#;inthesphere

[rkxangel]

❅:11 minutes away

from, ❆ ice princess written for, @rkohsehun (trainee)

(tw: language!)

    the day is at its nearest end, angel doesn’t have much longer until she has to solely focus on studying to catch up with her academic life. even though she was a trainee, she made sure to still have something to fall back to just in case if this path didn’t work out for her. tired and restless, she heaves out a distressed sigh once she’s made her way to her room. sad part? the ice princess has barely gotten enough sleep since she’s been juggling two different lives but she didn’t complain and went with the program.

    she doesn’t even bother unpacking her stuff cause of the lack of energy she has and changes into a new set of clothes, some pyjamas from japan that her auntie exclusively bought her. it was frilly in terms of her standard but it was an outfit she could only wear at home so she didn’t pay much attention to it. brush her teeth and tidy up her hair in a bun so it isn’t in the way of her face.

    once she’s out of the bathroom, angel’s next thing to do on her list is feeding her dogs. she’s gotten into that habit and changes midnight and nyx bowls quickly with some dog food then disinfects and thoroughly washes her hands with soap and dries it off with a towel. too comfortable in her own home, she has no reason to keep up her guard but she’s taken aback when the person, who left with a silent goodbye is in her own home.

    what the fuck is all this?

    “alors là, bravo!” she switched over to french, yelling at her brother at the tone of her voice wasn’t a warm one. “mais qu'est-ce que tu fais là? vous deux?” she shook her head disapprovingly, but tried not to let it get to her. “hi sehun.” her face was blank (as she tried her best to hold her composure), despite the long months it’s been since she’s last seen him, she still greets him with a light wave of her hand. she’s aware of that distance that stands between them but she still felt the twinges in her heart, beat slowly raising at the sight of his handsome face that she tries to evade staring at.

[rkxangel]

❅:ghostin’

from, ❆ ice princess written for, @rkxminhee (trainee)

        the nights come by and go but she doesn’t find serenity in the tears that stain her pillowcases. she’d never like to have the demons get to the best of her but it’s hard to. she gets pulled away from the present as she’s thinking about sehun, what she shared with him and the memories just come to play. she wished that she could’ve been a better girlfriend.

        besides, what is she doing at a time like this? it’s in the middle of the night and her crying only serves as a menace (she feels this way too about her soul) to minhee. she tries to tone down the sobbing but she really wants to scream, she just can’t. she would draw attention to herself and wake up everybody else in the house. 

        it’s a sleepover, it was fun until it got to the part where it was dark and late at night. around these times is when she overthinks herself and her own problems. especially once she’s burned bridges off to, only to be left with exchanging glances and not a single word said. it’s really hard. she should’ve eaten those words before she set it to the final end.

[rkxangel]

right here

( @rkssoojin )

( tw: sickness! )

the cold winters are her favourite time of the year as soojung's grown most of her life around europe with piles and piles of snow. the christmas and holidays don't compare to the ones back home, so much that she misses sniffing warm bread in the morning and eating the puffy pastries instantly with some hot cocoa. even now, she still gets reminded of lingering memories that can never be replaced but she’s found a home in seoul now.

somewhere in the center of sphere, she’s found people to call friends and can look out for. much like soojin who appears to be in fragile conditions. as a concerned ice princess, she worries for her friend and wants to be reassured that she’ll make it through the concert just fine as they prepare for the big day coming up soon enough! “do you need any warm water with lemon to soothe your voice as you sing? need me to get anything for you, soojin-ah?” she has a small smile on the ends of her lips.

[rkxangel]

❅: until the night ends

from, ❆ ice princess written for, @rkohsehun tw, mention of diet & food!

          backdated to two years ago.

          it’s nice when she steps away from the trainee world or schoolwork that takes up so much fo her days, better when she has time to spend with sehun. this stops the ice princess from going entirely insane with all her adulting responsibilities, she wants to forget about it a quick moment. even if it’s only a day, she still finds it relaxing when she’s at sehun’s place, resting by his side and she doesn’t have to worry about a place to stay or not.

          because he’s got her through the difficult times, she trusts him. “babe, i miss us hanging out like this.” which she doesn’t have anymore since she’s not a kid, but it makes every moment more meaningful. “can we just cuddle all day long and forget about our worries? watch some cute disney movies with snacks?” she isn’t associating herself with the diets that some trainees undergo. she’s blessed with a good metabolism that maintains her slim figure.

          she leans her head on his shoulder, holding his hand as she closes her eyes. “i love you so much, just in case you didn’t know that.” she tugs her lips into a soft smile, squeezing his hand in her hold. 

[rkxangel]

after all this time

from, ❆ ice princess written for, @rkjinwook

          remembers that the last time she really talked to jinwook was during the mgas, season three specifically. he’s debuted with convex, alongside sehun and jace ( people who hold relevance to soojung but she hasn’t been so great with communication in general ). if she takes the initiative to greet him, maybe she wouldn’t deem as a bad person as all the talk says around sphere and seocho campus. besides, it doesn’t say to say hi as she doesn’t spot him as much as she used to when he was a trainee. 

          she hopes that she’s not bothering him at a time like this, but soojung waves her hand to greet hello. “hey there sunbaenim.” the use of the honourific almost feels awkward at the end of her tongue but she has to get used to it to show her respect ( or at least, that’s how it works around here in korea ). “congratulations debuting with convex by the way. sorry i never told you until now.”

[rkxangel]

time lapse

( @rkzyx )

( tw: anxiety! )

soojung burns bridges that she doesn't need to because she's been on distant lines with most of her friendships and bonds. once upon a time, she was happy to have socalised more than her boundaries despite how taxing it was to her anxiety. she was a socially awkward girl who often got mistaken for being cold and just went on with it.

so the truth is yixing's never done anything wrong to her but soojung just kept herself at bay with her factor of pushing people away due to her fears. the ice princess should step out of her castle and greet the person standing under a shiny sun of success she sees but doesn't greet and it's just.... so wrong. and she's guilty of being such a horrible friend.

she still has him in her contacts.

( sms: unicornxing ) hey oppa. it’s soojungie! congratulations on convex! you’re always working so hard. ( sms: unicornxing ) just so you know i haven’t forgotten about you!

expressing herself is difficult still.

[rkxangel]

building tour

( @rkssoojin )

the ice princess doesn't include herself in mingling in the sphere building too much. most of the time, she focuses on herself and prioritises what she needs to work on. she keeps an eye out for her strengths and weaknesses. but that doesn't mean she should be completely cold as everyone expects her to be. always underestimated, she does have her moments when she’s warm but no one can see it because of the image that she’s put on herself.

so to anybody that walks around the hallways of sphere, she might deem as unusual if she tries to act friendlier than she really is. not that she’s forcing it, but she does want to make friends just like anyone else. approaching one of the new trainees is her mission for today.

“hi!” this is her first time seeing the other girl, she doesn’t know her name by recognises her by her face. “my name is soojung, but you may call me krystal.” she doesn’t forget to bow her head politely upon meeting a new person.

“don’t be afraid to ask for help if you need any! i’d love to show you around if you’d like.”

is this the best way to introduce myself?

[rkxangel]

fall into place

( @rkohsehun​ )

soojung doesn't like waiting but sehun was and always is the exception for how long she'll wait. convex is going to keep him busy, with all the track recordings sessions and the fangreets. there's no way that she'll be in line to be on his agenda. sometimes, it doesn't even feel like it'll work out. not them, but the life that they both live despite being in the same company and corridors. it's difficult more than she originally expected. it's not that she's jealous but.. maybe she is, jealous of the fact that everything else besides her has time for sehun.

a salty taste left at her mouth, she can't argue with him because that would only stress the both of them out. not that she has any intentions but she's this close. emotions overwhelming and boiling like her blood. maybe it's time to get her mind off something else, take an initiviate for herself. find out where she's directed to in life.

she doesn't like being a bystander.

shooting sehun a message, not even sure that he’ll be able to see it right away. she lets him know how she really feels, even though it hurts.

( sms: sehun ) i’m sorry it’s just been a lot recently ( sms: sehun ) but.. i think we need to talk.