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i fucking hate my intrusive thoughts bc what do you mean even though i wasn't as unstable as last night my brain still wants me to finally begin cvtting like what the fuck i just woke up

[c0d3l34f]

would anyone truly miss me if i vanished.

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me when i miss my fucking bus because i can't find my earbuds because they decided to up and vanish (im actually gonna kms my mom lost her job so she'll stay home and she will yell at me for not going)

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ough just remembered im single and i have to talk to ppl to get a partner kmsing ╥﹏╥

[c0d3l34f]

what am i perceived as? what does everyone who has to look at me see me as? am i a good person? am i a bad person? am i a person at all??? why can't someone just tell me what i am so i don't need to think about it. after all, it's better for everyone if i am what you all make me.

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been a few days since i cut myself off from my irl friends. they don't deserve something as horrible as me. it all had been nagging at me for a while. am i a bad person? am i pretending to be "good" unintentionally? when will everyone leave me? i mean, my irl friends told me that im immature and one said that i only care about me and only me. i know im not innocent.

god life would be better for basically everyone if i didn't exist.

whatever. back to being dead aka going back on my break. i just had to brain dump for attention.

[c0d3l34f]

im a fuckinf failure i should just kill myself at this point so no one has to deal with my idjot self

[c0d3l34f]

yeah

im taking a break

i dont want to be in a space full of utter hatred and threats. i dont want to get better but i want to not get worse and seeing all of this shit makes my mental plummet.

bye. be back soon maybe.