#(not actually tom)

[skeledrawn]

Accept no substitute

[tomms-blogg]

I think we discovered some new facts about a possible new headmate. And I wanna talk about it with someone!! But I don’t know who wants to be bothered with vent art made by a young girl from the late 1800s/early 1900s.

Anyway we love you little ptichka. Exited to hear you reach out again.

[tomms-blogg]

We have big feelings about Patricia Taxxon. She was a hyper fixation of mine last year for several months:

“I love that she is unapologetically a trans furry with (sexual) trauma. She makes me feel very seen. The YouTube video “Art, Furries, God” is literally life changing. It made me realize how much of a person I am. But also that it’s fine for me to be a dog. Not in a bad way, but in a cool autism way. I’m a puppy. With a tail and ears and paws. And sometimes I’m an angel with grotesque wings. It’s wonderful to not be human. I know I am, and it’s good to be reminded. But I’m also not human. I’ve never been. No one has let me. I wasn’t built for it. I’m okay with that. It doesn’t need a label. I’m just a fallen angel who was ripped from the sky by hungry hands and evil people. I’m just a puppy who was kicked and beaten and forgotten.

At the same time. That angel is loved. And his wings aren’t scary to everyone. Some people don’t care about how soiled I am or how my halo was broken. They love me. That puppy has been cleaned up. He’s been given a warm bed. He gets pets and goes on walks. People love his big fluffy paws and how he wags his tail. They love his hyper attentiveness! They appreciate how he pins his ears back and growls and bears his teeth to protect them.

I want to be happily I human. I want that to not be scary. And I love that art exists that makes me feel seen.“

So thank you Patty. It means a lot to us that you make art and have the courage to exist publicly.

[tomms-blogg]

Since Tommy goes through periods of being really active vs. periods of long inactivity, we’ll probably start using this blog as more of a side-blog for system/trauma stuff!!! It’s still hers, and she’ll probably come on and make content occasionally, but the frequency of (not actually Tom) posts will likely increase. This place is going to become a bit of a sounding board for all of us!!

[tomms-blogg]

We dissociated while drawing yesterday. Wild to blank in and out during line art bro.

[tomms-blogg]

Vent??

Randomly very upset that I haven’t been able to pet regress in forever. Pleeeaseeeee I am so stressed. I need to be able to age regress and pet regress to regulate stress and cope with triggering things.

In the past we have had people who like to look after us when we regress (Outside people). It’s been very positive every time. But sometimes I regress in unsafe situations-since yknow it can’t be Controlled.

Also I say “we” because usually if one of us regresses few others join in. And while a few of my headmates are care givers, it can be a bit more beneficial to have a physically present care giver.

Anyways. Shout out to being a pet regressor. As a creature who has been told his whole life he isn’t human (peers knew I was autistic before I did) it’s nice to be able to embrace that sometimes I am an animal, and that it’s how I cope with my trauma. It’s nice that people are willing to take care of me when I’m a puppy, or when I’m small.

It’s also nice to regress alongside littles, especially our littles who also age regress-or are age sliders. Same with my brothers like Tom!

I am a puppy/wolf/dragon and usually regress to ages of 5-7 and 10-13! Rant and everything over!!

[tomms-blogg]

Being part of a fandom that has a character with DID sucks sometimes man. People get the info so wrong. I see them mislabel the roles of the alters, or just fully misunderstand what roles are. They characterize one as being a violent evil alter….which good lord I don’t even need to get into how wrong that is! They misspell persecutor as prosecutor and totally fuck up what a persecutor even is.

And for someone reason singlets have such a struggle understanding that multiple people can share one body!! They do it with characters that don’t even have DID-like Eddie Brock and Venom. They just can’t seem to conceptualize the idea that the people are still separate, different people. It drives me nuuuutttsssss.

I’ve watched them misunderstand what it means to be host etc. And combine the alters names as one name as if they’re the same person. Like, abbreviating the name as the first letter of each of their names instead of having the respect to write out which alter they’re actually talking about. Or to just write out their names! Same with ships including the host. Posts will include all the alters! (Again usually using the name combo thing) Even when the actual post is only relating to one alter.

It’s so dumb. And I know it’s nitpicking but it ticks me off a lot. And I guess there aren’t many systems in the fandom because no one ever corrects. And I’m afraid to say anything because I don’t want to cause trouble or upset anyone.

(Mr. Host)

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Shout out to my chaos triplets-one of whom is significantly younger but split first.

Of course there’s Phobos and Demios. But also their little sister. These three drive me nuts. Doesn’t help that two of them are blonds.

I love you all. (Tom, Toby, Aya) You keep be on my toes but you’re always there for me and I know things wouldn’t run smoothly without you-especially you Toby.

Thank you for everything you do around here. And thank you for being the best family.

-your host