sweet's poetry

pisces 3h things

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may 13, 2026

ACHING DESPERATION PULSING NEED

i am hungry

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april 24, 2026

misty unclear

what is it?

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april 12, 2026

to sit with you

simply

may i have that?

god?

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april 7, 2026

lashing out

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april 6, 2026

seeking confirmation

seeking certainty, knowing

robs me of the fullness that life can offer

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march 31, 2026

i did say i like to suffer

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me: oh u want to actually know me? to have intimate relationships is to be known fully? *leaves*

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do i go over?

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march 19, 2026

unknowingly keeping people away

these walls kept me safe (rejecting myself first)

to soften?

to soften

to soften to soften to soften

over and over again

tension rises, the urge to place another brick along the rigid walls of isolating self protection

reminding myself

let go

let go

let go let go let go

soften

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march 19, 2026

full of dirt, hiding

open me up open me up open me up

dig through to my roots

hands full of dirt (hiding)

open me up open me up

open me up

dig through to the depths of my roots

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march 19, 2026

it's hard to be myself around you

and it's not your fault. it's just kinda me rn

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march 19, 2026

retreating behind my walls

"if they really liked me, they would.."

"they think im annoying"

feels safer to assume the worst than hope for the best

keeps me away from the risk of rejection, abandonment and embarrassment

because ive already done it to myself

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march 8, 2026

THEY ASK IF IM OKAY AND I LIE

THEY ASK ME IF IM OKAY

AND I LIE

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march 8, 2026

i am so tired of self fulfilling prophecies like why am i fucking like this bro. and then i feel like people dont actually like me bc im just hiding. but i cant be vulnerable. i dont want to be sensitive and burdensome and annoying bc ik this shit isnt actually based in reality. i hate feeling like this. i hate feeling like this.

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march 5, 2026

confronted with my avoidance

the ways i manuever to shield and hide myself

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"Revolution is about awakening transformation"

A quote from Elmina Bell

journal entry on march 25, 2025

"wondering if my path is related to spiritual and emotional care work. i dont want to make any rash decisions based in ego, self-pity, giving up when i have old coping mechanisms come up. when i think of leaving, it does feel pretty rooted and i want to cry - feels like a knowing that i'll leave."

back of this collage (made on the same day):

"'Ba-Kongo Kosmogram: crossroads represent various possibilities; making choices; places where we reflect; deals with destiny, cycles, different stages and growth that we go through in our lives; commitment; life/death/rebirth; requires honesty.' -Elmina Bell"

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journal entry from september 16, 2025

"last night, had intense dream with Dhoruba. he told me to 'dance with fear,' and later, 'dance with faith,' with a half smile on his face. and i turned to the people there and said (myself), 'dance with struggle.' i had this sense that he was telling me that this is my struggle now. i felt so close to him. started sobbing when i said 'dance with struggle.' i woke up sobbing, too. all that is to come. eclipse season, baby."