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[sls-60]

"Claire, I think I need some help with some repairs on my bike.." Moira started as she walked over to her friend, cringing a little while hiding a small cut on her hand under a rag. It wasn't serious, just a tiny, stinging cut that happened when she wasn't wearing her gloves and had a little slip up. "Can you come see? I'd ask dad to help, but he might fuck it up.." ( hi hello welcome back i missed u )

“I mean Barry does have deft hands for repairs, but only if we’re talking about the inside of a gun,” Claire mused with a smirk. 

Turning toward the younger Burton, Claire’s expression softened as she took in the sight of Moira, grubbied from maintenance and clearly frustrated at whatever was plaguing her bike. She knew how it felt – her Heritage softail had recently decided to recently kill its electric starter just as the weather had warmed up, but she loved that bike to pieces despite it getting on in the years and found Moira was the same when it came to her bikes. 

Her eyes flicked downward, gazing a the rag being reflexively squeezed to death, and reached for her friend’s hand despite protests to assess the damage. Claire tutted as she dabbed at the small cut with the rag.

“It’s always the littlest ones that hurt the most for some reason. The chains giving you trouble again?”

[sgkjd]

Wow! I think your gender is really cool and fits you so well <3 looking at your pinterest board it gives me a sort of refreshing but familiar feeling, kind of like the first sun rays after the cold season, something that's special in a good way and gives joy :) also I don't know why but I associate odd numbers with cool tones and it seemed fitting, idk just thought about that :D

Also I think both the diffusion and the perceptions people have of stars are clever and cool :O I'll think about you whenever I draw stars now :P

How did you figure out it was the shape of a star? It gives me the impression it's something you've thought about for a really long time. I'm really curious :3

woah really appreciate you reviewing my pinterest board like this 🥺 that's very detailed 🥺 also odd numbers being cool tones makes sooo much sense..yes yes exactly 🥺

funny thing is that i really did spend lots of time figuring out and refining how my gender feels to me, but the star thing was always there... i was always drawn to the shape and i really just like(d) star shaped anything. as a kid i would choose a star sticker instead of a heart one (in my mind it's the heart shape vs. star shape haha). so yeah, the star thing moreso felt like just accepting i identify with it to the point of it being my gender haha

really appreciate the asks >:3 may i also ask, do you also identify as xenogender or something of that sort? how do you view your gender? i really like reading/hearing about how other people identify themselves just as much as i like yapping about it🥺

[sgkjd]

Can you tell more about your gender? I'm very curious about xenogenders and I'd love to know how it's like for you :D

sure thing! haha i love yapping about my gender and gender stuff in general haha

my experience is that my gender never really felt like it's not there (so not agender really) but no "human" words to describe gender ever felt right. even with the term non-binary. i feel like non-binary still relates to the gender binary in that that it negates it, in a way. negation of something is still a type of relation the way i see it. that's why i don't really like calling myself non-binary. in any way, my gender is so separate from the concept of gender itself that i could only find words to describe it using terms that usually belong to nature, or physics and similar stuff.

i really relate to the shape of a star, like not real life star but the 5-edged one, how we draw stars usually. not to get too much into details, but the perception people have of a star like that is how i feel people also perceive me. also the process of diffusion is something that i feel like describes well how my gender functions socially. i have a whole pinterest board of things that feel like my gender haha although have updated it quite some time ago. it's <here> if you wanna see it.

[sgkjd]

I also say hello to all the cats on the way to and from work! I like it when they just come up to me to say hello too! 😊

yEAHHHH as we should <3

[sgkjd]

what would you say, are there more doors or wheels in the world?

i give up i'm sorry i don't know how to make funny jokes</3

[sgkjd]

How are you doing these days? I hope ok.. Have a nice evening!

hi !! 🥺🥺 still confronting the shame in me and feelings of uselessness every day, it's rather ok though strangely?? i ate an apple today for the first time in forever (i HATE apples) and it was very sour and sweet and i can't wait to eat one tomorrow too >:3 holding onto the little things i guess 🥲 i sincerely hope it's all manageable for you as well<3 in return for making my heart warm i will- *gives you a slice of the most delicious apple*

[sgkjd]

You were a kid, forgive yourself. You did what was best to survive. No one expects a kid to be perfect, you can be kind now, especially to yourself <3

ah what a kind message <333

i'm not that resentful towards myself as a child anymore!! i think it's rather the opposite - i'm quite proud of how i dealt with everything back then and that i found ways to survive it all. my focus in that post just suddenly went from telling about my experience to the general things that happen in the world haha

[sgkjd]

Is that post about Grimes unironic or did you mean Frimes lmao

yeah it was very much unironic. i try to put tone indicators when i catch myself being sarcastic or ironic. grimes' music really made a dent in my psyche and formed me into who i am today, and her presence in general i think has rubbed off onto me when long time ago i used to watch every single video/interview that came out when she still was considered underground. there was something so powerful to me to see majority of people (esp the ones that interviewed her) blatantly give her attitude for being 'weird' and seeing her responses to that.

although i don't use any social media apart from this site, i've seen elsewhere that she's been having some Interesting Thoughts lmao idk what is happening with her right now, it's a little upsetting to see her miss the the whole point ;-;