#!rant

[ayanxmi]

This is going to be the last time I am going to mention the subject of @fiber-slayer-red, and then after which, save for my own call out post and my reply to him. I am clearing it out for other peoples sake since I didn’t want anyone to get uncomfortable at all but...

Do not approach him for the sake of starting shit, don’t use our posts as just means to reach out and call him out yourself. Don’t do that. You make us no better than him if you do that. If you want to talk about what he’s done wrong, do it on your own merit, guys. If you think he did anything wrong, confront him because you think he did, not because we told you anything. If you wish to avoid drama, I won’t push you either. Just don’t do it because someone else told you, ever. Do it because you genuinely wanted to and have your own reasons. That’s why I called him out. That’s why Kenzie called him out, that’s why Negau called him out, and Zach too. Call out any problem you have because you genuinely believe there’s a problem, but know when to stop, know when it’s time to pull back and understand, and never, ever stoop to these lows unless you absolutely have to because someone couldn’t keep being reasonable.

I am done dealing with this whole thing, but if he keeps meaning to confront my friends like they are the ones wrong, then I’ll keep confronting him. Simple as that.

If anyone ever has a problem with me, just talk to me like a respectable human being over messages or over IM and I will be fine with keeping it there.

I do not like drama, and I will never like it.

I did what I did confronting what I saw was a problem, not because anyone told me to.

Do what you want to do, and see it however you like. Just be a respectable human being and understand what you are getting into and you will never have a problem with me, ever.

[fragments-of-fortune-moved]

@ the entire US government

Don't you all have bigger problems than the FCC screaming at you about the internet? Such as, oh, I don't know, Ferguson? Or ISIS? Or whatever other nationwide bull is going on???

Jesus H. Christ on a flyin waffle, y'all need to get your shit together and fix the big problems, instead of whatever silly little whims you have!

Obama, these guys ultimately can't do a thing without you signing off on it, correct? Keep the younger generation, no, everyone in mind!!

Most everything seems to be done online lately, from shopping to applying for jobs. Smaller businesses often get help getting employees online, and young artists who need the money to pay off their college debt and such NEED these sites like Etsy and DeviantART so they don't end up severely in debt!

As for myself, all the jobs I've applied for have been online, and online is also the only way I have contact with a number of my friends...

Just... Don't be dumb, government. Ya got all of us here beggin ya, listen to what the people want, aight?

[fragments-of-fortune-moved]

And I just thought of another thing to rant about. I'm sticking this under the cut for those who don't wanna hear...

Huge word wall under there.

So Carter and I share this (former) friend whose name I shall not share. This girl... Has issues. She cuts a lot, goes on about having some 'tragic past', and she just generally gives off a severe negative aura. She also is a bit of--No, a full-blown stalker to Carter, after she supposedly "fell in love" with him.

I thought we got this all resolved when the two were at my graduation party, but no. She won't fucking change. Just in the past week or so she's been bugging Carter on DeviantART, AGAIN. Going on about "Oh, I'm gonna bury my tragic past so you guys don't have to worry", when that isn't the problem. She's literally so negative and that's what's driving people away from her.

Carter told me earlier this week, she was sending messages like "Why won't you answer me? Why won't you talk to me?" and then straight up gave him an ultimatum, "If you don't answer me by *insert date here*, I will come to your house and talk to you myself."

I am getting so fucking tired of her causing Carter all this stress and fear. And the dumb bitch had the audacity to call me yesterday at group. I understandably didn't even bother to answer... And when I mentioned it to Carter, he looked worried, for an extremely good reason.

If she doesn't get her shit together extremely quick, I'm going to end up calling her out myself. I've caused Carter enough pain, and I admittedly regret all of that. I'm not going to let some mentally fucked-up stalker cause him any more than she has.

There is a reason his nickname was 'Luke' for a time. After our relationship ended (because of me, and regrettably quite brutally...), he changed immensely. And though I have not said it to him, I am extremely proud of him for it.

This bitch needs to learn the same. And if she sees this, she knows who she is, and how incredibly angry I am with her. This has gone on too long. It needs to stop.

[fragments-of-fortune-moved]

I think we all know by now how much all this social justice bullshit pisses me off. Feminism, to begin with. If you ladies in the US think you're being oppressed, take a look at some of these third world countries. Until you've suffered like that, had people dump fucking acid on you, I'm not gonna consider you truly oppressed, even if I don't agree with what some politicians say, or what school principals do to enforce dress codes and whatnot. (I honestly dress modestly to begin with, I don't do tank tops or any of that. I'm honestly quite insecure about how I look...)

Oh! And by the way... And yes, I'm going to use the term you all hate so much, and I myself am a female...

Not all men are complete bastards, or abusers, or rapists, or what have you!!! Go ahead. Scream at me. Send me death threats. Do whatever the FUCK you want, because I don't care. Hell, I'll take it with a fuckin' smile. Somewhat angry ranting aside, to be honest, the whole "#kill all men" thing makes me extremely uncomfortable.

I have yet to meet a single person who is as terrible as you say. My best friend (who happens to be male) is an absolute sweetheart, and recently gifted me with the greatest gift I could ever ask for. And my father? Complete angel. I could go on about the men in my life who have given me so much.

I do not justify the actions of those who have done those nasty things, oh CHRIST no--But if you take your experience, and lump all people of the same type into that category of abuser/rapist/oppressive/etc, you are NEVER going to recover from whatever fucked you (and your perception) up! To be honest, despite it being a harsh reality, saying the word "rape" makes me want to burn my tongue out...

And the very same goes for those of the LGBT community, and the multitude of other sexualities out there! I myself happen to be bisexual (and sure, not many other people know outside of Tumblr), but fuck, even my own mother asked me, "Have you had sex with both men and women?" It was insulting!!

I know people who aren't of the majority tend to be shunned and bullied and left out of things... I've been subject to teasing myself, cause I was too scared to tell others I liked a girl instead of a guy... And it's also true that there is always someone who's had worse... There are young people like me who have committed suicide because they couldn't stand the torment they received...

But you know what the truth is? No matter what you do, there's always gonna be at least one person who's a homophobe or transphobe or misogynist or some shit. It's true that at one point, I wanted to try and create peace, for example among a fandom I happen to be a part of, and even then just my voice wouldn't be enough.

And I know I might not be making a lot of sense or whatnot, after all I'm a girl just barely out of high school, who admittedly tends to be a bit naive and idealistic... But I myself am both bisexual, and officially diagnosed with Asperger's--Don't believe me? I can get the info from my doctor. I know what it's like to be pushed around.

The thing is, you can't change everyone. There are far too many people in this world to do so!! But instead of fighting, I try to understand the other side's point of view.

Thank you for your time, for those of you who actually took the time to read this.

[ahogami]

[this-is-not-xploded-tb]

For some reason, I bitched on LJ after not using it for a long, long time.

[ofembers-blog]

People who hate Gale without understanding him and what motivates him are the reason I drink to forget. People seem to want to hate him because he was unforgiving, because he enjoyed conquest, because he revelled in the war and he developed the bomb that supposedly killed Prim. I am here to set a few things straight [clears voice]. Gale grew up in the Seam, where people starved and children died because their parents couldn't afford enough food. No matter what they did, no matter how many hours they put into working in the mine; it wasn't enough. He had to watch his friends die every year, he had to watch as children had to go into an arena and kill eachother. His father died when he was young; he became the man of the house. He supported his siblings, and he resented that they struggled so much. He resented the Capitol's spoils, how they reveled in the games and loved to watch them and how they gorged themselves and enjoyed their splendors while people dropped dead in his district.  He grew up conditioned to hate the Capitol, he is a child forged from suffering. As for his actions in the rebellion, what nobody seems to understand is that he was doing what he had to do to win the war. He couldn't afford mercy; he couldn't afford to be soft. Not when everyone's lives depended on it. Not only did he fight to win the war, he grew up resenting them and he used this war as a way to exact his vengeance. Crushing that mountain was the strategic advantage, unless you've had to think of the best way to win a battle and had to consider the lives of innocents, I don't want to hear you use this against him thank you. Furthermore, the bomb. This is everyone's favorite argument against Gale, though it stands on empty ground. He did not know that they were going to drop the bomb on Prim. He developed it to win the war, not to kill their own ranks. He loved Prim like he loved his own family, no way in hell would he intentionally blow her up. Moreso, we don't even know definitively that it was the rebels' bombs that killed Prim. This was what Snow told Katniss to try and turn her against Coin; since when did we believe President Snow? He is a man forged by suffering and war, and his actions, while not always the best actions, are for a just cause and with noble intentions. He is a character with facets, depth, and good development and people try to make him into this flat, possessive war machine and it makes me so angry because he just wanted to live in a world free of the Capitol.