Feet hurt a lot today when putting on shoes when i had to leave the house, i didnt have any problems yesterday so im unsure of what it is. There is a blister i dont remember forming, blisters are unfortunately common for me because unsurprisingly the nonhuman creature isnt exactly built for human shoes, but im suspecting it formed from the recent seal shifts ive been having as its placement leads me to believe that it was caused by my foot/flipper being constriced as it shifted and the skin rubbing harshly against the other digit with each step. And, well, that lead to the result i have now
My leg hairs have also been looking a little weird (to fuzzy and unruly when dry and too slick when wet, akin to, you guessed it, seal fur) but i have nothing to confirm my suspicions for now
Theres also been the usual fur on my lower back but thats basically routine so theres not a whole lot to say…
The hotter weather has been getting to me, as it signifies the start of it being acceptable to go swimming, ive been having an awful lot of little shifts here and there with aquatic origins, ironically though its been mostly seal related, “ironitcally” because im already bad at combatting heat and the seal adaptations arent helping
My nails have felt a little weird, tougher specifically, could easily be seal fore flippers, it would go along with the nagging feeling in my lower back in my tail bone where the pains and discomfort from tails always starts… my whiskers have also felt thicker lately when they sprout out, less feline and more pinniped
You can just call me Ditto or just reffer to me with the name of whatever animal comes to mind first.
It/its pronouns only, i dont truthfuly care about being misgendered but i will still look down on you for doing so. I dont do gender in the ways humans do either but if your nosey enough to want to know, i am male.
Im an adult by human standards, 18 years old to be exact, if thats something thats important to you.
This blog is what i could only describe as a dumping ground for everything related to my nonhumanity, specifically me being a shapeshifter (yes in the literal sense, my body shifts its form physically), i additionally use terms such as clinical zoanthrope and physical shifter to describe myself and mingle in those communities of creatures like myself. It can also serve as a place to potentially document any form of control i can wrangle over myself as for my entire life my shifts have been unpredictable and uncontrolable, ruled by emotion.
More information about what exactly i am and other nonhuman related things below the cut.
But first i want to adress some boundries and things of note:
No this is not a roleplaying blog - i have no DNI, i block freely, do not take a block from me personally - dont DM me unless you are 16 or above, public interactions are fine (such as asks, comments, reblogs ect.) - i am diagnosed with ASD and my social skills are minimal to none, i act weird, i do weird things, talking and being around me is awkward by default + im unsurprisingly mentally unwell in many other ways - im not willing to tag anything with unreality, this is reality to me - TBA(?)
What exactly am i?
Nothing beyond “shapeshifter” really fits, i am definitly not human and im sure i belong to some kind of species but whatever it may be has not been recorded by humans or their folklore. My form changes randomly and im not a set species, one hour i can feel claws and a tail begining to poke out while in the next 3 hours going to be struggling to walk because my legs are trying to form into hooves. All i can say for certian is that i am 100% nonhuman in ever way, including biologically
What can i shift into?
Animals of all kinds. Im on the fence about if this extends to things like “mythological” beings and fictional species, i havent recorded enough about that in myself. Theres a chance my body is simply mimicking something that doesnt exist with the use of real animal anatomy in a sort of chimera-frankenstein fashion
How often do i shift?
Highly depends but i usually go through periods of higher activity and lower activity. My medication, the enviroment im in, outside stressors, interests, weather, time of day and any and all conditions can affect the frequency and what my body is trying to morph into
Have i ever fully shifted?
Nope. Im not fully confident i can and its not personally an end goal for me, my shifts are at most partial and usually consist of minor changes.
What forms are most common?
Canine-like (most commonly the nose, teeth and lips), feline-like (most commonly wiskers), aquatic adaptaions characteristic to marine mammals such as orcas, seals, sea lions, dolphins ect.
Views on humans?
Im not a misanthrope, quite the opposite, i adore humans as a species and find them endlessly cute and fascinating, but i fully respect anyone who is misanthropic. Beings like me face unbelieveable amounts of hurt at the hands of humanity (ive been a victim more times than i can count) and i can not in my right mind blame anyone who is not fond of humans
Goals? Both personal and account wise?
Getting more control is currently the only one, however im not sure if thats possible, theres a chance im like this because its a characteristic of species as opposed to another reasoning. As for this blog, i want to spread more awarness, or rather, i want people to be more concious of my existance and the existance of beings like myself. The louder we are and the more we appear, the more we will be accepted at least as a fact of life if nothing else.
Do people around me know?
Not really no, some are vaugely aware of what i am but they dont really ask often. As for everyone else in my life its a struct secret i keep to myself
Can you show proof?
No. I can not blame anyone who does not believe me because of this, its good to exercise caution online around information, but please just dont make it my problem. My shifts either remain “below the skin” (so theres no visible changes) or when there is visible change humans deny out of instinct and fear and/or simply cant see it. On top of that, im quite camera shy and dislike mirrors, id never willingly take a photo of myself tbh
Am i delusional?
I would be considered as such, yes, but i do not view myself that way, my experiances are objective reality to me, hence why im not willing to tag with “unreality” tags.
Tags:
#>general - do i need to explain?
#>notes - anything ive noticed with myself and shifts
#>outcast - anything and everything about being nonhuman
#>reblogs - reffer to the explination for the first tag
