⟪・ MISERIA CANTARE .
continued from for @eternalle​ !
taehyung's heart aches every waking moment of his life now. his heart aches for the lover he lost because of his own stupidity, the man he once knew gone and replaced with something angry, and dead. tae can't blame him. he'd be angry too. still, his heart longs to be at his side, to do what he doesn't know, but he can't keep going like this without seungcheol.
fear has him shaking as he follows a familiar path back to the home he once lived in, memories of the last encounter he had with seungcheol attempting to make him turn back. it's a human reaction, a cry to save himself. he remembers the rage in the other man's eyes, a tone of voice he has never once heard before and it scares him, to think he's walking right back into that but it's seungcheol. taehyung needs him.
seungcheol had never asked for tae's key back, hand shaking as he lifts it up and slips into the apartment where he and seungcheol once lived together, not separately. it's been months, and as soon as taehyung peeks inside he feels like he's not even looking at the same place anymore. the lights are off, nothing but the moon shining in from windows in rooms connected to the hallway he stares into, frozen in his place.
he can see the figure drag its way out of the bathroom, and taehyung resists the urge to sob at seungcheol, staring down the hallway feeling like he's miles away from the thing he created. it wears seungcheol's face, and tae wants it to be him so bad. it is him, it is even through the anger, tae knows he's there.
tae jumps at the sound of the apartment creaking and cracking where seungcheol tears through it with his hands, wondering how much damage the poor apartment has taken during the past few months. he opens his mouth, fear forcing a gasp out rather than actual words as he has to listen to that voice, the one that has only held fondness and love until now.
"i couldn't stay away," he finally manages after a long period of silence, forcing himself to take a step closer. "seungcheol. please..." he doesn't even know what he's asking for. another step. "i want--" a few more steps, he can almost reach seungcheol if he were to hold his hands out to him. "i'm sorry, i'm so sorry." his voice cracks, eyes shining with unshed tears. he can't cry again, he's done enough of that. no amount of crying would take this back either.
this close, he can see seungcheol more clearly. the first thing he notices is his skin, how that beautiful glow he once had is replaced with a pale, unnatural tone that just furthers the fact that he is dead. his hair has grown as well, unruly and unkempt and taehyung wants so badly to run his fingers through it. his mind screams vampire, and run, but all tae can see in front of him is seungcheol despite it all. he can't leave him again. "please, let me stay..."
