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Life in an Autism World

#autism #YUP

zezo123

I sometimes think people with autism spectrum have so much common with cats...

Both are sensetive to scent, sound and texture

Both LOVE rituals and routines (like sitting on same chair every day)

Both are don't like change so much and get stressed if change happens so suddenly

Both showing love via bringing small significant gifts / body twinning

Both can be befriend with offering snacks and respecting boundaries

Both don't like to be touched so often

#autism #one hundred percent

synfulxvengeance

Me, telling my mom about how I was having chest pain at work and still feel uncomfortable (after having been sick now for a week)

Mom: ….so Auntie Lea doesn’t have cancer

I just LOVE being ignored. It’s wild how little I’m cared about. Can’t even get a response.

penelo14

You were sick for a week? With what?

synfulxvengeance

A cold, but this happened a few months ago where it turned into bronchitis, and this feels similar. It's just funny to me that any little thing that goes wrong with my sisters she's freaking out about, but I can't get ANYTHING from her. If I'm not happy/joking with her, it's nothing.

#personal

Me, telling my mom about how I was having chest pain at work and still feel uncomfortable (after having been sick now for a week)

Mom: ….so Auntie Lea doesn’t have cancer

I just LOVE being ignored. It’s wild how little I’m cared about. Can’t even get a response.

#personal

synfulxvengeance

Two feet of snow? Two?? Close to THREE?????

synfulxvengeance

We surpassed the blizzard of ‘78. That has been the focal point of Rhodie legends for all my life. Man.

I am exceptionally tired of huge events happening in my life time.

#personal

Two feet of snow? Two?? Close to THREE?????

#personal #fuck everything about this #this is lame #there’s literally NOWHERE TO PUT IT

So my stupid ass gave myself a concussion. Remember when I said I was upset the other day? Yeah, I ended up having a meltdown and hitting myself in the head pretty bad. Autism is so fucking fun. Not being able to control emotions and remembering what you did a week later is so fucking cool. Then trying to explain to someone that is emotionally distant (ie. dad) what happened and being told 'that's stupid shit, come on', being brought on a wonderful guilt trip where I'm called a 'liability', phenomenal experience.

Though, as upset as I am about what I did to myself, I am trying to be gentle. I know this is something I am working on, and I've made great progress - it's been almost 8 years since I cut, and over a year since I last hit myself in the head. This one moment doesn't negate that. One step back on the many stairs I've already climbed.

#personal

I am so fucking angry and depressed today and I'm getting frustrated from mixed signals from my parents (shovel the snow, but not all of it, but we're old and can't do it, but we'll all go out together and do it later you don't have to do it alone, but say you're gonna help not actually do it now). I fucking hate it and I feel like I'm about to have an episode and I hate that my cutty feelings are coming back lately and just fucking kill me at this point I don't fucking care anymore

#personal

I absolutely love my birds, but I really do miss just grabbing an animal and smoosh. Even at work, I can’t wait to go back to campus to see animals other than mice. I’m honestly surprised how much I miss dogs and cats. Not working with them, but just being around them. I want another cat or even a dog. I wouldn’t sacrifice the birds safety though.

#personal #frustrated grumbling