YOOJIN ( @songb1rd ) said, you deserve a little grace, you know. be kind to yourself. ( here / accepting )
THE ONLY GRACE YOU DESERVE IS A BULLET. let’s not forget this, chase. let’s not forget all the goddamn good-natured horror you put everyone around you through on a daily basis. you are saccharine and harmless, but even lambs have teeth and even you can bite. someone taught you how to clamp your canines down on outstretched hands a long time ago. it’s become a habit ever since.
that’s why you bristle. that’s why your nose wrinkles and your brows furrow, and for a second you are painfully aware of your mask slipping. then you clear your throat and it comes back up, and your attention wanders from her to the bookstore around you two with such practiced ease that it might almost look natural.
❝ i give myself plenty of grace, amica. hey, have you read this one ?? ❞
you don’t know if the distraction will work, but you hold up some antique book all the same. the cover lacks any imagery and, instead, is solely devoted to the gold cursive of its title: ‘dracula’. maybe not the best thing to pull up when you need a change from talking about being hard on yourself, but it’s the best the universe has offered you, so you’ll take it.