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Hard questions: Did you love Rin?

      He had valued her company, her skills, her gentle reprimands when he exhausted himself. Her healing hands when he burned himself from within.

  But—— love…?

       Kakashi didn’t know what that was, not back then. Not with so few examples of it. Minato with Kushina, that was what love looked like, or so he was told. The sparkle in his eyes when talking about her, the laughter in her lips when teasing him. The red in their faces when caught spying the other.

   No.

   No, he hadn’t been in love with Rin. But he had loved her. In the small, stunted part of his heart that was forced awake with Obito’s death — that was the moment he realized just how precious life was.

                How precious were his nakama. How irresponsible and mean he had been, all this time, taking their time for granted. Taking their concern and laughs and smiles as something other, apart from him. He had been so cold — so weak.

  Unable to see how very special it was, to have friends, to have someone like sensei at his side. He had been childish, Kakashi knew, so hardheaded and alone….

                                  — Thinking himself a lone wolf.

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☎

 Kakashi takes the phone, with care not to slosh his cup overly much. Sake wasn’t good when it was shaken. Which, in truth, was a really annoying thing. Why— he could remember plenty of times when a ninja arrived happy to have discovered what could have been a jar of imported sake — only to find out that it had gone murky and tasteless in the trip home. 

  Ah- perhaps they shouldn’t have ran and jumped quite so much, but, who could blame them? It was the ninja way; to life like they had no tomorrow.

  Though, now that he noticed, he shouldn’t be saying this to the phone… or, should he? Who was calling, anyway?

               ’— So, who were you again? An´ why are you so keen on callin´ me sensei, anyway? I am not a good sensei, y’know… hnm.’ And so, he began to reminiscence again. ‘I was pretty shitty.. taking so many things for granted- should have learned more about them, back then. Should have poked and prodded harder- I think. Perhaps I missed things. I thought myself so kno-knowlead--knowledgeable back then……..’

      ‘And they were so naive. So sweet… I fear, I didn’t- couldn’t understand them. Couldn’t give them what they needed, you know? Too jaded and scarred myself.’

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Gai and Kakashi?

Name: [淳子] —- Yunko.

Gender: Female.

General Appearance: She’s a dark haired, serious looking child. Her haircut loosely resembles that of Gai’s; with straight edges and a flat appearance.

Personality: She’s a sticker to the rules (to the ones she thinks are sensible, at least) and her eye-rolls are legendary in their own right. She tolerates no bullshit and her personal hero is Sakura-sensei.

Special Talents: She can make grown men begin to doubt themselves with just a look.

Who they like better: She has a great relationship with both of her parents but, in general, her favourite person is Sai.

Who they take after more: She acts like Kakashi at times, but her thinking is more like Gai’s.

Personal Headcanon: They find her in the rubble after the War ends. After months looking after her (the Village can’t afford an orphanage so soon after the battle), they end up adopting her for real.

Face Claim: I can only find an adult faceclaim suitable for her right now, so…

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✌ ♤ ♊ //<3

✌ - favorite color 

     Green. Green is nice… 

♤ - pet peeves 

       When people try to explain something they did ( or happened to them ) and try to recreate it in your own body. I don’t like that, at all, if you want to explain how you groped someone you don’t need to grope me to do that. Use your words.

♊ - zodiac sign

         Ah.. I think.. Virgo?

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If you were shipwrecked on a tropical island, what or who would you want to have with you?

                     ”What..? Somesort of weapon, I guess.” It wouldn’t be hard to build a makeshift one, of course, given there was enough raw material in the island. And, if he had to take someone with him.. “And I would take Gai with me. He’s useful and his contract with turtles could help us get back to Konoha. Yamato could also help, but I’d prefer to have Gai behind my back in this particular situation. I don’t want Yamato to overstress himself.”

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You have to spend years in one room with only one other person. At the end of that, you have to kill them. There is no loophole. Would you pick a friend or a foe as your companion?

That question.. required some thinking. Years and years with inside a room with only one other person as a companion? He couldn’t stand people for more than a few hours as he was, how could he deal with something like what this person was proposing..? 

Though.. Being so psychically close to someone was almost like forcing them to develop a sentimental bond — and how could people not grow close with the only person they were allowed to interact with?

If that was the case, the way to not feel tempter into the enemy’s side was to choose a friend to accompany him. Yet.. he could not kill a friend or ally.

The right answer seemed to be ‘a foe’.

He could only hope he didn’t.. convert over to the enemy’s thinking. But no.. Kakashi was confident in that. His Will was strong, his Will was the Will of Fire, and that couldn’t be so easily destroyed.

Then, he’d just have to live with an enemy and the, after years with them, he’d have to kill them..? It was almost a waste. He could simply kill them the first day and be done with it. Seemed less like a slow death. And easier, too. He could live more comfortably with a cadaver than with a foe.

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Do you remember anything about your mom? Do you think you're anything like her?

     ”My.. mother, uh?” It has been so long since he has thought about her. Years and years. It takes some effort, in fact, to remember her at all.

      He never knew her. He had grown up without a mother. Kakashi only had leftover pieces (little reminders and shadows) collecting dust around the house to remember her for.

       ”I didn’t know her. She was.. a good person, I think. My father loved her.” Or so he supposed. His father didn’t tell him much about her, but he didn’t think he would have married her if he had felt anything less than true love for her.

        “..I should have similar traits. That’s how genetics work, right? Something of her should remain in me.”

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Come with me, Kakashi-san. You won't want to hear why they wish to sleep with you. Their moral compass is more than a bit tainted.

                ‘Oh……?’ He already knew the possible reasons people could have for sleeping with him. They ranged from simple attraction to other, more obscure, motives. And he was fine with that.

He didn’t need to fall in love or even appreciate his sleeping partner much, to have sex with them. It was easier than that. Sure, there were the occasional assassins that disguised themselves and managed to slip past his controls — but they were not a problem. 

In the end, what mattered was that his accumulated energy went out somewhere — be it sex or a fight, both were good for him.

              ‘I don’t want to hear their reasons, true. I’m sure they don’t want to hear mine, either.’ He had, without meaning it, broken quite a few hearts. It wasn’t like he hadn’t warned them before sleeping with them.. but people always kept their unfounded hopes to somehow change his views.

              ‘I don’t need them with a moral compass to have sex, you know? I prefer to concentrate in other things~!’