Last Sunday I found and bought a small triceratops plush. My siblings saw it and asked what had I named it. I didn't have a name in mind yet
This Monday the news hit. I've been crying since then. Thinking about him. About my role model. Remembering all the times I got ignored or bullied for liking dinosaurs. Thinking about all the times I was told to "grow up and start behaving like a girl, not a boy" or the many times I "need to start taking life seriously and lock in because dinosaurs are for children, not adults" how I always "are so weird and ridiculous for still playing with plastic dead animals" how I "show off how retarded" I am. I remembered that and with it all the times he's face came to my mind telling me that dinosaurs are not a phase, had no gender nor age. They were souls. They're a way to live. A unique mindset. How serious and miraculous they were and how amazing the people that works with them are.
Every time I got crushed by my surroundings he took my hand and held me up. He encouraged me. He inspired me. He affected all of us. He changed all of us. Kids and adults. Boys and girls. Science and faith. Rich and poor. He marked us. He made us.
Today my siblings came to visit and asked me if I had chosen a name already.
I did
His name is Alan













