Swan's sanctuary

fuck off if you came for a laugh

[swansong-blogging]

INFO POST. READ THOROUGHLY.

>This is an ask-blog account of Swan from Lollipop Chainsaw. Block/ignore if not interested.

✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧ RULES: 1. This blog has a basic DNI list, see here. + pro/com/darkship, tcc. 2. NSFW asks are fine in terms of jokes, swearing, fangirling and such. Flirting is ok, but be prepared that the reply might not always play along. Fully explicit stuff is prohibited and will be ignored. However, expect to see lightly-erotic reblogs here. 3. No ship arguing, this blog doesn't lean into any ship besides the obvious obsessment with Juliet, and i'd much appreciate if you didn't try pushing it. 4. This blog may have spoilers, i am not responsible for marking them as such, if you dont want to see them, come back when you're done with the game. 5. Mod text is marked in red, character text is in green. 6. Do not expect me to post/reply/answer daily, the mod still has a life outside of this (surprisingly), this was made for fun and i do not want to treat it as a job. 7. If your ask wasn't replied to, it likely didn't come through, send it again but please do not spam. Other reasons may be that i havent yet thought of a good reply for it... ✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧ Tags: 🕸 - for reblogs. | 🕯 - for text posts. | 🖋 - for asks. | OOC - guess what for.

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>Hello, im this blog's mod, you can address me by O.T. or just....mod, i use she>he prns. I'd prefer to keep my own blog separate from this one. But if you figure out who i am, because im not good at hiding secrets, keep it to yourself please. This is my first gimmick blog, so please go easy on me. English is not my first language, excuse me for mistakes. I might leave little comments in tags, sometimes >This blog follows a pre-game story, but somewhere close to it. Think somewhere between Swan finding the book and discovering Nick's relationship with Juliet, and actually causing the apocalypse. You can still mention the Purveyors, they will be treated as entities from the Necronomic. The year is up in the air, as i still want to mention modern things without locking myself in 2012's timeline. >There will be reblogs and text posts besides asks. Some reblogs, posts and replies might be around sensitive themes, such as self-harm, suicide, abuse and other, please leave if you find them uncomfortable. Reblogs containing blood or gore will be tagged with appropriate tags (tw blood/tw gore/tw bones), blacklist them if you dont want to see it. >Swan may be a little off-canon, but i will try to follow it as close as possible. Most of the things here will be from my interpretation, to learn the rest...send an ask.

[cryptidcharnel]

I've been obsessed with the lollipop chainsaw repop haha

[swansong-blogging]

I have noticed you also spiral a lot when people flirt or give you compliments, why is that so? Lack of trust? I get that, but honestly you really are lovely and I'm not lying love.

Why should I trust any of it?

If i had killed someone and then told the police i was definitely not guilty, claiming, "I'm not lying! I swear!"…

They'd be fools to believe me.

[swansong-blogging]

What kind of attraction do you really have for Juliet?

What kind?

All-consuming, mind-numbing - makes me feel like a possessed man . Like a nicotine patch under my skin that I just can't rip off.

But for the life of me, i can't stop thinking about her. She's divine. She's perfect in a way that nobody else could ever achieve. She's radiant and kind. If anyone had told me she was an angel, I'd believe them without a doubt. It... scares me, because nobody should be that incredible...

Sometimes i wonder if she's a witch. It's as if she cast something to always appear picture-perfect, be loved by everyone she meets, and always have this-... this aura to her, that immediately puts everything to a halt to take all the attention to herself.

I don't know. I can't tell anymore. I just know i love her.

[starling-slasher]

school isn't THAT bad, is it???? I like school..🥲

[swansong-blogging]

Lucky you... I hope it stays likable for you.

[swansong-blogging]

Ever had a girlfriend or boyfriend? What do you even like or well preferences in a partner. You give the vibe that one time in your life you had a crush in a bully years ago

Psh, as if i could be genuinely liked by anyone. No, not once in my eighteen years of living had i held hands with anyone romantically. Call it sad, and i'll start gouging eyes out.

I always thought I'd be happiest with a person who'd understand me. Or at least share similar interests with me. Maybe someone i could sit in silence with, and wouldn't feel like im being judged.

Or someone i could turn to dust under my heel when i get bored, your call.

And... i suppose i was dumb enough to mistake bullying for kindness. Once. Made an oath to never do it again.

[swansong-blogging]

Hey there! Happy to see you live another day, missed to see that face of yours. Hope you are at least giving yourself the minimal care, what have you been doing? How are you?

(To O.T: I'm happy to see you around again! Hope you are feel better or hang in there.)

Oh, you again. Hello, hello, nice seeing that at least someone bothers enough to ask. If by care you mean eating more than once a day and finally brushing my teeth every other morning, then yes, I've managed.

Not much has happened... same hellhole of a school, same faces, same taunts. They should update their program, seriously, it's getting boring. But i suppose i can't be asking much from groups whose collective IQ is in single digits.

But honestly, last week was worse. Maybe i got more resistant. Maybe they started giving up on trying to break me.

[swansong-blogging]

what were you thinking when you gave yourself 3 hairs for bangs, naked forehead man

Okay, first of all, i suppose i wasn't thinking clearly doing that. It was more of an impulse decision. Second of all...

Naked forehead man? Thats a new one. Very creative. Standing fucking ovation.

[scout985]

omg you speak Japanese Nick?!

[swansong-blogging]

What’s your opinion on Nick? Like, I know you hate him because he’s with Juliet, but if he wasn’t then would you be friendly with him?

Nick...nick... oh, that jock with steroids and pornography for brains? Yeah, i dont hold any warm feelings towards him, i'll tell you that.

He and Juliet are such a sweet pair, aren't they? The golden goddamn couple of San Romero. Prom King and Queen. All saccharine gestures and promises to love each other forever and ever. Yeah, as if. Bet he doesn't even cherish her in a way i could. He'd dump her once school is over, im confident in that.

His teammates really are creative in their words of encouragement. For me to burn this school to ashes. And him? Well, maybe he doesn't join their taunts, but he wasn't doing much to stop them eiter. He's no less a participant in the torture i go through on a daily basis.

[swansong-blogging]

just one kiss, one smooch, one cheek squeeze, one hand holding, anything ma gawd

Wow, you people really are sick in the head.

Have some class, take me out to the graveyard first.

[swansong-blogging]

Ever actually tried to do some black magic? Did it even work when you did it the first time? Like small things, not earth shattering apocalipse or something...a love spell maybe?

Who do you think i am, a wizard? Seriously, i pray for the day when we goths stop getting treated as...some...cursed, satanic kids, or whatever you think i am.

But fine. Fine. Think whatever you want, see if i care. Yes, i did try some, but solely out of curiosity. Really, can you blame me? Got ahold this... weird, creepy fucking book one day. Read some spells from it, not really having faint in them succeeding, and lo and behold... nothing happened. Maybe i was too sceptical, maybe magic just doesn't exist, but it didnt work. But i was contemplating a second attempt lately. We'll see.

Also- love spells are for desperate love-sick degenerates. Which... i suppose i am, in a way, but i prefer my yearning natural and miserable, thank you very much.

[swansong-blogging]

...And I suppose all those things aren't controlled, you really make me wanna grab a stress ball, I wished I didn't asked and I really want to take your blood pressure now. Does the joint pain limits you? If so, maybe you could use a cane or something similar, it would suit you well in my opinion or some support in the joints. Also some topical diclofenac could work to ease the pain as an alternative to take NSAID's everyday that slowly destroys your kidneys.

(To O.T.: Happier than ever to get any type of help to draw this boyfailure, also hope I'm not being to nerdy with these asks.)

What can I say? Making people feel stressed in my proximity is a skill I’ve mastered.

Alright, point by point - No, it doesn’t, but if I go too many days barely moving, it definitely starts to feel... uncomfortable, to say the least. And yeah, maybe a cane would help, but I’d rather drop dead than show up to school with one. Im already enough of a target as it is.

And i dont take medicine. It never gets that bad....

[swansong-blogging]

honestly, rebel or not, it shouldnt have changed how people around you respect you and love you to the point of regret it. we all live teenagehood in different ways and you should have been supported through it and not be pinned as a bad son or whatever your parents have you as. yeah, teens do stupid things, but that does not mean to make love conditional.

someone out there will love you, now go shoplift something pretty for you.

...Yeah, I guess so. But I’ve always kind of known that myself. Still, sometimes I can’t help but keep having these..."what if" questions popping up into my head. What if I’d never discovered that music? What if I’d never fallen for it so hard it reshaped how I dress, how I think, how I see everything? What if I never found....

-You know what? I might. Been eyeing one peculiar ring for a while now.

[swansong-blogging]

what a beauty you are! how long does it takes you to look that handsome? I bet you smell like fresh hairspray in the mornin'

You people really love making my mind spiral, dont you?

Well this flattery wont get you anywhere, im not the kind to melt after a single compliment. Especially a false one.

But there is no magic here, just waking up two hours early and spending it to make myself look just messy enough to convince someone i had crawled out of a grave. I rarely get the needed 8 hours of sleep because of that but..everyone has to make some kind of sacrifice. Beauty is pain, or whatever..

[obriganeatspeople]

i couldnt sleep today when i heard the news so i felt compelled to finish this as soon as possible. This looked better in my head

[swansong-blogging]

Why not, sure, pull out the medical record, would be interesting to see. You would make a health worker happy to check it out, me.

Also you should check out the bruxism, specially if it's starting to hurt, take care of yourself.

(To O.T. I also have seen his face to close and have to many pics of that just to draw him, thats how i ended up drawing him with monolids usually. We understand the art of zooming in to much and stare.)

Wh-!? …If I answer that, will you finally stop bugging me about my health? What’s that I hear? Yes? Alright, fine. I’ll entertain it just this once.

I suppose it's quite apparent that i don't take care of myself enough. Hell, i don't even remember the last time i did anything remotely athletic. I don't have that many diagnoses, mostly because no one’s ever really cared enough to look into it properly. Neither do I, honestly.

But there are plenty of other… uh… inconvenient things. Let’s see. Juvenile osteochondrosis, minor vitamin deficiency, some blood pressure issues (thanks, genetics), problems with blood sugar, joint pain, poor immunity....these are just a few things i could remember off the top of my head.