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I think I've given up. I just don't have the will to fight anymore. I never did. But for you there was always this will to try and it never helped that with every try I got put back and belittled with a sarcastic comment and plastic words I'm sure you didn't mean. I thought you'd have been honest with me. Told me how you really felt but instead I feel that the only answers I've gotten are the ones that I have to conclude on my own terms because nothing comes from you. It's a little discouraging no? To always be put down as if my words are of no importance. I know they aren't any good. I know they don't help but for once I just want you to take into consideration that I am trying I really am. I just can't keep giving everything I don't have to please you. As much as I want to. It's kind of selfish. You've always lent a hand to me. It's just sad to be shut out because of the way you think I feel about you, and then when I try to buff up,and I try to change you don't let me. At this rate. Things are always gonna be the same.