“I’ve never regretted getting in a car with a stranger.. Maybe it’s because it’s what led me to you.. I still remember that night, I had so blatantly blurted out I was a virgin..
…maybe that’s what made you want me. I don’t regret giving you the only thing I’ve ever held as value. Honestly, I don’t know why I held it for so long maybe it was because I felt I only had value in keeping it… I have lived a life where I hated myself, hated that my parents treated me like a burden, rather than their own child.
I lived a life without purpose until Jongin saved me from jumping off that building… I had only left a note. A note with a simple ‘I’m sorry’ written on it. I lived my life day to day like any high school student, wondering if I would ever be given a purpose in life besides trying to be something worthwhile. I looked in the mirror and saw nothing but an empty shell of a person that may or may not be something good in this world.
I’ve lived my life with many sins, many things I wish I could take back when I take someone’s life.. But I thank Jongin and the King for giving me purpose in life, for, while it took time… Lead me to you. Thank you.. Thank you for helping me find a further purpose in my life…
No matter how many things, how many sins you’ve committed, I take them on. I take them on with everything I have.. Everything I can give.
Thank you for accepting and being with a girl such as myself. You call me immature but… I feel like maybe you like it… I’ll try and be more grown up for you. I want to be a woman you’ll always love… And forget your love from your past.. That’s all I want. I love you.
I love you so much. ”