Secretly you don't want to drain yourself on people, especially because you know you can't help them. You're too different, too stuck up and cowardly. So you keep everyone at arms length, cracking a joke and smiling, but your enthusiasm is fake. You try to come off welcoming, but you'd die if any of those friends you mistreat would find out what you really thought of them, damn hypocrite.
The least flattering self portrait one could do. A doodle of me based on the game Persona 4, where a Jungian shadow pops up and rips you a new hole. Expect more, except I'll just stick with fictional characters, since its easier to badmouth yourself in public