#!!harbinger

[fish-n-friends]

ah, yet another suicidal part. who would have thunk.

[fish-n-friends]

tw suicidal ideation, disordered eating.

it is truly a shame, that our system is suffering this much. we are once again reminded by our body of its limits and troubles.

i do not wish to live in such a body, in such an environment where it and ourselves are not taken care of when we cannot.

and although there is Something (=help) approaching, it is another 2 months or more until it reaches us.

2 months of more suffering, which is quite cruel, dont you think?

2 months of constant arfid induced starvation, malnutrition, bowel issues, pain, exhaustion, irritation, occasional dizziness...

and thats not even touching upon the kind of issues weve faced for years now, these are just the new additions onto this flaming mess that is our life.

i know i will not be able to kill ourselves, nor will i be able to motivate someone else to do so.

i merely wish, that we had an out. and i will continue yearning for one, the only way we know how.