Friends
Ok i don’t wanna lose all of my friends that i’ve meet over the last year, they’re just so great and lovely. But i for sure know they slowly will be gone in the next few months because i meet them through my ex-boyfriend. I’m scared of being alone again. (Not that i don’t have any friends but they are just different not as much outgoing and open.) As much as it was overwhelming and exhausting at first meeting so many new people they are just so great and i will miss them so much. I don’t think i always had such a hard time meeting new people and making friends. But in the last couple of years i would get so anxious just thinking about it. I’m always having such a hard time having a good conversation with someone. It’s way easier when i’m high or drunk although i definitely prefer being high over being drunk. I just hope at some point it will be easier for me to meet new people and make friends.
It will never get any easier to make new friends.
