#❪ queue.

[inpatientia]

BASTILA & COMPETITIVENESS

PERHAPS IT WOULD BE BEST to not engage into any kind of competition or tournament with Bastila ( Unless rivalling her would not be the case ) considering that she is ATROCIOUSLY COMPETITIVE, not to mention a bit of a SORE LOSER. Even if uncertain of how talented she is in determined activity, she will hardly turn down a challenge or dare and WILL NOT ACCEPT DEFEAT easily. It is actually quite easy to goad her into doing just about anything; one just needs to appeal to her highly THIRSTY competitive spirit——but do be warned she will STOP AT NOTHING to achieve whatever.

[inpatientia]

slurred words

SEND SLURRED WORDS FOR DRUNK SHIT

     Booze would naturally rub some colour into her bony cheeks; however, the mention of her fellow’s name enhanced such nervous effect and it made her knit dark brows in petty petulance. ‘ ROSALIE IS TALL. UPSETTINGLY TALL. ’ She began quite softly though there was a weight to her wording——which did not belong at all with her present wasted condition. ‘ SO TALL I NEED TO LOOK UP IN ORDER TO SEE HER FACE CLEARLY——HOW PATHETIC IS THAT? ’ She rambled on, clearly displeased with everything in this plane of existence till her ponderings of what to say next placated her mouth. ‘ BUT SHE’S A LOVELY FRIEND. AND BEAUTIFUL. ’ It was concluded rapidly, in deep tone as she sank once more into her merry cup.

[inpatientia]

BASTILA & TALRAVIN — PART I.

TALRAVIN is a large CORE WORLDS planet and is an overall silent, undisturbed place to live. It is often described as a multifaceted and HETEROGENEOUS world, where one has the frequent feeling of having traveled between FULL-FLEDGED CULTURES rather than countries. Its capital cities are not many nor terribly populous and are SCATTERED throughout the planet, having little communication with and interest outside of COMMERCE in each other. Citizens of all ages are encouraged to either stay in their hometowns or VENTURE OFFWORLD——It’s rare to find a native willing to even LEARN ABOUT OR VISIT OTHER CITIES. Such geographical and societal distance between them makes well-nigh IMPOSSIBLE and impractical to determine general characteristics of Talravin’s civilisation and culture, given the DISPARITY isolation has provoked. But one thing is for sure: AESTHETICS of any kind is almost a common concern among TALRAVINIAN CULTURES. Bastila was born in a spacious, clean and generally monochromatic big city in the north called SIDERA.

[inpatientia]

Reorganising Bastila’s Rise of The Empire Timeline data.

Since there are so many ROTE, RE AND SWR roleplayers now, I think it's about time I revived some reminders about my verses for these eras since they got buried in my important stuff tag over the months. For this timeline, BASTILA WAS BORN THE SAME YEAR AS ANAKIN ( 41 BBY )——which means she was 19 years old by the time the CLONE WARS broke out ( 22 BBY ), 22 when ORDER 66 was issued, 36 as of the beginning of REBELS ( 5 BBY ), 41 when the FIRST DEATH STAR WAS DESTROYED ( 0 BBY ) and, finally, 45 years old when the Empire fell after the BATTLE OF ENDOR ( 4 BBY ). During the progression of this timeline, she follows the same premise of her canon timeline back in the 3000's BBY: a child brought to the Jedi Order at the tender age of 4, hailing from the Core World of Talravin, who developed astonishingly early an ancient and difficult FORCE ABILITY CALLED BATTLE MEDITATION.

The catch is that since the Republic has been enjoying such a peaceful ( Or should I say blissfully ignorant ) era, the Council did not heed to Bastila's training like their predecessors did until the Clone Wars——when they actually really needed her ability ( Underdeveloped, mind you; although impressive she achieved such ability at all, its training was not as encouraged as it should have been ). SHE WAS KNIGHTED PREMATURELY LIKE ANAKIN because they needed her participating more actively in the war. SHE SURVIVED ORDER 66 solely because of her training as Sentinel and spent the following years of Empire and Rebellion in exile ( Occasionally and indirectly aiding the Rebel effort until the reinstatement of the Republic ). BASTILA DIES OF OLD AGE in her canon——so does she in this timeline but since I'm not terribly knowledgeable about the New Republic Era, I still haven't figured out something for after the Empire's fall. In this timeline, SHE IS ALSO MORE INCLINED TO THE DARK SIDE than in any other timeline due to a myriad of reasons. I will probably write a headcanon about it soon.

[inpatientia]

BASTILA & MEDITATION.

It is common knowledge around the JEDI ENCLAVES and Temple that Bastila Shan is the person you should look for if you're having trouble with your MEDITATION ROUTINE. Not only her training consisted mostly of the development of her BATTLE MEDITATION ( Which naturally requires a great amount of intimacy with one's interior, often developed through practice of meditation ), but she also has healthy habits of meditating whenever there is a break both on and off duty. It is a DEFENCE MECHANISM against her own passionate, impulsive nature and a way to keep in touch with her inner self and the FORCE——something she has grown used to ( Such behaviour brought her gradatively closer to herself over the years; BASTILA KNOWS FULLY WELL WHO SHE IS ).

Meditation gives her the opportunity of releasing into the Force all that could put in jeopardy the HARMONY she actively seeks. Sometimes MANY HOURS OF HER DAY are dedicated solely to the practice of meditation——sometimes half an hour per day is all she can afford at a determined moment of her life. However, there is a sidenote to this practice: after paying a visit to the Core World of Alderaan, Bastila seemingly found an ALTERNATIVE to the dull practice of self-communion: RIDING THRANTAS. Delighted with the creature, she would often declare that a simple ride could easily supersede HOURS OF MEDITATION. Of course, her opinion is very much biased and personal ( She says the low, meek humming of the thranta below and how highly responsive they are can bring UNFATHOMABLE, PURE AND UNADULTERATED PEACE ), and it may or may not apply to others.

[inpatientia]

( 5 & 10 )

Headcanon asks based on the trait theory.

5. WHAT UPSETS YOUR MUSE? HOW EASY IS IT TO MAKE THEM EXPRESS EXTREME EMOTION?

First of all, in all honesty, not much actually upsets her. She can be quite hot-tempered at times, that is true, but to let anything upset her and bring her down? That is just too unlikely. Bastila has her own special, lovely way to show displeasure and with it confront head on whatever is making her uncomfortable, annoyed or disgusted. It would have to be awfully personal to truly upset her, to throw her off her course, make her lose her cool ( It’s an actual headcanon of mine that there’s only one person in the entire Galaxy that manages to make Bastila yell out of frustation: Skye. She does not make her merely lose her cool, that is for rookies: she can make her yell if she tries hard enough ). Because once Bastila does not know how to deal with something or does not possess a previously protocoled, special way to deal with general obstacles ( Because, you see,——she is not terribly spontaneous ), she loses it altogether for a moment.

And as for expressing extreme emotion, it’s not easy at all. First of all, Bastila is a Jedi above everything else——which means that if she’s been experiencing extreme emotion, she hasn’t been practicing the Jedi Code very well. This particular concern with the Code and its applications is a lot more softer after her Knighthood but as a Padawan, Bastila would suppress and release into the Force her naturally strong emotions to the point of nearing apathy at times. It was a part of herself she’d grown to fear and rejected completely during her training once she realised ( And been told by the Masters who watched her closely ) that it would negatively obscure her mind, endanger the people affected by her wide-ranged abilities and retard her learning; not to mention it was a clear disregard for the Code she’d sworn to follow. So, after well-nigh twenty years of hindrances in the emotional sector as something that is part of her duty and lifestyle, I can safely say it’s not easy at all to express emotions; let alone extreme emotions ( Above all, for someone as methodic and disciplined as her ). Bastila is naturally fierce and active so she releases as much as she can into the Force to achieve the peace all Jedi are bound to seek. That is also one of the reasons why she spends so much time meditating ( Especially after she starts to lose faith in the Jedi Council and still has to follow orders she does not agree with ).

10. HOW DOES YOUR MUSE EXPRESS THEIR FEELINGS? HOW DO THEY COPE WHEN THEY CAN’T?

Long story short: she doesn’t, basically. Even after Revan and after sharing a life with him, she still struggles to express herself in terms of how she feels ( Crack!Headcanon Time: When Revan said ‘I love you' for the first time, she answered 'Thank you' and kept staring at him in silence ). If she’s in plain possession of her sanity or at ease, she will not express herself very well ( Intentionally stresses these conditions because it excludes adrenaline-driven situations, like how she canonically admitted she loved Revan on board of the Star Forge after their duel; and the other kind of not in plain possession of one’s sanity: sexual stimulation ). All in all, she has some serious issues being straightforward about her feelings. Motherhood helped her a lot in terms of creating openings for those she loves, honestly; because being a single parent and having to care for an infant who often needs affection and maternal warmth to grow healthily is a surefire way to spur oneself to learn how to demonstrate positive feelings——for love of her son, so he would feel sheltered like every child should. Bastila is still very strict and reserved about it: measures her words and attitudes, avoids being overwhelmed with emotion and losing control. However, she does not empty herself of absolutely everything anymore ( Actually, she ceased doing that since she married Revan and he convinced her positive feelings only make them strong; cue the title of my main verse: Love is what strengthen us. But with Vaner under her care, this habit vanishes completely, for the child’s sake ).

But talking about the opposite spectrum of those feelings now… Bastila has her own particular, adorable way to express negative feelings as in letting them be known by all around her, without necessarily giving vent to the Dark Side ( Or at least, that’s what she thinks ). Basically, she uses a lot of passive aggressiveness to express unpleasant things, namely anger or annoyance. Not sarcasm or irony, she uses both very little; but actual passive aggressiveness. Stings and pointy words all over the place, wanting to clearly convey she’s displeased about something and she has no qualms with having everybody know that she doesn’t like the thing she is passively attacking. It’s a behaviour a bit childish and defiant and it fades with time; but during her Padawanship that sort of response was very common and it earned her the nickname of Spoiled Princess. Also, being downright honest about the uncomfortable situation that’s causing anger or any other negative feeling to well up in her usually works too ( Because Bastila Shan absolutely sucks at sugarcoating——Sucks ). That does blow off some steam and that is how she manages to let out a bit of her frustration without jeopardising the Jedi way ( Again——That’s what she thinks ).

When she can’t express herself, Bastila curls up in this small, sullen ball of frustration——be those feelings in question positive ( Such as love and fondness ) or negative ( Such as anger and pain ); the latter breaches her obedience to the Jedi Code the most. In both cases, she will end up meditating at some point. The second case being the one she meditates harder. When she fails to deliver the wanted affection ( Which implies she probably sounded rude, indifferent or distant while trying to be friendly——Woman has the gift of conveying the exact opposite of what she wants to when it comes to expressing positive feelings, because it’s unusual of her ), Bastila gets genuinely frustrated and defensive if confronted about it. She sinks back into her scowl ( Depending on the situation, perhaps a little bit hurt and disappointed on herself ) and tries to shrug it off by meditating, releasing her frustration and confusion into the Force. Now, when she’s angry… For starters, she cannot even express it. It’s not the ideal comportment and highly condemnable. So, quite literally, everytime such feeling rises up her throat, she has to bite it down really hard immediately. Being a bit temperamental, most of the time, she fails holding it back; ends up meditating to eradicate it and throws her anxieties into the Force. However, when she does lose her cool… Everything is meditation. Absolutely everything is about meditation here.

[inpatientia]

"hate to shatter your ego, but this ‘aint the first time i’ve had a gun pointed at me."

TARANTINO QUOTES MEME.

     ‘ AND THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME I'VE POINTED A GUN AT A VANDAL. ’ Strongly mouthed words were quite difficult to overhear, no matter how low or husky it resonated——she carried such a cutting british accent, made it roll all over her painted lips with every vocable. By the looks of it, seething was too weak a concept to comprise whatever she had been concealing beneath irises that resembled a spectrum of clear, limpid shades: There was rigour and harshness and insolence in them, made notorious by a puckered front. And such a grim barrel stood still——firmly hers, pointing, pressing and waiting. ‘ HOWEVER, I ASSURE YOU THAT THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME SHOULD YOU DISPENSE MORE OF YOUR WIT. ’ She drawled, as densely as before.