Internal Monologue
I am definitely not avoiding the Doctor. Pffft, no. Why would I? Shut up, I am not avoiding him. I just... have nothing to say. I found Di, so that's that. Of course, I somehow still haven't worked up the courage to ask her what the fuck happened but you know... I'll get there. It'll happen. I mean, it's not as if they completely abandoned me to my own devices and I've spent the last... however many years trying to find my way back to them. That would be stupid... and pathetic... and weak...
And, you know, it's not like seeing him would help at all. I mean, I know I'd just get angry. Like really angry, like... having trouble controlling myself angry... so what's the point?
Yeah. Exactly.
I'm not reasoning myself out of this am I? What no! Sadie, I swear to god-
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I just called myself Sadie. When was the last time I did that...? Oh, right, when Finn...
Okay, no, stop it. Tennant or Sadie, it doesn't matter. You're scared to see him, right?
No that's stupid. UGH. My lord am I glad no one can hear this, or I'd probably be facing a one-way ticket to the insane asylum of the universe.
Fuck it, fuck him, and fuck this. I need a drink.