#|| eileen ||

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"Joan. Joanjoanjoanjoanjoan." She is almost BREATHLESS and she can't really hold it in-- she looks like she RAN, staring at the taller woman for a few seconds, face red, holding her breath in. Then, she moves her hand, showing the ring that Capo hid from her for so long & finally brought to light. "...I'm e-e-engaged." She smiles, her smile is wide & bright with tears glimmering her eyes. "Joan, I'm--" and THERE she goes for the hug.

She looks startled as soon as Eileen approaches her---out of plain paranoia. Her status, her whole situation, has had her mind too clouded to actually think or do anything properly; that goes for seeing her friends, socializing. This includes Eileen herself.

Joan feels guilty about it, that’s certain: she feels bad for not giving her friend attention lately, but with the dullness in her heart and the matters at hand ( ergo her homelessness ) it’s kind of impossible to think about it without completely losing her shit. Nevertheless, Joan notices---she sees the ring---and it’s so, so... so nice. There are no other words to describe it. Undoubtly, she is happy for her friend; she deserves it. She deserves this happiness.And because of this, Joan shoves right down her own throat the bad news of her ‘eviction’.She’ll save it for another time. Or maybe never. If the latter occurs, she could just tell her that she decided to change home with no real reason whatsoever---if she manages to actually live in an house. Somehow, she sees the possibility of that scenario being equal to zero.

Joan returns the hug---tightly---for reasons different than Eileen’s. But she decides to concentrate on her friend, for now: that’s the best way to act. She’d be a fucking terrible friend, otherwise. Those are tears of happiness, and she’d rather not be the cause for their turn into the sadness kind.

“Eileen, I’m---I’m so happy for you...” and she is. She is, but her voice’s more wavery than she’d like. “About time. I was wonderin’ when Capo would get himself to ask the big question,” she says with a chuckle following, an hand ruffling her friend’s red head and a smile on her face. “Do you already know when the date is? I wanna be one of the main gals, you know.”

( will she even be there when it’ll happen? ) --- @faillte.

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Ü AAA AAAAAA

   ---Sticky Notes || @faillte || accepting

‘Hey, Eileen, I’m already at home so don’t look for me. Sorry but I had a dentist’s appointment today and he expected me to go terribily early. I had fun last night, though! let’s play twister again sometime!

PS I also borrowed a pair of your socks. hope you don’t mind.’

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👻👿👰

  —People in my muse’s life || @faillte​ || accepting

👻 …someone my muse considers a best friend.

UM YEAH CAN WE TALK ABOUT EILEEN FOR A MINUTE? Eileen is so good. Joan finds her presence in her life a blessing, and she doesn’t know what she even did to deserve this. But whatever it may be, she’s thankful she did it, because she loves Eileen so much? While she hasn’t seen everything about her yet, Joan feels at ease with Eileen, because it’s just... she makes her feel at ease. At home, even, even though that feel is nostalgic and vague, now. Eileen Casey is just an important friend for her, such an important friend, one she’s never going to let go of, if she has the chance to keep her forever along her side. If talking about a certain secret she’s been hiding doesn’t make her run away, that is.

👿 …someone my muse used to like, but doesn’t anymore.

I’m not quite sure? Probably her exes. I don’t know, it takes so much for Joan to get invested with other muses romantically, so like... NPC wise I can only say that. She doesn’t like them romantically anymore for obvious reasons, but if she could, she’d meet them again. Just to talk, and maybe be still friends again. If either of them are still around, that is. ( Don is another case, because she still... quite hasn’t gotten over his death yet, even if she did get over her romantic feelings for him )

👰 …someone my muse would consider marrying.

Already answered!

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🌟😜

  —People in my muse’s life || @tenxcious || accepting

🌟 …someone my muse trusts.

Joan has found herself to trust particularily Eileen and Jean during these months, mostly because they’re the only people that managed to see almost every side of her, personality & mentally wise. If they managed to do such it’s because she trusts them, enough to fall asleep near them or in any case nerd about pretty much anything in front of them. When she’s with either of the two Joan lets her ‘cool lady’ façade crumble so that she can be a nerd about the things she likes and loves, because she knows that they won’t judge her, and that they won’t say anything insulting about this side of her. They also manage to put up ( in their own different ways, of course ) with her antics, mood swings and terrible attitudes, which is something she appreciates. A lot.

😜 …someone who makes my muse laugh.

Eileen mostly because she’s a goddamn nerd, but another person she finds particularily funny is Jax ( @overoutrage ) . Not only he’s probably the only teenager she doesn’t mind having around, but he’s also a goddamn riot. He’s witty and funny, which is something she likes, and the way he behaves and speaks sometimes is just... too snort worthy to let it slide? He often manages to get a good laugh out of her, that’s for sure.

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👑

  ---People in my muse’s life || @kashiings​ || accepting

👑 …someone my muse is jealous of.

NPC wise, nobody, really. But in regards of other characters in the community, Joan’s somewhat both jealous of Eileen ( @faillte ) and Eve ( @psuedogaiety ) simply because she feels like they’re both so much better than she is? They stand out naturally, they don’t have to force themselves to be noticed, in a way, and in general she thinks they’re so much more cuter than she is. Her jealousy isn’t excessive, and she tries her best to not feel envious of them, because she knows they don’t do it purposefully--- but at times, it’s unavoidable. There are moment in which she wonders wether they’re like this just to spite her, but it’s a bad thought that’s quick to go away.

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👕 Y E LL S

   ---Send me a 👕 and Joan will make your muse an outfit! || @faillte || accepting

“For Eileen, since she’s a free spirit, a slacky & large top fits her; a slightly tight, velveted skirt instead enhances her adorable curves, revealing that she’s cute and funny, but also pleasing to the eyes. I think of her as an adventurer, hence the backpack---as for the gloves, the beret and the leg warmers... they’d just look good on her. Oh, and colors like brown, orange and green fit her magnificently. I don’t know, she reminds me of a good Autumn---so maybe that’s why I see them so fitting?”