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Almost 23 and never been in love

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Jealousy

I feel jealous of my friend. Although she's not pretty as me, she's taller and smarter than me. Furthermore, she has a really sweet and smart guy who loves her. I am envious because these are the things that I cannot change. I can change my knowledge and grades with effort. However, I cannot change my shortness nor can I find a love like hers. I really do hate this feeling of jealousy. It's an ugly feeling to have.

I feel so fucking stupid. I feel so empty. So sad. So mad. So oppressed. I'm going to explode one day and abolish this fucking existence in my dust.

Screw you Starbucks

I'm so f***ing emotional today. Feel like bat shit. I actually cried over coffee. Well f*** u Starbucks. I work my ass off, but I don't expect to be treated like crap as a customer. Man I'd like to see that Starbucks location burn to the ground. Really questioning my sanity some days. Nobody knows, nobody cares.

At it again #modalife

Took 200mg after breakfast. Felt fine(not sleepy) even without my daily coffee. So-so is the best word on 200mg. Had a latte at 5pm, and it's making me feel anxious. Idk.

Feeling it #modapill #6/15/2016

So I was taking 100 mg for 2 times within the week. Didn’t feel (much)? Well at least I was less hungry. However, I was still a bit fatigue. Today I went ahead and took 250 mg! Yeah… Didn’t think it too much today. Had 50 mg in the morning with coffee. 3 hours later… Had lunch and took 200 mg with 5 shot soy latte. Don’t judge me(5 shot soy latte is my norm okay! Heck. I sleep like a baby even drinking a 7 shots latte.) 2 full hours later…. I am feeling it. As in, my head kinda hurts and I need to drink water and need to pee a lot. But hey on the positive side. I’m more focus on my homework and studying a subject I have no interest in. Yay!

Update: got through 2 hours of math class. I feel like was was more focus on what was on the board and what the teacher was talking about(although I did find the math section pretty easy today). Took ALL the notes and still feeling like I could take like 2 hours of more notes taking in me! On the downside. Feeling kinda sick. Like I might barf, but no barfing involved. Headaches is better. And I’m more sensitive to the music while wearing headphones. Oh and I notice lights more than usual. 🤔 Update: it's 3:30 am and I can't fall asleep. Shit I still feel it in my system. Today was not a good idea. Should have stuck to low-mid dose of 100mg with caffeine . 😲😥

#modalife

sugars

I wish anxiety at least burned calories so I’d have one less thing to worry about

pokec0re

hippieseurope-deactivated202503

The difference between constructive criticism and destructive criticism is the spirit and attitude in which it is communicated. Some people take pride in putting others down, others take glory in kindly helping people improve. It’s well worth knowing the difference and recognizing the assholes in your life.

Sereno Sky, author of the Hippie novel "Lonely Traveller" (via hippieseurope)

purplebuddhaproject

Everything is a choice. Nobody’s born good. Nobody’s born evil. It’s always a choice.

Tom Hiddleston (via purplebuddhaproject)

#whiteppldrama

:/ why did they have to get me involved. ugh 😩

sometimes-words-dont-say-enough

Alli: Update 5/7

This morning I woke up and went to the bathroom as usual. Did my business and found that my stool is oily. Not a lot, but yes, this confirms that Alli is working somehow. I’m hopeful so far.

#orlistat #personal #weightloss #update

beaft

i dont want to look “pretty” i want to look otherworldly and vaguely threatening

petalpetal

africant

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