is tragic because that's one less round we have to make him sweat so much he uses his idol. Oh btw idr if I have or not but Jodi? If you're reading this you're a great player with an impressive social game, in a different world I may have worked with you, albeit briefly (or similar to Amy) since I don't really thrive in situations where I feel like I don't have self determination, any situation where I feel like someone else is driving my car (which is different than working WITH people), and anyway when I feel out of control or trapped I act impulsively (which always ends badly for someone involved, not always the same person but always someone 😉). Where did this start... oh yes! Jodi: you're a queen and this is why we had to take you out ❤️ At any rate I think in these next two rounds it's either gonna be me, or I'll make it to F4. Can't really see any other way of it shaking out... Kinda hope it's the first lol, don't think I'll win this game and I am a bit busy, so... (someone from the background shouts, "Wrap it up!")

LAST TRIBAL WENT SO PERFECTLY AHH okay omg I can see such a clear path to the end. I can't believe these bitches let me get to final 8. ITS SO CLOSE. especially with Jodi gone now like the game is really opening up. i've already talked to Anastasia and she's down to come to my side, I think. This game has been nothing but people flocking to the strongest player for information and protection, and babes now everyone KNOWS that I'M the strongest player. so I just have to sit back and delegate. I have to make it to the end. I've worked too hard to not. I have at least enough to tie this round. There's no doubt in my mind that Elle, Amy, and Josh are all loyal to me, and I'm loyal to them. Amy is my closest ally, and Elle and Josh have been fucked up so many times by the old majority that theyre sitting pretty next to me. They won't turn on me now. (fuck I really hope I'm not jinxing all this for myself) anyway. my mantra in this game is now "Always forgive, never forget." I know who's going after who and who's aligned with who. I know who's come after me in the past. I'm not going to tunnel vision myself into just keeping with what's working. There's still probably 3 idols out there, and I only have 1. I'm keeping my options open and willing to talk to anyone who wants to make a move with me. This round, I tried to make a deal with Jared, but it seems like he's already went back on that deal. Sooooo, to me, that's just sealing his own fate. Plan for this round, we REALLY don't want to go to rocks. We're in a really bad position if we go to rocks. However, we do have at least enough to tie. Anastasia told me several times she's ready to flip, and I hope she's being sincere. They tried to screw her over last round so it's time that she takes matters into her own hands. Jay should be the one leaving. He sold his soul to Jodi a couple rounds ago and now it's over for him. I really hope this works. In a perfect world, I can escape this tribal without having to use my idol. But if Jay idols, I have to. It'll be really scary if Anastasia doesn't flip with us. I think they're voting me, so I won't be one drawing rocks, but theres a chance my allies flip in a revote so they don't have to draw rocks either. So, I think if Anastasia doesn't flip, then I have to use the idol as well. ugh. I just hope this tribal is easy.

Well worst case scenario jared won immunity and he also has an idol so he's f6 minimum which is annoying. I am scared at any point either side could be like lol bye Amy and if I didn't know I'm gone with my advantages 🤣 but that would still be funny. This game is absolutely hilarious to me like I really think there are other deals and alliances of course but every piece of info I have seen has been 100% accurate so now it's me who is the one with the most info flowing to them in the game and not the iconic Jodi. I could easily be being played by both sides but I haven't been yet. I think I gave Chaos enough reason to trust me fully at least for now since we are playing with low numbers I think they won't try to turn until 6 tbh. Idk what I'm gonna do tonight. The 5 told me they want to go all on colin who does have another idol but apparently no one knows but elle made a comment that I suspect they actually know. Then the 4 are deciding what to do. They want to try to pull in anastasia for 5-4 OR have her actually vote jay but us 4 vote brayden to see if she actually does it. It sucks bc I like both jay and brayden a lot but I've already made my decision. I would love to sit next to colin at the end and probably lose bc of it haha. However I am also thinking I could give my steal a vote to colin to play this still protecting my undercover agent / anonymous rat persona.however it makes him look more powerful and makes my case at the end harder to sell since he could be like "Amy just handed me her advantage". I think this game has proven you can't go all in on social (jodi) or all in on advantages (colin , currently jared) or you will have a target. I am assuming someone has to suspect I have something but I can always say look brayden already had something without telling anyone! My fear is they keep both brayden and anastasia and I think now colin has stronger links with everyone even if they are lying to him. I think I look like a goat to most people and I will take it. Undercover goat rat queen let's go. Anyway I'm also literally in disney world but nobody needs to know that. Love this game and these people it's getting down to where it's going to be hard to vote people out. However I would love everyone to NOT know I flipped until the end but I don't know if that is even possible at this point. Anyway I'm indifferent who goes, but I'd rather one of the 5 so the 4 doesn't just throw me under the bus lol. Okay bye

So with everyone being short with me I have a feeling in the back of my mind that both sides could just vote me out here for an easy vote. But the more I think like of course colin elle and josh need my number here unless everyone is lying to me haha. So it looks like anastasia is flipping with us to vote "jay" and is "convincing me". Basically she is going to BE MAD MAD because at this point I'm like double or triple lying to everyone but yolo. She was so sweet and offered me to vote colin to tie it then switch in a revote but I said "in case of a vote advantage" I don't want to risk it. However I have that lol. So in that case everyone is going to know I flipped tonight but yolo bc apparently there's a group called "sorry Amy" planning on my vote out after this anyway because they think I fed colin info. Which is true but I don't want them to know haha. The boys have been impossible to talk to and then all at once they were messaging me and jared is like "I don't have any f3 deals I'm with you now that jodi is gone. It's very sus because anastasia was telling me about the boys' f3. So anastasia told me they are telling me elle to "test" me and if elle idols they know. But elle won't idol bc the real vote is colin and obviously anastasia would have told colin. Colin's pull in this game is wild haha literally building his little army up. I can try to say I'm making him do the dirty work since I'm busy but he could really win this. If I am going to be voted out I hope I know to give him my advantages at this point because it would be hilarious. At minimum it keeps the target more on colin haha. Anyway we are also expecting a hands up after this so it's about to be hilarious and this game is wild. They all playing me lol or not. I mean at minimum I know they expect I have the idol bc they keep asking about it and sending brayden to do it. Sorry even if I'm on the block I'm not saying that until I need to and even then probably only telling colin at this point. Bc when I tell the 4 they will be upsetty too.

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Episode 10 - "I've been channeling Raffy's chaos and messy style" ~Amy

DAMN last tribal really killed the vibes in the game. no one wants to talk. everyone is scared of stuff getting leaked or turning on people. BUT ON THE FLIP side that means everyone is flipping on everyone SOMEHOW amy managed to escape unscathed. They have NO idea she's in with us and with them. She's telling us everything. it's actually insane to watch her do it. Truly international superspy behavior. We have our numbers and they have theirs. They made another majority alliance except they replaced me with Jay. Whatever, expected. its fine. I truly did not talk much to people before the challenge, I just laid back and let Amy gather information for us. The immunity challenge was absolutely crazy good for us. Elle winning immunity is perfect, and the fact they GAVE AMY the other immunity is also amazing, a testament to how much they do trust her. THEN THIS IS WHERE THINGS STARTED GETTING EXCITING so I still have my handy chaos idol. I was thinking about numbers and I came to the realization that we could get Jodi cirie'd out this tribal. Their side is splitting votes on Josh and I, and there's four of us. If we vote the other 4 people in that alliance and then play the chaos idol, it leaves Jodi the only one without a vote and she's automatically out. It was a huge risk but I brought this plan to Josh, Amy, and Elle. because of the touchy subjects it made me truly feel that I could trust my allies right now. I was voted "Who is your closest ally" and I'm almost certain it was those three that put me down. That means I can trust them with this plan. (I hope). Elle, however, brought up the very good point that Jodi might be idoled, it's very obvious for us to go after her. SO we also decided that we should leave no votes on Brayden and then theres a revote between the two. SO TLDR THE PLAN RN: play chaos idol and coordinate votes so there's a revote between Jodi and Brayden. Also we're telling everyone else our plan is to vote Jared, that way it's not too obvious we have shit up our sleeve. there is the prospect of them splitting the vote 3-3 and then we don't even need to use the chaos idol, we just have the numbers. The other option is they put all 6 votes on one person and then we do have to play it. Thats why its so good we have Amy as our inside source telling us everything that's going on with them. so yeah right now we're still playing it by ear. not a lot of people are online and available to we're just waiting to get it all sorted out. Updates soon! uwu

Hahahahaha omfg so after we yeeted out of last tribal and then elle used their idol apparently anastasia and jodi changed their vote to Babs so they still went home and we kept Colin's idol. We jumped back on the tribe call and it was only host Jay and Raffy left lol like we were ready for a tribe fight! But I think it turned out better because I am still getting all the info in the group. Touchy subjects was interesting and almost exposed us bc colin and jodi tied for closest allies lol which I'm sure it was like 3-3-whatever. But she said I'm the group maybe it was like 2-2-1s. So that's a relief. However. Everyone is being really quiet with me and our brayden - jodi - me alliance is silent. I'm concerned they think it is me who's leaking but from what I can tell jodi (and thus anastasia, brayden,jay, and jared automatically) believe it was elle who leaked the plan to vote colin. So idk how but I'm in the clear. I'm just waiting to be found out bc I'd be an easy vote out. BUT I think they believe I'm still with new himym because brayden chose to give me immunity in touchy subjects!! And elle got first out!! So we are both safe and the current plan for Jodi's group is to tell Colin josh and elle they are splitting but they will put all votes on josh so that colin flushes his idol. Except lol it's a chaos idol. And if that's the case colin wants me to vote him ☠️ but it actually keeps him safe so I'll do it. I would just hate for the chaos idol to be fake. I think I know where all remaining advantages are except the idol I think Jared has lol. So for the break down brayden has an idol he believes is real but is fake and he is not telling anyone in the group or jodi or me so as much as I like brayden I can't wait to see him play it and it's fake. Then Colin has Dennis's chaos idol and one more regular idol. I have the merge idol and a steal a vote. That leaves only jared's idol that we might be able to flush this go if they actually believe jared is the target from Josh elle colin. But if they don't we can leave votes off jared and jodi and we can vote out the unplayed idol or vote jodi out and her minions have to regroup. My biggest concern has been josh bc he really seems to not like me ☠️ and here I am risking it all to keep colin, elle, and josh in the game lol. So now colin elle and I have a three. Colin filled them in and they trust me. And we waited until josh calmed down bc he was really mad that I cut his rope in the challenge. Unfortunately I knew that he wasn't winning bc he's at the bottom, none of them were giving him immunity, and I needed to keep up the facade that I was with them 100% so I was guessing like everyone else on the most allies even though I knew it would be colin lol. So now colin has talked to Josh and josh knows about the chaos idol so I just hope he's 100% with us. Because if we play this right it's 4-4. And then I'm gonna have to reveal to them I have a steal a vote lol they might be upset I didn't tell them before but I've never said I didn't have anything (except to jodi whoops). Also now jodi is thinking worst case like wants me to say I'll vote out anastasia if it's a revote and also at 6. I was like "oh I'm a revote? I got you" as in if vote you out sorry girl. Listen I know I'm not winning and I know I'm not getting to the end because it would be stupid to take me at this point. I'm literally a double agent secret spy lol. However the entire jury WILL despise me but all I could hope is they respect the moves I made. But it seems like a lot of people in this game take things very personal so I really think it would be a completely bitter jury against me not that I'm getting there. I kind of don't want to use my steal a vote at 8 and hope they still think I'm with new himym because then we could simply idol where their vote is and I keep steal a vote for 6 and my idol for 5 and I'm golden lol 😂. And here I was gonna hard quit the game lol. I mean tbh they could just vote me here... Wait lol I'm immune jk thanks. Literally i think Babs is indifferent and dennis did like me but his vote would still go to colin. But if I was in f3 IMAGINE the story of have to tell lol and convince them all. It's the struggle of playing more behind the scenes but I really think someone is going to leave the info. I hope josh stays quiet until 7 when we should have numbers. Anyway all of this to say I wanted to play this game doing the absolute minimum and I'm spending hours and hours a day like copy pasting from the group to colin 😂 and now to our group. The problem is colin really believed jared when he said he'd flip and I was like colin no that's EXACTLY what he detailed he'd do in the group. And then Colin and josh were like wait anastasia and brayden may consider flipping and here I was like no y'all they are telling me / us they're saying that. Unless it's like a double play they are lying to you and that's their plan. All I can do is copy paste their exact messages and hope they believe me. I really do think they trust me bc I'm risking my life here. I just need to talk to Josh and explain the situation and I am with him not against him! Honestly this is such a great cast and they are playing very well. It'll be fun to see how it all works out. I don't think I'll be at the end but I would love to see underdogs take it. I would actually love josh elle and Colin at the end and I'd vote colin to win lol he put in work! I'd also vote anastasia to win because she has laid low so well with still having pull in the game. Idk it's a fun one that I think will blow up on me soon but I've been channeling Raffy's chaos and messy style bc I'm just here to have fun not to win actually lol. I am writing this while on a flight so I'll have updates later. Oh right our 4 group plan is to use the chaos idol and throw votes around so that like 2 or 3 people don't have votes then they are the only ones vulnerable in the revote and everyone who got votes is safe. Then we can vote either jared or jodi like that's the thing if jodi doesn't play an idol here I don't think she has one or no one is giving her one. I think my only chance to make it farther is to let the 4 group know I'm with them 100% but still keep my idol for myself hopefully until 6 or 5 but lol idk about that. Like I can see them wanting to take me out then. Okay that's all my thoughts right now.

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Episode 9 - "This jury is gonna be ruthless" ~Babs

LAST ROUNDS TRIBAL WAS SO INSANE. SHIT. so I knew Dennis was going. Dennis knew Dennis was going. Everyone knew Dennis was going. BUT BECAUSE IM THE ONLY ONE that was straight up with Dennis and fought with and for him till the end, he gave me two fucking idols I'm literally screeching. i have THREE solid rounds of safety to choose from. I can literally just immediately be safe all the way until final 7 if I choose to. BUT THERES MORE. one was a regular hidden immunity idol. THE OTHER is a chAOS IDOL. that when played makes everyone who received a vote immune, and then forces a revote. this is SO MUCH POWER that I possess rn. i don't even know what to do with it. BUT THERES EVEN MORE. I talked extensively with Dennis yesterday. I gave him all my notes and told him everything. It was risky as FUCK but I've been playing this game completely honestly and openly, I dont even think people would fault me if they knew. Dennis returned that favor by giving me his powers AND all of his notes. My initial instinct, first merge round, of Jodi was true. she's MESSY. shes in with so many people and has no issues dropping and voting them out when she needs to. With the first merge vote she made it out to be like Ginny was a secret mastermind and we HAD to get her out, and I saw through it. Ginny posed NO threat but Jodi convinced so many people that she did. Same thing happened last round with Dennis. Dennis and Jodi were exrmely close but then she started planting seeds about idols and about rumors being spread by Dennis. By the end of the round, NOBODY trusted Dennis. I do think Dennis did some shady shit, and there is a lot of truth to what Jodi is saying, but I think she's such a smart and well connected player that I can't ignore everything Dennis told me. I need to work on distancing myself from Jodi. Make alliances with her in it. Rekindle connections with Anastasia and Elle and Amy. Solidify myself in this game so I can know exactly what's going on. I've been playing passively. but now that I have SO much safety and SO much power I need to start making decisions. I can afford to make some mistakes.

Okay so sorry for this being my first confession this round is #1, I don't even remember how much of the Dennis/me thing I recorded here but I'm obviously I made it! Lol I am sad about Dennis though and I wish people chose another target tbh, nothing to be done about that now. So the alliance made last round between me, Jay, Anastasia, and Brayden is a shammm. Which I kinda guessed? Specifically Brayden I already know from past ORGs that he will put up a farce for the sake of being more connected/having contingency plans (and like, he good at it tho so kudos lol) and Anastasia I know is a bit of a fair-weather ally in these (but I mean everybody is in Survivor an allyship only is as strong as the length of time it serves all involved). Jay I have the most confidence in because I've been allies with him the longest, and because he knows Survivor and thinks about it in a methodical, long-term way so i know if he thinks I am a strong player, he'll want to keep me around even if the tribe hive mind has already decided I'm on the chopping block. So Josh called me yesterday and I didn't answer oops but then this morning I was like you wanted to call? So we did and we talked about tribal and Colin (ty, Colin💕) had already told me I'm the vote tonight from this point though I already knew- Sidenote: I probably shouldn't tell people better ways to trick someone but 😂 it annoyed me so I will. If someone is the vote (Especially if they're the vote because you think they have an idol) Have everyone agree on a straw man name!! Have a pretty much across the board answer and reasoning why the vote is someone else to give to the person being voted and any highly suspected allies. Because today I either got radio silence or people talking about anything other than gametalk??? With one exception of someone who was straight up with me (which I very much appreciate, but only do that if you personally don't want them to go, honesty is the best policy but not so in Survivor) Okay, aside over✨ So anyway Josh told me of this megasix alliance between Anastasia, Amy, Brayden, Colin, Jodi, and someone else I'm forgetting... agh gosh whoever's left that isn't me, Babs, Josh, or Jay lol I'm so sorry I forgot who you are and I'm on mobile so I can't go back to Skype rn. And he and Jay want to tear it downnnn so he was talking about possible plans but none of them that secure when I went "I actually do have an idol" which shifted things dramatically✨ love to see it. Okay I haven't had breakfast yet so brb lol

yall i am ASCENDING. last night this game took A SHARP TURN. so amy calls me and she's like "I might be blowing up my game right now, but I have to tell you" and proceeds to tell me that JODI IS ARRANGING A BLINDSIDE AGAINST ME I KNEW IT the vibes have been off. Jodi's vibes have been off yesterday and I had a FEELING that I was being targeted. I broiught up these concerns to jodi, brayden, and jared and they all brushed it off. Apparently Brayden and Jodi are spearheading this plan to get me out, and they already have the ENTIRETY of the alliance on board. i was SHOOK to my CORE. like this truly has validated every feeling I've had about this game. i knew Jodi was messy. I knew the vibes were off. my gut has YET to be wrong about anything going on in this game. right now the plan is to lay low and pretend like I have no idea what's going on. Amy is in deep as an inside source and I can't blow that up for her. Amy is now my closest ally in the game. Just like she stuck her neck out for me this round, I FULLY intend to return the favor soon. I'm in with her 100% i love her sm. at tribal, before votes are cast I'm going to use my SWP to take Amy and I out of the round. there's too many variables and even though I don't think jodi actually can secure the votes I don't want to take that chance. not with this wild twist. it's also kind of a blessing to use the SWP now. Jodi knows about my SWP because I told her during the swap tribe. Once it's been used, she no longer has that leverage on me. BUT thanks to Dennis I also now have two idols as safety that Jodi doesn't know about. ANOTHER option is to use my chaos idol. Elle is the backup vote and I would love for Elle to stay. it's a number against Jodi in the future. My chaos idol would save both me and Elle and force a revote. it'd be CRAZY. so much scrambling. however, that'd also be a great idol to keep in the future because it can also be used in future rounds to secure safety for both me and Amy. god there are SO many variables and SO many different paths to take. I just have to decide whats the best course of action for me. Ultimately, I want jodi to blow up her own game. She's trying to control everyone and the minute they go rogue, she cuts them off. I'm next, then probably Josh, then who even knows. It's up to her to do whatever she wants. I need everyone to see this. I need them to realize that the best thing they can do for themselves is flip and be loyal to me instead. there is one thing they dont yet realize, and that's that I am a MUCH better player than jodi. periodt

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Episode 8 - "If you waited a round longer I probably would've saved you." ~Jodi

Okay merge update. Omg and so it begins. I actually think we have it sorted well enough for now, but the paranoia has set in a bit and everyone was all over. Jodi put me in another alliance with Jay who is also from subrosa and then turns out he didn't even know I was ☠️. And the brayden added me to a three with anastasia. And then we made a six with the core of myself Jodi and brayden and then anastasia jared and Colin. It's a mix and we all had questions able true loyalties, like if there's a kyoshi alliance, if there are OG tribe alliances, if there are swap tribe alliances, but for this first vote it is still really about people who haven't connected so it was down to ginny and Babs. I wanted Babs to go because one they didn't even accept my chat request until after I won immunity and two they almost won lol. So there was a LOT of chats and messages while I was in the airport lol but I had sort of stepped back bc I was busy. At this point I am trying to do less in the game and I know it's going to cause me not to make it as far, but oh well. It seems to have settled down a bit before tribal as we settled on ginny. Makes me worries bc if there is an og SEES they can get numbers now or if they are picking off new fools but we keep talking about the other side but it doesn't seem like they are really organized together? It's hard to tell. All this to say that in the middle of it colin was like Jodi is a lot haha but I couldn't say anything about the like 10 alliances I'm in. Also everyone keeps talking about advantages and I am not saying anything but it's funny that brayden who is supposed to be closesly aligned with me hasn't said anything about the fake idol I gifted him that he thinks is real so 👀 there's that sir. But I still am vibing and just waiting until they vote me out. I mean I just won the first individual immunity challenge and at the same time I won the Hunt merge idol, plus I have a steal a vote, on top of giving the fake idol. 😆 And I'll probably get voted out with it all bc people aren't asking directly about my hunt scores but I did say "not great" in some. Anyway it's a fun crew but I now don't have the time to put into this anymore so I'm going to try to make tribal but we will see. Okay bye.

So we settled on ginny for the merge boot which I was consistently like y'all she isn't a threat she is not going to win any challenges or hunts. They only thing she does is make alliances, she doesn't even talk to people. Babs I haven't spoken with and turns out they won the puzzle hunt (which I was so close with!) And it was blocking TWO votes! It was very interesting because we only had brayden throwing a vote on Babs and everyone else voted ginny I think. But Babs blocked ginny and Elle's votes, meaning they think they were against Babs. But Babs said something about insider info and I think she was referring to the ginny - elle - anastasia link. Which is scary like where did they get that info huh. 👀 Like who is leaking info 👀 I mean I know ginny mentioned having elle when she made and alliance with anastasia and myself. And I can't remember who I told that but it's either dennis (most likely) or jodi or brayden. But I was also stirring stuff up during the merge chaos which was hilarious so rumors were flying! Then after tribal which I didn't realize was so long oops I should have just not been there live but I didn't want to miss the first merge tribal. But anyway Jodi and brayden are freaking out. Turns out jodi was talking to dennis who was freaking out then jodi called brayden and I and went on about how she thinks he is the leak and also paranoid and was telling jodi she was in danger for some reason. And like don't tell Amy. And here's my confusion like I thought I was tight with dennis but maybe he thought I was closer with Ginny even though he knew how I was ready to vote them out back on oh phantom. And why would he even pretend like Jodi is I'm danger? So either he's not with me at all or jodi is playing me hard. Also one of the voting confessionals said that was for voting out jennifer it's vengeance which had me like 👀 ☠️. Because was that anastasia? But she voted out jennifer. Or was it an og SEES and they are all after us? Basically I'm just hoping an og SEES goes home this time and our alliance holds strong. Here's hoping I don't go home with an idol in my pocket! Basically I would love if Babs went next because they are good at comps and still don't talk to me. Elle still hasn't talked to me either but then again most people have been quiet with me besides brayden Jodi and jay. Which is fine it fits my schedule nicely and I'm not trying to win. I am excited to figure out how to cause chaos with my advantages and I'm excited to see how these twists turn out. I guess things I'm watching out for is jodi is connected with everyone but I think I'm her number one still? And then everyone is talking more than me. But we will see how it goes! I'm excited for a challenge that doesn't take much time / focus (even though I do have a little more time now) . Okay that's the update. They are playing cah together on our day off right now but I'm exhausted and in a car driving back from a trip. Hope they have fun and aren't making new alliances lol 😆 oh well if they are. Oh also one more funny thing jodi keeps saying colin is a super high profile player and he won't do anything too wild (which I know he will lol I was there when he mutinied with like no warning) and then she said she was like "Amy didn't play before I even went to her player page to check" like girl you must not have checked too hard lol 🤣 like my two Stings games are on there I checked too ☠️ glad I haven't been straight up lying to people but I'm definitely not giving information for free. If she figures it out I'm just going to say oh I thought you knew lol bc I played with Cody and Sarah and that's how I was on subrosa. But anyway I think it's all hilarious how my game is going. But I trust jodi bc she tells me things she doesn't even tell brayden like she went for 15+ hours and still didn't win the endurance but she told brayden 5 hours. Anyway that's all I got. I need to try to reconnect with people tomorrow.

Big round, could be hands up tribal, could be not. Regardless, I think being prepared is good. Right now, my top priority is flushing advantages since 1) I don’t know where they are and 2) they’re deadly in the late game with less people left. I suspected Dennis having the Phantom idol, and Elle/babs having the SEES idol, but Elle has a risk of having 2 idols - they very well could’ve won the merge hunt. Ideally I wanted to flush out Elle’s here, even if they don’t go home. The tricky thing is Colin and Anastasia always wanted to protect Elle, and Brayden seeks approval from Anastasia, so I wanted to keep them happy. I privately started to bring up flushing idols to both of them, and who they think has them. They both said Elle for SEES. I hopped onto call with HIMYM to talk, and Anastasia OPENLY suggested voting out Elle to flush their idol. Colin was shocked but Anastasia being the most weary of voting Elle, we were set. I knew Amy would be down because she mentioned before. The plan is HIMYM vote Elle and leave the rest out to vote Babs (Jay is ok being on the wrong side of the vote) but since Dennis wants to vote out Elle too, here’s my ACTUAL ideal plan: - HIMYM on Elle - Dennis on Elle - Jay or Josh on Babs And key part to this; - Babs on Dennis. If my instincts were correct, this either means we lose Elle and their idol(s), Babs and their potential idol, and if they both play, then DENNIS goes WITH his idol. Regardless of 0 or 3 being played, an ideal scenario is playing out. It probably won’t be very complicated but there is a potential for 3 idols to be flushed or someone we wanted to go to go. If this turns to a Null vote btw, I think I’ll push for everyone to just vote Josh here as Anastasia is sketched by him and I’ll just cut my losses at this point. If this happened I’d have flushed 3 idols anyways so it’s hardly a loss. But how brilliant to have Jared’s be the only idol left in the game. Also, I’ve worked overtime diverting attention away from Jared’s idol. Everybody on this tribe now thinks Jessica had it and walked out with it in her pocket, as that’s the story I’ve created. People like Josh and Dennis are still VERY skeptical (as they should), but at least I’ve made a big enough effort to consistently plant that idea in peoples’ heads that they’re starting to believe it and roll with it. Jared telling me about his idol was the key thing in making me trust him 100% in this game, and make me prioritize him and Jay 100%. Colin has told me about his Safety without Power, and that’s why he’s just slightly behind those two. Amy and Colin are great shields. I’m aware Jared is currently playing the best game, but I still have full confidence that I am planting the seeds and driving the votes of this game. The merge boot solidified that I knew what was going on in the tribe. Dennis has become a growing issue because he makes everyone paranoid but I think he’s still with me for the time being so ideally others go first. He tells me everything (he calls it tea, but it’s really just stale leaf water because I’ve either literally created the plan or his info is wrong) but he will vote with me for the time being. But I’m also sick of him telling me who not to talk to because turns out, my instincts were correct all along and I’m gonna talk to who I wanna talk to. Easy to gather votes against him when that time comes. At this point, nobody will turn on me without me hearing from somewhere. I firmly believe my connections are strong enough that there will be a weak link who will tell me or Jared & Jay. I’ll tread carefully but I’m very happy with my game thus far and I hope you all are enjoying watching it.

YALL. ginny vote went just as planned. purr. Told y'all it'd be just as easy as telling everyone what to do. everyone in this game is ultimately just a sheep that needs guidance. anyway moving on bc that doesn't affect much. So I'm getting really close with Dennis. I like him a lot, he's very interesting to talk to. I think he's the person I've genuinely had the most fun calling with. I love talking to Jodi but I just connect with Dennis on a deeper level I feel like. Plus I'm still reeling from the brief messiness of last round and y'all I'm boutta give myself whiplash with how much I keep flipping between duos. I wanted to try and duo with Dennis bc of our connection. but then Jodi and I talked and she explained all the messy stuff Dennis does in the game; spreading lies, throwing people under the bus, ratting people out, telling people they're being targeted. and i was like shit I'd be messy as fuck too if I was in Jodi's position and someone kept telling me things like that. So then I felt closer to Jodi. UNTIL THE IMMUNITY CHALLENGE WHEN SHE INFECTED ME sis. literally I would have WON if she hadn't done that. but we supposed to be final 2s? and she just snatching immunity from me and giving it to BRAYDEN? no ma'am. so my bitter ass likes Dennis again. but THEN BRAYDEN HAD TO PICK THE TWIST. and Brayden, Anastasia, and Jodi all wanna vote Dennis out while he can't save himself with advantages. I understand its smart. I understand that Dennis is a wildcard in this game rn. But i like him!! he's fun to talk to!! and I need a backup f2 in case Jodi doesn't work out. Jodi is getting close with Anastasia and Brayden, and I feel like the best thing to do maybe would be to weave myself closer to them as well. I need to get in more with the last two though. I'm playing this game SO emotionally and I need to manipulate that to where I'm also playing smart. so I'm gonna try and talk to Brayden and Anastasia more so I can feel okay with voting Dennis if that is what it comes to. ugh. i hate this round already.

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Episode 7 - "Jodi is doing the absolute MOST" ~Colin

wow we made merge. i'm not shocked to get to this point, but I am shocked to see that Danny was voted out. That is a major blow to my game he literally needed to survive one (1) more fucking round ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. But the show must go on right? Merge was overwhelming like a flood of people coming in. Some I knew some I didn't but based on my perspective here is my initial analysis of these gorls: Jodi- Finalllllllllly we back baby. Now that Danny is gone, Jodi moved herself up to my number 1 spot. I trust her I really do and I'm glad that we're back together I think that we can run this game together. However, I am withholding information from her. I wanted to tell her about only one idol, but I didn't even though we video chatted and I strongly considered telling her like I think I can trust her but at the same time it was almost like she was trying to pull some info out of me? idk i said that if i ever play the game of survivor i would never tell anyone about my idol and i'm just gonna ride with my gut. But we caught up and we are thinkin a lot of the same stuff. I feel like she's just like me, where she wants me to believe shes giving me 100% trust but shes really giving me 95% the same way I am. I still have my eye on her but she is my ideal person to ride this game with. It's just gonna be a problem when I need an ally to play something with and I'm gonna have to do major damage control. We'll cross that bridge when we get there. Amy- Girlllll idk how I feel about u anymore. Don't play the fakey fakey nicey nicey game with me you cannot bullshit the bullshit artist rn. She's working with others and trying to play the game where shes just nice to everyone and in everyones good graces. no. Jodi and i see you girllll we watchinnnnnn youuuu I don't think she fully wants to work with ginny but shes potentially tight with others too. I believe she has my back to some extent, but i know shes dipping her hand into a lot of pots. Babs- the only person i did not talk to. Colin- I know he's close with Jay so i made nice with him. Jodi informed me that hes tight with her too and I said perf bc he's tight with Jay so that is the formation of the group. Jay- Same stuff. meh. Jared- My king luv u xoxo we haven't talked too too much but I don't think we need to. You get spot number 2 my love. Also he told me about an alliance hes making with i think amy brayden anastasia and him which is good also confirms more that amy is very ugh. Brayden- Meh Ginny- Meh but also literally reached out to me and was like "i'm working with amy and anastasia and i know elle we wanna make a huge merge majority if u wanna join" LIKE WTFFFFFFF EFHIUDEHUDFBFHIUFE like u can't make this stuff up why would u tell me this????? All Ginny has done during this premerge is just reveal to me that shes actually smarter than shes making herself out to be, and it clicks now that she did not really need to connect much with us BECAUSE SHE ALREADY HAD HER PEOPLE THAT SHE WAS WAITING TO GET TO AT MERGE LIKE OMGGG the tribe placements Elle- Now miss elle.... turns out you do have a lot of connections here. And you're smart. interestingggggggggg. You are a problem for me. Anastasia- you are a problem for me already. i see you talking to everyone being all nice and shit like yes i get it youre supposed to be making connections and blah blah blah but not like this youre going about it wrong. And now I know you already have a group that you'd prioritize over me miss thing. Watchin you too. Josh- Glad he survived and I think he's riding with me. Back on original phantoms I told Jodi that I didn't speak to him when in fact josh and I were like alliance yas. I fear that he may have told Jodi that him and I were close and maybe thats where she's starting to get a bit shaky with me. But I know the two of them stuck together with an alliance of Collin Jodi and Josh. Butttt jared did tell me that josh was like i wanna work with u and he could probs be saying that to everyone yas i think i got everyone. So Jodi wants to go for ginny but I wanna go for anastasia. The tricky thing is there are soooo many advantages out there that if you say the wrong thing to someone it'll bite you in the ass unexpectedly and I am reallyyyyy not trying to get blindsided with two fucking idols in my pocket. So I want to get a group together that I proposed to jodi and jared separately which would be me, jodi, jared, jay, colin, josh. I don't think these people would run their mouths about who we voting out just to prevent an advantage from being played. I want to essentially force that group of elle brayden anastasia ginny amy(?) on the bottom but also in my good graces at face value. I think once the merge hit and even talking to jodi and jared the air is different and I feel like everyone is running around making alliances. I feel like jared and jodi even have a different air about them almost like the gears are finally starting to turn. i still gotta trust them and i think i can. It's just not gonna be cute when i start whipping out idols and theyre gonna be like wtf you fucking lied dennis. but again, will cross that bridge when i get there. gonna spend the next two days just chit chatting and being nice to these people. ginny is on the hit list, and i'm glad jodi is being very forward with it because shes just making herself a target.

It was kinda a slow day. I talked with elle for a while today but no game talk. same with anastasia and they wanna make a russians alliance but like this is post-ironic. anastasia cannot run around making alliances with people like its obviously not real? BUT i realized that anastasia is doing this. elle is linked to anastasia. brayden has a linkage there (whos also playing dumb with me like i see right through dis boy). ginny is associated too. amy is involved. i know jared has a fake alliance with them and josh is floating around somewhere too. i may be the only one in here not making a million alliances except like babs lol but the point is i dont need any of those groupings and alliances. let them make groupchats. let thm do whatever because they will all fall apart except the elle/anastasia and co group which has allegiance that goes beyond this game. i just need to essentially stay in the good graces of the people i wanna vote out. because literally most of them are essentially double/triple dipping and people are already on edge and paranoid so like all i need to do is just buy a tiny bit of time, hope that the little tiny seeds that have been growing for a day now sprout in the coming days, and groups and alliances crumble apart. like i didnt do anything wrong for making any move when it comes down it bc essentially nobody wants to involve me? so essentially just painting the picture of being the friendly outsider casting votes until they all realize they cant trust each other. but i trust jared and jay rn and they will help me get through this. jodi also numba 1 buttttttt ughhhhhhhhhhhh i was thinking like okay if people are saying ginny then what is ginny saying? what are ginnys allies saying (if she even has true ones) like my logic would be that the other person receiving votes may be jodi. shes quite vocal and out there and like shes digging herself a grave every day but im not gonna stop her from digging? like if word goes to ginny that ginny may be getting votes and ginny asks who started this shit? it'll probably fall back on jodi. i fear she might not last much longer if she is on the vote because that'll get her in peoples minds. anywho yeah, the important things are that i have a good connection with jared jay and jodi, and i love that i got to jared before any of these other ppl. like theyre all coming to him with stuff and hes just bringing the info back to me. maybe he tells me half truths but nonetheless its something. if we just figure out where votes are going we figure out what to do from within and if i ever pick up on weird vibe changes and shit becomes different based on how they act with me i will whip out one or maybe even two idols teehee. so yeah plan rn, be chill and friendly BUT NOT OVERDO IT LIKE SOME PEOPLE, bank on the fact that there are lots of cracks in some of these groups, and just make sure the vote does not fall on me. :)

MERGE IS INSANE! From a tribe of 6 to 5 to 4 to now 12, it's a lot to keep up with. I'm glad Phantoms stayed afloat and we own 1/2 the merge, but there's a lot going on. Within a day, I created/got added to several alliances, so here's the breakdown (BTW, I CAME UP WITH THE ALLIANCE NAMES AND THEMES. CREDIT TO ME): 1) jodi's lovers – me, Jay, & Jared; this is my F3, this is my alliance. I will go into detail about my history with Jared later, but Jay was in my last org but we never got to play together due to never being swapped together and not making merge. Jay & Jared were swapped together, aligned, then realized I was a commonality so we decided to do a solid 3. This is where my true loyalty lies. All my info from other alliances and conversations are directed here. 2) 21 gang – me, Colin, & Jay; Colin and Jay were tightest on OG S.E.E.S, and Colin and I were tightest on new S.E.E.S. This came together naturally due to that, as well as me and Jay feeling good about playing together. 3) the krusty krab – me, Josh, Colin, & Jay; this is an extension of 21 gang, to pull in Josh as ours and nobody else's. He let out that he knew Danny so now that he's gone, Josh's best option is to stick to me and Colin, and as a result, Jay. This next vote will truly test that he's with us and not any secret alliance with the other side, but I am pretty certain he wouldn't blow up his game with the three of us to save who we're voting out. 4) how i met your mother – me, Amy, Anastasia, Jared, Brayden, Colin; originally they left Colin out but I fought to keep him so that he's in a big alliance and doesn't feel like a side piece, because he isn't. My loyalty is with him and Jared over the rest of them. Having 3/6 on my side is also good because as far as they know, I don't know Jared or Anastasia. This alliance is clearly not really one to stick together, but at the minimum, it's creating fun conversation and personal connections, as well as subconsciously leaving names out of peoples' mouths. That's honestly the only reason why I'm here, as I'm certain that the Stings kids have their separate alliance. ONE ON ONE ALLIANCES: 1. JAY & JARED are truly both my #1s. I'm going with them to the end, even though I'm 99% sure Jared beats both of us for being a Denise, winning advantages, surviving that cursed Fools tribe. 2. Colin honestly would be my tightest person here if not for Jay & Jared being upfront about just running to the end together. Colin essentially is my #1 from new S.E.E.S, and he even told me about his Safety Without Power. I trust him so much, but I cannot trust him over jodi's lovers because he does know Anastasia and Elle and Amy and whoever else. However, he's not my absolute #1 not because I don't trust him, I just trust jodi's lovers more. 3. Dennis – this is a key relationship that I have maintained. I connected with Dennis in hour 1 of the game, but honestly I struggle with trusting him because he is just so paranoid all the time about votes, advantages, alliances, etc. He got freaked out by Amy because she messaged everyone on OG Phantom, like what? We only had 6 people. But I genuinely think he relies on me because he thinks I'm not connected to Stings alumni with him. But he does love to stir up paranoia and try to plant seeds and doubts. We need his vote for the time being, but jodi's lovers agree that he's too paranoid to keep in the long term. And he would flip. 4. Babs/Josh – these two I've just maintained relationships from the swapped tribe and it has paid off because they are numbers coming into the merge. 5. Amy – ah, my OG #1. Girl, I still see you as my #1 occasionally but you've freaked me out with your Ginny and Anastasia alliance, as well as the subtle unwillingness to get rid of Ginny. If it was genuinely just to keep OG Phantom numbers, I understand and I'm sorry for the paranoia, but hopefully you see why that was never gonna be a concern – I had Colin, Jay and Jared (& honestly Babs too) locked down, who are much more willing to play this game with me than Ginny ever did. I love you though and I hope we can get back to #1 status within the next couple rounds. THE KIDS WILL PICK EACH OTHER OVER US. I'll share my story with Jared as well as our Merge boot plan in the next confessional(s).

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Episode 6 - "God abandoned us when we did those riddles" ~Babs

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THIS WAS a very stressful round. the challenge was really hard and I spent all day thinking we were def gonna lose bc we kinda butchered it. I was doin some self reflection and trying to think of how to go about the rest of the game. It's weird having such small tribes, going into merge it's gonna be a completely different game. I have an alliance with Jodi and josh, but honestly I only really feel bonded and connected to Jodi Jodi is my #1. point blank. period. The only reason I aligned with Josh was bc I thought they were close, being from the same og tribe. HOWEVER, Danny and josh know each other and are friends i guess, and news of this shook Jodi and I. had we gone to tribal, I think I could have possibly tried to convince Jodi to vote Josh out instead of Babs. Babs still isn't super active and I have yet to talk any game with them, but they are honestly very fun and we've connected through tribe calls and such. I kinda wanna keep them around as long as possible. I could see them becoming a goat for me in the future. wig. LUCKILY however we only flopped a little and another tribe flopped harder. SO NO TRIBAL. and we're all like 95% sure that MERGE IS TONIGHT. I'm ultimately just so ready to get off this small ass tribe and start playing the game harder. merge is the perf opportunity to do that and step my bussy up. other random tea thoughts: while calling w Jodi last night, we talked about tribe dynamics going into merge. Jodi doesnt trust Ginny from her og tribe. not really sure why, her reasoning was honestly kinda vague. BUT i'm here for it. Jodi loves planting seeds and I am here to oversee their harvest. thats how our dynamic works. I wanna reconnect with my original alliance from OG SEES and get all the tea I can. I really feel like I haven't made the connections I need to before merge because we've had such small tribes without much conflict. the first stages of my merge game is going to be 100% social, trying to make up for lost time and lost conversations. thats all i got. sorry if its incoherent. im gay.

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Episode 5 - "Maybe it's because I don't have to be smart or problem solve" ~Anastasia

a fucking chaos idol like what the fuck. literally sitting on a regular idol and a chaos idol and my goal is to not play them to protect myself but to do some funky shit with them and fuck someone over <3 anywho with this upcoming immunity challenge there is potential for loss, but i feel much more comfortable on this tribe than i did at first if we do end up going to tribal. i dont think jay or jared are gonna screw me here and i know brayden is not either. brayden or elle will go and i told jay id be cool with brayden going but im gonna aim to target elle bc in the long run more og phantoms the better once merge hits. i think we can only afford one tribal bc if we lose twice there is room for something crazy to happen because im playing as if jared and jay have idols. ALSOOOO shaad got fuckin voted out. i expected the sees to do really well in that challenge bc they have people like josh and jodi but when i saw their score.... i was like yikes. im not shocked shaad got voted out bc when i saw that score i was like yeahhhh he probs did not contribute. my guy didnt even show up to tribal thats kind of iconic behavior. but also a bit disrespectful to the org like whyd you sign up in the first place. i get why he had votes on him on the original fools tribe now. oh well, he was gonna be a number for me later on but i know hes also a very bitter juror (flashback to motp) so in a way its good hes out before then so i'll replace him with another number. my prejury/premerge plan was to collect at least one advantage and now i have two. so thats good. my second part of the plan is to collect numbers. on this tribe i have jared jay and brayden. back on phantoms i have josh, jodi, and amy. i have danny too, and jared thinks he has danny too. jay has colin from sees. i essentially need to keep painting the picture that jared myself and jay are the core and everyone swarms around us and we control the votes. that'll be cute for the first two rounds of merge (which i think will still be prejury, if we merge at 12, it could be a jury of 9 or wait two rounds and make it a jury of 7. when danny and i link up we'll probs just end up comparing notes on everyone and figuring out what to do from there because thats who im obviously gonna ride with above all. if i get bored later down the line i'll get him out of here just to see his reaction teehee but thats way down the road and we gotta work one step at a time. ya thats all i got for you right now

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Episode 4 - "Now the fun part begins" ~Colin

holy shit phantoms won immunity. phantoms stays the winning tribe 4 times in a row holy shit. i actually wanted to win this time and put a lot of effort into this because no ma'am i need safety rn and work on these relationships. just need time. speaking of time, im about to hit hour 12 of the endurance hunt and im starting to feel like a madman. but babyyyyy i want another advantage and hopefully another fucking idol holy shit can you imagine???? i still haven't told anyone and my lips are gonna remain sealed. however i still think that yall are messy and set up my tribe where u knew brayden and i werent super close and from what ive gathered jay and elle weren't close either. so u put the two pairs that arent close with the one fool. okay so what else could we possibly have in common on this tribe to add more mess? IDOLS!!!!! like the three people that got the idols got swapped onto the same tribe like that has to be it. so jared would have to have one, even though he told me he didnt but the way he talked to me about idols in general literally makes me feel like he has one. i was like it would be so nice to have a little bit of security and hes like yeah i know what you mean. like bro just tell me u got a fuckin idol already. so then jay or elle have to have one. and i am convinced jay has one. maybe elle is gonna gag me with her idol but im gonna assume its jay. jared has spoken with him, and i have spoken with him. the three of us feel really good with each other (but im pretty sure jared has me above him bc i got to him first). we'll probs make an alliance chat shortly. i recognize that jared and jay are good at the strategic part of the game and are really smart and just good overall competitors and ESPECIALLY if they have idols that makes them even more dangerous. so i have to work with them than against them i have to make sure that they know i have them above everyone else. i think three strong players naturally gravitated towards eachother and if we really all do have idols its so funny that we're not telling each other. but im slowly but surely working on getting it out of them but if theyre as smart as i think they are they wont tell me. im just gonna continue being "transparent" with them and we'll see where it goes i hope they dont catch on. also jays a fucking liar because we were on a call today and i asked him if he did any hunts. he gave me a pause and then slurred his speech when he said "i haven't done any" like broooooooo ur fuckin lying to me right through your teeth. im convinced hes doing this one because he was up early for some breakfast and his lil skype thing showed online status allllll day like i gotta assume hes doing it. even if he didnt do the first three like hes def doing the last three dont play dumb with me!!!! i am not the one baby. but actually as im writing this hes not online anymore so if he really was doing it maybe he stopped? so if he was up early i would assume he started at 7 or 8 and ending by 9:30 he did 13 or 14 hours? idk im literally going till i cant stay up anymore ive already hit the 12 hours mark now if i went this long i have to go for the w likeee i have to. thats all i got for ya right now dont ever ask me for anything again.