#éclairlogue

[asiuen]

it is so lovely to see your sona again!

elegant lady is such a perfect sentiment which, as someone who has silently followed, feel remained another consistency to blushed alkahest

⟡ · inquiry; anonymous

oh my this is such a sweet message to return to < 33 haha i would never expect my sona is a memorable individual whatsoever so i’m really flattered !!

i know white + pink often equals coquette and it’s valid to assume so, but concepts such as girl dinner or i’m just a girl are very foreign personally… éclair is a government official and a scholar, and whilst it could be a nice contrast to such serious occupations, the fact that it’s a sona and therefore me of some sorts, i couldn’t help but try to establish a more fitting narrative. blush pink academia it is !

her elegance is neither rigid nor intimidating, rather a soothing force that maintains equilibrium. she can be a bit confused by the common folk but tries her best to fit in !! stupefaction can easily be concealed performing social etiquette rituals ー

[asiuen]

⟡ · éclairlogue; silhouette

whilst recent body discoveries cause overall bitterness, i think i’m ready to romanticise a bit as a form of healing. surgery becomes more distant as i’ll be trying certain treatment that requires a lot of work to get my parameters right first. difficult, but i’ll gladly work towards a goal that can permanently reduce the amount of androgen receptors and the harm they cause. i will need a lot of rest afterwards though. and i’m being careful about which clinic i entrust my body to. safety first.

i feel that thicc is a very specific word that doesn’t quite describe eclair’s body. thicc would mean something sexually attractive and she’s not… really… because it’s me ? not because i’m opposed to the idea, quite the contrary, but certain anatomical facts are mildly visible and if anything they decrease the sex market value quite significantly.

high hips explain a lot; the lack of crotch gap prominent. pelvis has a strict and rigid closed conformation that screams access denied ! but comfortingly, it strongly reminds of marilyn because of the waist to hip ratio. the presence of waist is strange and confusing; incredibly short and dramatic from the bust down but quickly ending in high hip and soft tummy.

there is a feeling of softness. medium to bigger chest that serves a focal point to every outfit composition. nothing to be jealous of; but visible and that what counts. shoulders unfortunately wider due to unnaturally long clavicle bone combined with a specific joint tilt that rounds them up. overall, a body that invites leisure activities and provides a gentle support.

be warned, autoteratophilic tendencies may occur due to venting ! there is comfort in monstrosity.

visualisations will be a mix of current image and possible surgery results. i hope to defend in june so i’ll have lot of time to draw and i have some good ideas. i think providing a guide of éclair vs normal is pivotal and will provide proper understanding. a small dream to save up for commissions so i can see a bit of myself in others’ eyes.

[asiuen]

⟡ · éclairlogue, gait

since columbina’s release i couldn’t help but to ponder on how éclair would walk. since her and bina share some similar vibes, i was considering ebbs / ripples for a while. but that wouldn’t suit her, no. unlike columbinaa, éclair is grounded to the world, her lack of belonging stemming from understanding the ruling principles differently, not ephemerality. she walks with the gravity of the responsibility bestowed upon her.

that friend of yours looks so comfortable on the surface; you on the other hand walk like you were on thin ice all the time

and then i remembered… a non-newtonian fluid. viscosity thickens upon stress, treat it with gentleness and it will get runny.

she is grounded and despite hesitance she strides confidently with a bit too much force. for safety. for if she slowly down the ground itself will swallow her, both metaphorically and literally. she does get swallowed sometimes. but without anyone looking.