This was... a mess. A terrible, horrendous mess. At one part, all Nel had wanted to do was have fun. Her childish, damaged mind only thinking of how lovely it was that Ichigo and his friends had come into this world. This bleak... lonely world. And then, even if she wasn’t in any danger, he had saved and protected her.
Aizen was fearless, yes. Intelligent, powerful and completely thrived upon utilising the strengths of all his Espada. Who wouldn’t lay down their life for his purpose?
Ichigo did something far more profound than Aizen ever did. Ichigo was kind. His softness even managed to blur out the jagged edges of Hueco Mundo’s world. His blade and his heart...
She didn’t want to die for Ichigo - - she wanted to live for Ichigo.
And she hoped, tears streaming down her face and crying desperately for his name... that Ichigo would also live for them.
“ITSYGOOO! Nel is... Nel is...!!” She’s sobbing, in more pain than she has ever felt in her life and she’s not the one with the hole through her chest.
Nelliel didn’t know when she was screaming, or when he returned to life, but she was still crying her eyes out.
And maybe, so was Orihime. Because the girl was now healing Ishida with a determined sort of grief on her face.
Grimmjow, defeated. Nnoitra defeated. Ulquiorra defeated.
Ichigo was alive. Orihime was alive. Ishida was alive.
Nelliel was pulled into Orihime’s gentle warmth and could feel the girl using the cloth of her own dress to wipe away her wounds. Her memories were still a jumble and all she could think of was how even if she was in a lot of pain, she would never regret this.
“Himee--- safe-” she sniffed, snot and tears dribbling down her little face. “Don’t ever- - don’t ever be mean to Itsygo! Don’t ever- don’t ever... don’t ever make him feel bad for hurting the fourth Ethpada! Itsygo- you know.... Itsygo is a good person! He’s gunna win! Nel knows this! So don’t- don’t cry!”