We'll Laugh Until Our Ribs Get Tired

It's head vs heart. But the head always speaks. Here's my heart.

[symphonyoflaughter]

summer transitions

a vision of dexterity and a summer of sunny finales holding your hand and watching the night turn to day I am waiting to see how long until the final tally I feel your energy when you enter the room plucking away the fallen rose petals of last summer painting in yellow over its dark rainy gloom I see myself moving away from this and riding high but each nearing day reminds me of my past love growing closer to the charming Italian seaside and further away from the charging Spanish bulls running faster and faster towards my heart holes a deep nostalgic friction fraying my worn soles onward and forward to this future I chose

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Hopeless Romantic

coffee stains and mascara eyes day after day time flies heart-beating nights and adrenaline days each week brings a novel, consuming phase uncharted growth and inches still unseen a few week until summer, bright and clean jumping through hoops and evolving my dream building on romance and enhancing my being chills down my spine as I touch your exposed back all the pupil dilating moments I try to track It’s just a phase, a distraction, a page on this brave adventure to a brand new stage

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Beastly

Beauty met the beast and never looked back It was like the insanity of a heart attack Constant anxiety and wandering eyes Your comforting hands I now despise A growing fire is exploding in my chest I must now bring all this chaos to rest To turn this world beautiful once again And my heart will be finally heaven sent

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Trust Issues

Daydreaming and spinning My thoughts are whirring again The freshest balsam and tree trimming All of this is all in my head Really my eyes have been golden The magic washing across my cheeks The heart of mine that you are holding You almost drop it everytime it beats The blood is running out of control Don’t let it drip to the ground The secrets of the past lie far below I ignore that very doubtful sound

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10 Weeks

I haven’t written a while I shoved all of my fear in a vile I told myself that everything is right He’ll stay if i hold tight There has been something about this day The way the tears fell down my face The way that I breathed deeper in meditation The way you filled my mind during recreation Rewinding all of our time together, I realize now It was always me that looked at you with an unsteady brow I never trusted the restlessness of your calloused hands I never understood the seesaw of your words The scribbled colors of the black and blue crayons The hidden closet, behind the bed, filled with swords

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muted

i was told that a love could never be muted or silenced i was told that I shouldn’t fully depend on a love it was a mistake; a lack of review of personal finance a torn heart; a mutter and a final painful shove you told me what was on your heart and I asked for clarity tears shed down my face and I knew my love had to be softened what happened to the endless days where you repeated “marry me” a love full of light, only as soft and as airy as pure cotton you’ve put me in this in between; this state of uncertainty maybe this is my fault for letting you walk all over me now i’m left to observe your footsteps; eyes so keen soon a final curtain to end this cold and cruel dream

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over

It finally happened Washing over in waves I knew it was coming Thought it could be saved Empty is the feeling  Grab my artistry and run

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distance

you can commit yourself to a life of sobriety you can mark yourself offenseless and clean you could only look at me and lie to me saying you want to build a family tree now you can’t even imagine a dazzling ring a lifetime of of pure love and persistence you can’t imagine that venomous sting fighting the emptiness with much resistance secrets and mystery no longer appeal truth and togetherness is all that matters intertwined hearts is what i want to feel tired of all the uneven, broken chatter

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unsigned and unsealed

I wanted forever; you always knew that To fall into each other again and again I wanted a lover, keeping my heart intact A postcard with a sealed kiss to send Did I conjure this all up in my head? Was this something I wanted to hear? Or did you tell me after minutes in my bed? “It’s you and me forever, my dear” Am I your darling, today and always? Or was that just a sweet song to get me by Imagined the glances in the hallways? Have I fallen just a bit too shy? But people change their minds Fast to crease, simple to default Never wanting to look behind Letting the old decay and rot But you see I haven’t written in long Maybe because I thought we had it I kept replaying this song Probably all just noisy racket

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Surprises

It's sweet when things fall together Fun when love is filling the air Reminiscing on what we can remember Having new experiences to declare It's happy when new connections bud Lovely as the glittering summer rain Finding gold when sifting the mud Running and catching the train Just on time is what it always is Always surprised by the magic Sweet and tender as a new kiss Finding joy in the chaotic havoc

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Old Habits Don’t Die

I want it to be lovely; every moment left Never a tingle or motion in my chest No burdens or heavy, long days No burns from the cruel rays Your love drains as seconds pass Every moment expires fast To choose justly and with decision To avoid any wreckage or collision Giving all my heart for the taking Gather warmth from my own shaking With a couple scratches, I move along Can’t let this be the end of our song Keeping calm and sewing peace Never want to make the crease It’s not an end I’m trying to find Attempting to find the honest stride Why is there always something to hide? These old habits don’t seem to die

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Back Again

It’s like I’m going back to the start Retreating from who’s my heart Sweet to return to what was lost Finding myself once more soft Heartbreaking and sad I know Gazing again at my old foe My eyes drain and look low

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Enough

To start giving and stop taking To steady breathing and less faking To more smiles and less tears To more dreams and fewer fears To more praise and less lament To embracing which is heaven sent To holding close the love so dear To opening my eyes and seeing clear

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Burning and Bubbly

Where the hell is my mind these days Always looking to just fade away Breathing deep exhaling the fire Trying to fill my deepest desires Burning and bubbly and blank My stare softened after I drank How much more will my body take This great escape I love to make

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Hurricane

Flying high and losing time Just need you on my side I'm sorry for this wicked crime I'm not sure what I'm trying to hide I can't believe I spiraled so far I wish I hadn't fallen so hard When I looked at you in my car Down and out I wanted to crawl I need you with me in this war My friends all worried and panicked I'm sorry my hurricane left you torn I don't mean to bring such havoc

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Kill Them

jealousy pride judgement kill them all it is kindness it was always kindness that’s what she told me that’s what they told me what did I tell me?

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Old Ashes

Dignity burns bright as the moon rises Here which lies the childhood crisis It’s been awhile since we’ve met Was waiting for my heart to reset Back where the days feel old Burn bright, I was always told I lay now in my vacant, lovely room Love and joy my heart will consume This time can’t go up in fumes