“ if i’m bein’ selfish, i’m savin’ mx. ” mx didn’t want to be saved, that much he knew. mx went out on his own terms, that much he knew. mx would likely overdose again, even if he did save him -- that much he knew. but he couldn’t help that awful, selfish desire for his friend who just... got it without it even having to be said to live, if even for just one more month. “ but if i’m goin’ on logic, i’m gonna save nina. she got so many people that love her and i know so many of those folks, and she was -- or is ? -- such this amazin’ light that we all need, y’know ? ” he missed her desperately, how light she could make him feel. and so did so many others. and she was taken without her decision -- god, she hadn’t even known her mother lived. “ wish i could say all of ‘em. none of ‘em deserved it -- ‘cept maybe david, but he wasn’t ever a friend. ”