made a (half) "joke" about starving myself to death (i put it in quotation marks because i've considered it before and even after making the joke i had to sit there and contemplate if i was joking or if i wanted to do it bc of my self loathing over relapsing) and like 4 people in the 4chance comment section tried to talk me out of it
i feel weird. people are so loving.
they didn't even know me
and when i explained i was just mad at myself (for relapsing), one of them said they understood
i shouldn't think this is abnormal, i know that much.
dont worry though. im gonna eat. i probably only let that "joke" slip out because i've been up all night and haven't eaten since like 9pm yesterday.