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[andygrayselfie]

Hello Andy Darling!

Long time no see!

I hope you and KP are doing well and keeping sane in these times 🫂

With love

-❤️💛

Andy: So, I just logged back in for the first time in a long time, and I saw so many sweet messages from you. I can’t tell you how much they have meant to me.

Life gets tough, ya know? Thank you for being a light today ❤️

Kp and I are doing well! Lots of big life changes— one of my good friends, Thorn, and her son, Gideon, moved in with us about 4 years ago. So we have been coparenting the most amazing little human I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing. This upcoming April will be 10 years together and I can’t help but fall even more in love with them each and every day.

We attended Katie’s wedding about a year or so ago! That was such a blast, watching her in love and be loved in return ❤️. Isn’t it cool watching your loved ones happy? And of course she looked absolutely beautiful (duh).

I’m still working at the Hospital as an EMT. It’s tough— but so very rewarding. I actually got to help deliver a baby the other day and what a crazy experience that was!

There are some dark periods here and there, especially with what’s going on globally right now— a lot of uncertainty, a lot of loss, a lot heartbreak.

But that’s life, you know? It’s messy, and ugly, and sometimes belligerently unfair… but at the end of the day, people are good— great, actually. And so very worth being around for.

[wlkingcontraindication]

🎶 I'll never be your beast of burden

My back is broad but it's a hurting

All I want is for you to make love to me

I'll never be your beast of burden

I've walked for miles my feet are hurting

All I want is for you to make love to me 🎶

- The Rolling Stones

[localbeeking]

How are you so fucking brilliant all the time? How am I so lucky?

KP: I’m kind of completely in love with you???? 

[andygrayselfie]

Insomnia

[andygrayselfie]

It’s okay guys, I’m still hot, settle down 😉😉😉

[andygrayselfie]

My Sagittarius Venus Partner: You’ve gotta keep me interested 👀💋😉

My Leo Venus: Good thing I’m interesting 💋😝😘

[riverwhistle]

Umm ok it's like. I get increasingly frustrated with people because Every single thing you can tell me about myself I already know. I am painfully fucking aware of how neurotic I am. I know from the way people treat me, I know from the way I interact with the world. I know many of my fears and anxieties are baseless. I know I worry too much about things that don't matter, like weather taking off 2 hours of the day makes me a bad person, like when you see me stress about things it's just because I care about my job but whatever. I know you look and me and think well if only he wasn't so ABC he could be xyz. I've had people tell me that my whole life. If only if only if only. If only the world opened up and swallowed me whole. And they're not wrong. Nothing you say is incorrect. I believe in living in the moment. I believe in enjoying the day to day. I know you wouldn't believe me because you only see me at my worst, but I used to be so full of joy and love and light. I used to look up at the sky with hope. But at the end of the day despite the fact that I went through rock bottom and back I am the only one who lives with myself. You are right. I'm too x, I'm too y, I'm too z. But that person is the only one who is there when I wake up and when I go to bed. I am the way I am because of things that have happened to me. It is true, that most problems are self created. But I'm also the only one who can solve them. And I haven't been able to yet. Yet. All my life I've wondered if only I hadn't done x, said y, if I'd never been born would it have helped any. Maybe but I'm stuck with myself and I don't have time for people who look at me and think they can tailor me a certain way and it would fix everything. At the end of everything it's me and me alone.