#& them

[burkhearten]

@eddie asked: ❛  is now a bad time ?  ❜

impatience was something jackie was cursed with. the need to have things delivered to her exactly when she wanted them plagued her day to day existence. either she was getting angry because someone wasn't meeting her standards, or she was being criticized for her poor control over her emotions. it wasn't fair. she was honest about how she liked things & if other people couldn't handle that then that was their problem ! however the biggest downside was the disappointment. the upset settling in her stomach when something she genuinely wanted, & even tried waiting for, seemed not to come.

that is until she had finally given up & completely resigned to her comfy no-boys-can-witness attire.

" hello ! duh ! " muffled voice rang behind the plush pillow she'd quickly snatched to cover her face upon hearing him enter. she'd barely glanced two seconds towards her window before panic set in. any excitement she may have experienced hearing the sounds of boots against windowsill dissipated as she was faced with a horrible reality. she wasn't wearing any makeup.

a long whine followed her response, fingers grasping tightly to the pillow to keep it from faltering. " edward, i specifically told you to come over at 6. it's like 9:30 ! i thought you bailed. " tone softened for just a moment before she continued " so obviously i was like wow that's totally uncool, guess i should pamper myself to make myself feel better about being STOOD UP. so i did exactly that. i took of my makeup & put on a mask & put up my hair & ----- ugh ! i am so not presentable right now ! "

her tone stayed consistent, annoyance clear as day with only small clouds of uncertainty. she was offended & believed to be rightfully so. his poor timing & lack of fair warning wasn't going to reflect back on her. even if the thought of being stood up by him hurt her feelings, causing just a sprinkle of self consciousness, she wouldn't give him the benefit of knowing so. he messed up ! why should he then get the satisfaction of knowing how much she'd been looking forward to seeing him, & how sensitive she was to any inkling of abandonment ?

" i'm not moving until you turn around. or go in the closet ! i'm serious ! "

[724fc]

REUS I LOVE YOU!

[lopeiz]

loserlikewe asked: are you… jealous? - sam (:

“ excuse that trouty mouth ? ” rage has been her go to response for as long as she can remember, & despite his special place in her life, sam shouldn’t receive any different. especially when the topic in question was linked to an insecure, vulnerable place. jealousy was an ugly trait. that’s what people said. she didn’t really mind it though, as her possessions were rightfully hers & she had every right to fight for them. but people aren’t possessions. she couldn’t control if they stayed or left. using her body, anger, & manipulation could earn her a lot of time with somebody, but people tended to slip away, no matter how hard she tried to get them to stay. & sam was catching on. she could play the jealous girlfriend card all she wanted, but it wasn’t quite the same as with puck, or any other hot shot at mckinley. the anger she felt when her jealousy spiked was riddled with a much realer emotion, pain. she wasn’t mad that someone stepped on her territory or threatened her place on the social food chain, she was scared. scared of losing him, scared of the way her heart ached at the idea of being alone in this. in whatever it was she was going through. the thing he seemed to be helping her figure out, even if she wouldn’t say as much to his face. the truth was sam wasn’t like any of the other guys she dated. he was special, because he was her friend. the more distinction she found between their friendship & their relationship, the realer her understanding of what she wanted became. her denial was stronger than ever, because she knew what she really wanted. & oddly enough, though not the way he was now, she wanted sam to be a part of it. she didn’t want brittany to be her best friend & for sam to be her boyfriend. she wanted sam to be her best friend, &... yeah. she was jealous.

“ shut up. ”

[bogappreciation]

if we are friends you will know what it is like to be loved