sometimes it’s easy to forget she doesn’t have a time machine, that the E A R N E S T Y of being trapped in the past was having reasons to not want to l eave it; she loved and she cared without reason or question —- believed that on some level she had those early years to pull from: moments of love and care that stayed with her ( it used to make her sad if anything it makes her smile now ). shadows of I love you 3000 and of days where heroics didn’t automatically mean SACRIFICE. she’d never be angry; she’s hardly capable of the levels of rage needed but there seems to be a question to that...a WHAT IF? a tale of situations or paths that could make her feel that way BUT it also means she doesn’t judge. she finds herself soft, a gentle flower blooming in spring because she doesn’t feel the need to be tough here ( even if he’d argue against it ).
“ I brought you food —- ” pauses to consider the possibility that he hadn’t eaten: of all the reasons why and concern seems to take over for a moment. LOST in some desire to be someone reassuring; she’d hardly believe she is and doesn’t place herself there but she deems trying important ( she’ll always try for him ). “ I mean, if I’m interrupting anything I can go but I just...wanted to do something. ”
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