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[sarmaleattheseaside]

Life ruined by a piece of gum and a pack of crayons

[wulfhalls]

[self-1ess]

also i know i don’t really need to explain my muses, but for those that spark curiosity & also appreciate them, thank you sm you are so loved by me,

Regarding my Asian muses + my cultural background and why I have my Asian muses/why I write them. I can’t believe I’m even having to make a note on this??? So please know, and note mentally that we exist here too, that Asian media and entertainment is as enjoyed as western, I am very heavily vocal about this due to the fact that for some reason I’ve read (a lot) about weird rules about Asian media/characters getting shunned out by people simply wanting to write them which sits very wrong for me as someone who is of my Asian ethnicity and enjoy + want to write these characters just as much as caucasian characters. Tumblr rpc should be a place for all (obviously safely) forms of media NO MATTER THE RACE. and I cannot fathom to tell you how many I’ve witnessed over the past years of people being left out or judged bc they have a “kdrama” on their roster. And for what? becuase they’re Asian.

Please. Do better.

if the notice has been taken, just as per future opinions of such, I’m kind of past bs really with tumblr which is why I don’t often follow ppl first anymore, it’s bizarre for me to even clarify but bc I do have slight ptsd with tumblr weirdos; I have had a very bad experience in the past about this so I need to quickly just clarify & put a pin on any future opinions/or room for negativity.

I am Asian period. I am Half Filipino and Half-Korean, Raised in Australia. I am the bread and butter of all kinds of bullying and racial discrimination both online and offline, and tbh? Tumblr wise, I’ve had enough of the shady racial shunning. To see the content I consume everyday get shunned out or made fun of really puts a bitter taste in my mouth. Very Not cool. I’ve seen it plenty of times in people’s rules and it makes me a bit uncomfortable, and I’m not going to change or remove any of my Asian muses just because you’re uncomfortable seeing an “Asian” character. Please do better.

i have both a balanced amount of east asian characters as well as western. Other than obvs i love them, im so happy to finally find people and have this space to share them with all of u, both ends bc theres one for everybody as well as for me, like i love exploring characters & being able to meet like minded ppl who share the same love/just fun with them. It gives me a sense of belonging <3

I just also want yall to know, its bc i consume these media a lot (hehe im also a film major so im like taking a lot of media in all my life) and bc of my background. So, coming from a south-east+east asian born, raised in australia, at least for me, it’s so nice to have found friends now here on tumblr who appreciate my culture, who share the same love for the media/entertainment content I consume almost everyday and also have the openness to learn as well as welcome me to share both sides of my culture for your characters. It gives me so much joy you don’t understand. I grew up in Australia as an Asian period, so I also have found it so hard to connect with my own culture let alone be respected. And I feel so honoured to share these characters & bond ideas together, and know that I take time to really share my culture too <3

[viddles-is-a-nerd]

Hey, can I get Pearl and Cleo cleaning/taking care of Legs's grave?

You can draw them full on sobbing if you want, or not; your choice.

(also, if you feel motivated to I wouldn't mind seeing the other characters who visit mourning him as well... but no pressure.)

I hope you're having a great day <3

Just so you know this ask has hit the jackpot of my mind and you are now receiving 14 drawings + yaps about all my headcanons surrounding legss grave Ummmmm <3343 so it’s gonna be under the cut cause good golly gee there’s a lotta post in this post

It took a long time for Cleo to make the grave. She left the body where it was, couldn’t even look at it. Pearl wasn’t much better. Everyone else was long gone when they carved the headstone. It was a slow process, spanning months. She could only work at it for a couple minutes at a time at most before hiding it again so she wouldn’t have to look at it.

But eventually she finished and together they went back to where Legs died and buried the body together. It had been sitting for months; it was starting to rot. They tried not to touch it. They didn’t bother with a coffin. Just straight in the ground and then they left it.

That’s probably why a year later when they finally mustered up the courage to come back they found a family of rabbits had made a home in his buried corpse. The gravestone was crumbling and dirty. It made them a little sick to look at. They decided he deserved better.

It was slow. Almost too slow. They recarved the headstone. Tidied up the area. Planted seeds. It was painful and slow, but he deserved a nice final rest.

They kept it up for years and it got easier. It was painful and hard but it was easier. It became natural for them to keep things growing. Healing is funny that way. First they’re fighting just to look at the bloody place and nothing will ever be okay again and then all of a sudden years have passed and it is second nature to be alive and at least somewhat alright despite everything.

Finally, or not finally, because even after they just kept going, it was not just a place where a good man died. Sure, there were bones buried there, but over years they’d been intertwined with rabbit holes and roots. Great trees and winding flowers. The birds made a nest in the tree that grew around his grave. A baby rabbit was born in his ribcage. One last terrible thing gave way to a million little beautiful things.

Ten years after they left, Drift and Shelby came back. They visited graves and Cleo and Pearl. Stayed for a week and it was awkward and strange and it hurt. They cried too much and too little. They left too soon and too late. They had tried to make Scott come too but he refused. And the next time and the next. They tried to come every couple years.

And for all their pushing, when Scott came back, he didn’t come with them. He just left one day, no note, no nothing. They came back and he was gone. He didn’t visit anyone alive. He went from grave to grave and apologized for hours, never said a word, though. He just sat there staring until the numb gave way to guilt and the guilt faded to something similar to a seed. He was not okay. Maybe one day he could be. Maybe okay was not end goal but something always growing.

No one expected Apo to come back. She didn’t either. When she left she promised everyone and herself she’d never go near Oakhurst again. Until she did. Thirty years later, she’d guess, she wasn’t keeping track anymore. They were restless, they needed to do something, go somewhere. It was hard to leave Cherri again. They did. Cried when they saw the grave. Saw what she could have become. Cried more when she saw the garden. She avoided everyone. She made a habit of coming back whenever she felt restless which was far too often. Avoided everyone til she came at the same time as Pearl and Cleo. They invited her back. Eventually she brought Cherri with her. Introduced her to everyone. Somehow it was nice.

More than no one expected Apo, no one expected Abolish to come back. No one thought he was particularly attached to anyone and after so long, they figured he was dead. It was half a century later when he did. Fifty years. Sure, he could have been alive that long. He shouldn’t have been. Not like that. Not when he still looked as old as he was when he left. He exchanged pleasantries, stayed for a day, and did the same the same day of the next year and the next and the next.

That’s just became when everyone came. Some for a month or even a few and some for a couple weeks or a few days or a handful of hours. But they came. Every year. It was slow and painful. But the garden grew, and so did they. Healed around the rotting corpses buried inside them and kept on living.

[damnd-he]

mmkay I feel better about sam now. pls ignore my mf outburst about him recently, I’m okay now. Im sorry for those that have been interested but I haven’t gotten to, don’t worry you’re getting Sammy now <3 we thrive. some uhh things just kept holding me back in private that I’ve been stagnant abt l that I needed to just clear out of my head and narrow it down to why. And I fr refuse to delete him for someone’s satisfaction of me leaving. He will always have my attention no matter orca being my main, he’s gotten a few interests again (thank u uhuh) and friends made me feel better about him. Idk if yall know this, but Sam a central point to both my ocs and any that I create bc I want him a part of them bc he is my longest running oc and have had my waves with him, this June is the only time he has ever had proper development that’s why I don’t wanna lose him. idk im sure u all have a muse u go back to often/your ‘forever muse’, he is mine he exists with them, in their lives and webbed into his timeline in a certain way, that’s how much I care for him and have developed him so much, that’s the only reason why I got low but I’ve narrowed it down to why, so uhh he lives on. I’m un-pausing my queue and replying to ALL of his things that ppl are waiting for, I’m sorry I got quiet here, I’m okay now. and fr energy feeds energy, I don’t wanna spread low energy here in general, I AM FOCUSING ON THOSE THAT TRULY WILL RECIPROCATE ENERGY FOR HIM. I want to continue any interest for him so this is truly the day, If u are interested prioritise and take, if just “basic” interactions rn is enough for u, I will still engage.

[unyieldingsilence]

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[orciniae]

folks…..I recommend going on an rpc detox even just for a week. lol. the way I didn’t care anymore of missing out on anything after today. I mean that’s a minor lie, obvs idk if anyone’s still around lmao, everyone and their mother’s interest switches here in the speed of light so I’m darting my eyes left and right but also, if not that, clean your space. I realised it was my space that was making me ExtraCluttered, now I feel so free/mind declutter ahahah