FEELINGS...
I honestly don’t know if I am fucking depressed, or if I am just sad.
Curious thing is that I stopped talking to someone that I think I am in love with, or maybe obsessed about. The point here is that I actually felt nothing when that person replied, It was as if I didn’t care anymore, I felt nothing... I didn’t break, but somehow I miss him, a lot, even if the relationship was quite toxic and I relayed all my happiness and all my actions on him, I talked to him every day, I told him nearly everything, I considered him my best friend, and now he is gone... i miss him but I feel nothing if he talks to me. I am starting to believe that more than actually missing him, is being with someone that I miss, talking to someone every single day, going out, eating together, listening to his voice, feeling his touch, trying my best to help him, nearly doing everything for him, though he never moved a finger for me when I needed him the most. I am so confused about everything, I feel completely alone for the first time, like I really ave no one to talk to, no friends at all. I barely go out, I don’t like crowds, I am paranoid and the loneliness is not making this any easier.