#!stories

[mazin-empress]

Okay but that comic.

There was this one mcfucking bird when we still lived back on the other side of town, that would just keep smacking into my bedroom window. It’d do this for like an hour, then leave for like a week, rinse, repeat.

I remember saying many a time “dad, that bird’s at it again!”

[mazin-empress]

So I was watching a Pokemon speedrun a bit ago, and I randomly remembered something I wrote when I was a kid.

I had these little Pokemon-centric stories with a bunch of ‘Mons all belonging to a self-insert (long before I knew what the fuck those are), and they’d get into all sorts of zany antics.

There were like, this Mewtwo and Darkrai that absolutely hated each other and a prankster Lucario. Might have Mewtwo and Lucario mixed up there. And then an Espeon that felt like the only sane one there. I think there was a Cresselia that the Darkrai had a crush on.

This shit’s like... Ten years old now. So, fuck if I remember.

If that tiny laptop I mentioned the other day didn’t have a fried hard drive, I’d see if this stuff was on there. Those are things I don’t mind looking at.

[mazin-empress]

YOOOO I’M BACK~

So the casino was pretty great and it went off without a hitch. When we walked in, for a bit I was just fuckin gawking at everything because it was a lot bigger than I expected. And very bright. The buffet was great and everyone went nuts because they had crab legs. An extremely rare treat for me, my stomach hurt by the time we were done eating. XD

Then we hit the game floor! The slots were boring as fuck, I see where Newtype was coming from about them being bad. Then I grabbed a glass of wine, which I basically just tipped back the glass when I finished it, earning a hi-five from my mom’s bestie.

And I did pretty good with the roulette surprisingly. I kept taking four corners, and also just kinda followed what the guy getting big bucks was doing. There was an old fella there who tried to help me along who mom thought was creepy for one reason or another. I ended up blowing my chips on the reds, but it was fun.

Also, upon retrospect I cannot tell if I’m buzzed or not??? What does that even feel like dfjkghsjdf. Then again I’d rather not be hung over in the morning so blah. But yes, it was really fun and I was needlessly worrying about what might go wrong as usual.

[mazin-empress]

Did I have one fuck of a dream tho...

I remember the first part of it involved like... Deadpool, and some other assorted shit. Then there was another part to it with being part of a mission of some sort. There was a school involved too in that second part. I think my team with trying to find out the reason for some killings on the campus?

One half of the school looked a lot like my college, and the other half looked almost identical to the interior of my high school. And there was one teacher who looked like one of the ones I hated who was trying to get my little group kicked out of the school... And that teacher ended up being the culprit.

Also Akutagawa was involved for some weird reason… I think I was actually working alongside him? He didn’t talk much at all. Distinct lack of Rashomon too. I think the mission was undercover so it makes sense. I also remember my group did eventually get found out, and we had to leave so we didn’t get killed.

I recall holding someone's hand at some point too. So that part was nice... Coulda been Akuta? I think it was Akuta.

I'm trying to wrap my head around it still but that one was fun.

[mazin-empress]

I may as well tell the Shrek story, because oh god. Well, technically it was Shrek...

So the karaoke host lady announced what song each person was doing before they went up. This one duo, a Corrin cosplayer and some other dude, had decided to do In The End. At first I was like “Oh god is it the one I’m thinking?”

Cue Linkin Park playing and me just having flashbacks to my middle school edgelord days. Then when the vocals are supposed to kick in: “SomeBODY ONCE TOLD ME-” etc etc. With the instrumental for In The End still playing.

My head was on the table for a good 30 seconds. Talk about getting memed on. It was a fucking masterpiece. XD

Also unpopular opinion probably: I never really liked Shrek.

[mazin-empress]

The whole Hell’s Kitchen thing though, that I was babbling about earlier... It’s interesting how I got into the manga. The tale is really dear to me honestly, if you all don’t mind me telling it.

I rambled a lot so it’s under the cut here.

See, I discovered it thanks to an ex-friend of mine who I won’t name, that occasionally used icons of Dogma to represent herself. I’d seen her use the icons on several occasions before, and Dogma looked like a really fun character, but I didn’t think much of it at the time.

Then one night, she was roleplaying a fight between Dogma and Jade from Tales of the Abyss with another friend I’ve not had contact with in a long time. I drew something based on that cause I was bored and wanted to draw. Jade was kneeling over Dogma, and Jade’s spear was stabbed into the ground a couple inches from Dogma’s face. (I think I still have the notebook with it somewhere... It’s pretty bad compared to what I can do now. I might try to redraw it.)

She reblogged the drawing, and then someone with the URL earl-of-poor-eating reblogged it... I found out that second one was her RP blog for Dogma. We started roleplaying that same night, and her Dogma muse and my OC Alice just immediately hit it off and within a week they were a ship. 

The more she and I RPed, the more I liked him and then I read the manga for myself. Satoru is adorable and Dogma’s just too hilarious not to love... The rest of the characters are all unique and fun in their own way too. It was an instant favorite of mine.

I still have so many of our RPs saved to my laptop... I think all of my muses past and present up to that point talked to hers at least once. I really did cherish those interactions with my muses, and I also still love this manga to death more than two years later.

Back on topic though, I know very few people who like the manga. So it’s really, really dear to me and that’s why I fawn so much over it. I know if it became popular there’d be the inevitable things with a popular fandom like terrible OCs and other such things, I wouldn’t dare look at the DeviantART search for it at that point... But I’d still love more people to talk about it with, you know?

So I’m sitting here praying for an anime. I mean Shokugeki no Soma did well enough it earned a second season, cooking manga make great anime...

... Oh gods, that’s more than enough rambling from me, I’m so sorry for going on so long! Back to your regularly scheduled blogging. XD

[cherebear]

This might not happen anymore, but...

Against his insistence, Hikari goes with him to every appointment. She talks to every doctor and every nurse. She holds his hand in the waiting rooms, although it’s more for her own reassurance than his. It’s too hard for her to imagine a future without him, her lifeline. She has always been too dependent on him.

He is always big on strength. He never let anyone see him cry for Ruby, nor himself. But she knows better. She knows that the reassured smiles he gives his children, nephews, nieces, parents, friends, and even her are just for show. She knows him so well, so she shows enough emotion for them both when they’re alone. She rests her head against his shoulder and lets the tears build up. She breathes heavily as he holds her, assuring her that everything will be fine and he’ll be okay.

Sometimes she thinks he might cry during the few times she leaves his side, but she never has any proof. She would never ask him anyway.

The day he is rushed to the hospital is the one day she isn’t with him, but she gets the call. She is his emergency contact after all. Hikari makes all of the calls, and his children are on their way as soon as they can be. Emery is the first to arrive, and she smiles and strokes his hair as they outside of Cheren’s room. Auralie and Damon show up soon, and she lets them have their moment with their last remaining parent. When they have to go, she kisses all of their foreheads and promises to make sure Cheren is taken care of.

And he is. She barks at every nurse and doctor she encounters, making sure he gets the best care. His primary doctor is honest with them both about Cheren’s condition and how much time he has left, so she makes sure he is as comfortable as possible in his last days. She stays alert and loyal during every talk with every physician and even the meetings with the lawyers to make sure his affairs are in order.

The kids come to visit on what is coincidentally his last day, but no one knows. She arrives with a coffee in hand as they leave, and she once again promises to call them if anything arises.

“You didn’t get me anything?” he asks as she enters, raising an eyebrow. It used to be hard to look at him, so frail and pale. He looks so sick, and it pangs in her chest, but he still speaks with the same dignity as ever. That’ll never change.

“You just ate before the kids got here.”

They smile at one another, and she settles back down in her chair. Almost automatically, she reaches for his hand and their fingers lace together. It is still for her comfort rather than his.

“You should sleep,” she says quietly, discarding her empty cup.

“Perhaps.”

Hikari shoots him her best “mother” smile and he chuckles, closing his eyes and holding his hand back out for her. She takes it, closing her own eyes and rubbing circles against the back of his hand.

“Goodnight, Hikari.”

When she thinks back to it, she realizes that she must have known then. There must have been some part of her that told her that this would be the last time she would hear his voice weave together new words. It would be the last time she would see his eyes open. It would be the last time his skin would feel warm against hers.

But when it happens, she doesn’t seem to know. She says goodnight back to him and drifts off to sleep.

Hours later, she is awoken by the sound of flatlining and rushing doctors.