#&lately

[jobut]

this week in bullets

i’ve been getting increasingly better at lying to my parents. I feel like this was a skill crucial in high school but now. 

I was just never really comfortable lying to them and I never really do. but when it comes to spending the night with bf errrrrrrrr. let’s make an exception——

work work work work work work work work work work. I was hired to do weekends, 12 hours max, but that’s recently evolved to weeks pushing 30. I’m not complaining, I could use the cash and I wanna start saving, but I’m starting to feel kinda beat. ok. i'm complaining a little bit.

manager is promising a new part-timer soon. but how soon is soon? Hopefully sometime this month. or please, before the summer break is over. 

this is the first summer I’ve really had a life. wow!! wow!!!! 

I’d rather be hanging out with drew or my friends than uh, pretty much anything, lately. that’s all right 

this is the latest I’ve stayed up in a while!!!!!!! better remedy that.

reminder: fill out FAFSA tomorrow, even if you need to twist dad’s arm to get info 

[jobut]

I'm feeling real good this evening! So I'm really trying to let my real self out more often, along with letting go of grudges, and it's going pretty well. I feel like I've buried a hatchet out in the backyard of idioms and it feels nice yo. Also trying to stop acting "normal"--and I really don't wanna sound like "haha I'm such a weird girl not like the others so random xddddd" but I guess that's an alright way to describe it ... Yeah, toned down is better. I'm trying not to tone myself down more around drew and also my pals and people I don't know well (but would like to). It's going smoothly, I think. I don't need to be ashamed or whatever of what I like or things like that. Today's just been kinda good. I've been having more Me Time these past couple days, which is grrreat! It gets a little boring sometimes, not having hung out with anyone since the last day of school(a month ago), but I'm feeling....really good. I just knocked on wood, I'm not gonna let this get messed up I feel myself changing. It's good. Shedding old skin and coming into a new self. Not drastically new but yanno what I mean. Here's to June!

[jobut]

3-18-13 & yesterday

I'm exhaaaauuuusted. Trying to find a new job is tough. But it's better to look around now instead of May or god forbid, June. Hollister is nice and I like the people but gosh, I've got an apartment to save for!! And not getting any hours is really killin me, man. Here's something crazy. I got checked for glaucoma today ... it's in my family history and my optic nerves are kinda? large? Yeah man the optometrist wanted to check it out so I had pictures taken of my eyes. There's a follow up appt in May but things are looking good. Only low risk. I might go to work tonight, depends on if they call me. If not, I have some books to read. Mom and I went to goodwill and in addition to some killer shorts, I bought Lolita, The Help, and Native Son. I reeeeaaally ought to finish Game of Thrones and this autobiography before I leap into more books. Oops.