Mirror, mirror on the wall

Disclaimer: Please note, some content of this Tumblr IS Pro-Ana/Pro-Mia, and can be very triggering. If you do not like it nor agree with it, or if you're easily triggered, please MOVE ON.

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For the hundredth time, no, I don't realize I saved that man's life. I just happened to be being my usual blonde, forgetful self while talking to a dispatcher. I couldn't remember the whole address so I panicked and started verbally brainstorming. I'm just thankful someone listening in the background could make sense of it all and knew where to go. Richie saved Mac, not me. I can't even save my own life or keep my own shit together... Definitely not going to take the credit for saving the life of another person, just sayin'. But I'm so effing glad he's gonna be okay!

[thinwinsss]

“starving wont make you skinny”

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Well, in some alternate universe, I got married yesterday.

Not exactly. I mean, I was supposed to have gotten married yesterday, if I had actually not broken the engagement. Things are so complicated now days. And then I think... Had I not been afraid of the future, if I hadn't called off the engagement, I would never have ended up with Chris, never miscarried and could have saved myself a year of turmoil, plus plenty of extra rock-bottom-bullshit. Only to be right back at square one again with my ex-almost-husband. The universe really does work in mysterious ways I guess. At least I do have my laptop and Xbox back, I can tell I've missed tf out of them, that's actually an understatement. If things can be recovered in that way, then maybe people can too? Idk, we'll see. There has to be some reason JT and I were forced to cross paths again, right?

[mentallyillmemes]

[edmemes]

Me weighing myself after eating and discovering I’ve ‘gained’ weight

[helloheyhiana]

When your parents ask what you’ve eaten today and you have to make up something but still sound believable

[craving-thinz]

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[thighgapandcollarbones]

You want to binge again? Read this.

(Please note I wrote this to myself I’m not trying to make anyone deprive themselves from food and I’m not proana. Please remember to look after and love yourself. I’m just unhappy with my body and I use my blog as somewhere to vent.)

Think. Think about that food you want. Now answer this, how will it benefit you? Will you feel good after eating it? No. Will you lose weight and be happier with yourself if you eat it? No. You know what will happen if you eat that? You’re body will digest it and any left over calories will turn into fat.

How is making more fat going to bring you closer to your goal? Unless your goal is to make yourself obese then it can’t.

Yes it might taste “good” but that feeling is temporary, did you understand that? TEMPORARY! You’ll still be that fat overweight miserable person that you was before, if not worse. Eating that food won’t magically make all your problems disappear, they’ll still be there if not worse.

And presides, an hour after eating you won’t even remember how it tasted, you won’t remember why you wanted to binge on it so badly. All you’ll remember is that now you’ve eaten that junk it will take you even longer to reach your goal. It will take you longer to have the body you deserve. It will take you longer to ever be happy with yourself and your body.

You deserve to be happy. You deserve to love yourself. Fatty foods like that are only designed to make you fatter, to make you miserable and to make you come back for more. Don’t give in to toxic company’s whose only concern is they make money off you getting fat from their food.

That food will not make you happy.

Even if eating it does make you forget your weight and even if it does make you feel better in yourself, the second you’re done with it that feeling will be gone. And you’re back to hating yourself and looking at thinspo wishing you could be like them.

Work hard now so you can be happy later.

You. Are. In. Control.

[queenofsweetthings]

When I can skip meals because there’s no one at home

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📓✏️MY BACK TO SCHOOL DIET✏️📓

I will be following this diet all the way up until School starts (18days). If all goes well, I should be down to 135 when it starts!

Rules

ABSOLUTELY NO MORE THAN 500 CALORIES A DAY

NO soda unless it’s diet

NO dark meat

NO eating between 5p.m.-6a.m.

You MUST drink atleast 6 bottles of water daily

You MUST also drink atleast 1cup of green tea

You MUST do atleast 10min of exercise daily

All of the food I eat in this time period will be under my grocery list, linked HERE: http://photography-with-an-opinion.tumblr.com/post/172422595046/ultimate-grocery-list

Hopefully all goes well and I can get to where I want to be!