briefly rewatching Zura acquiring Elizabeth for. Reasons. also i'm slightly drunk. anyway.
waow it's only episode 15 and Zura's already worried about being stood up by Sakamoto :) which could mean nothing :)
oh no Zura are you disappointed :(
oh that is a very fond knowing smile. i know one when i see one and that is one. also Zura did you put mascara on for this meeting. I see you. I know what you are.
i'll never be over Sakamoto sending Zura a whole ass Amanto as a present. It's already a cute gesture but there are 2 things we learn later that really put the gift into perspective:
Sakamoto thinks the Renho are 'watchdogs' sent to Earth to protect people
2) Sakamoto knows how lonely Zura has been for most of his life, and presumably - since he knows how to contact Zura in the present - knows how lonely he is now too
3) I'm 90% certain he knew immediately that Zura would think it was cute
also. he gets Elizabeth from his good friend, a space captain. then immediately cosplays as a space captain:
@sevenleafsimblr, regarding the “what happened to the BC houses post-production” thread. With citations.
The Ewart BC lot, Préciosité, was turned into the Moonlight Falls film studio of the same name. People did eventually figure out how to put the rabbithole in the building rather than behind it, and it’s a thriving place for Moonlight Falls actors of all ilks. Kenneth’s grandchild (Delia’s child) wants to host a BC there when they grow up.
The Chambers MMBC lot, Cessation, was quickly snatched up by Starlight Shore’s building preservation society shortly after the removal of the bodies and resting places. It’s now preserved as a museum of where the first Modern MMBC (to distinguish it from Hawthorne back in the day) took place. On occasion, criminals from the warehouse across the way will use it for rendezvouses - I wouldn’t be surprised if another murder took place there one day.
The Limerence MMBC lot, Deinotes, burned down after Amelia and Nora set it on fire. Narrep made a couple of predictions about what would happen to the lot, but neither came true: what actually resides there is a large garden. Flowers surround the graves and the lot on all sides, and it’s free to enter and to reminisce. It was actually Hank that planted the first flowers, as well as Amelia, Laurel and Nora’s gravestones (makeshift in the case of the former two).
For those worried about how tough of a week it’s been for me... don’t. It’s been a tough week for Castor, Cupid, Quartz and Lidon too. If anything, they’ve had it worse.
For those who have been keeping score, Lidon has helped Castor in a variety of things lately: booking the restaurant preservation for the date, not escalating the situation when it got worse, footing the bill, helping them storm Hell afterwards, etc etc. Castor made their own recommendation on how they could repay it in a seemingly throwaway remark, and though he had his doubts at first, the world seemed determined to make it come to pass... the Wordsnatcher, in particular.
Castor’s perspective (and conversations) kicks off the day after they reblog an ask meme. Or a “talk about meme”, as it were. They respond to the various prompts of the meme, having general fun until Madison notices that they seem very determined to avoid question #3... Naturally, their continued dodging of the question even under pressure leads everyone else to bug them about “three” as well... including Cupid himself, the core reason they’re dodging to begin with.
Castor: Cuuuupe, don't encourage them...!
Cupid: I'm Evil what do you expect 😜
Castor: mmmmhhh....
At least this proves you're still feeling on the up and up.
Cupid: I can stand up at least. I must have had some sort of bug. Because I can hold my liquor
Castor: I know, you've told me
Cupid: People need reminding. Vi brought it up again this morning
Castor: Well... the one other time I've seen you have alcohol--
Oh wait, you don't remember that one.
Cupid: That was the night I got very drunk, wasn't it?
I threw back at least seven Caesars
Castor: So you *do* remember it? But yeah.
OH! And when we were heading into the date
You said you figured you'd stay sober cus you didn't think you'd want to forget it
Cupid: I didn't drink that night. Part of me wonders if I had drank, I would have...yknow
Trashed everything
Castor: Exactly! Cus you knew drinking alcohol on SOME level would get you forgetful and 'trash' stuff.
You must have known that going in, or you wouldn't have said it.
Cupid: I can hold my liquor
Castor: BUT on the other hand, I can see *how* people would think you couldn't
That's all I was gettin at
Cupid: I guess
Back in the ‘real world’, more three ensues.
Castor: Sorry if I seem kinda short with you right now
I'm getting 'three' from all sides here
Cupid: Three
Castor: Yeah, even your side
Cupid: Sorry. My Chaotic side has risen again
Castor: Your alternate form?!
...Or do you mean like Chaotic Evil?
Cupid: No. I meant those alignment thingamabobs
Castor: Awwww 8(
Cupid: If I have the state of mind if I ever go Chaotic, I'll make sure to let you know
Castor: Thanks Cupe
Cupid: Though I'll be destroying everything so I don't know what I'll say to you
It'll probably be lots of 'AAGHHHKAHRARARA'
Castor: ...so like those motorcycles that just skidded the Hell by just then??
Coincidentally, more motorbikes skidded by both Vidcund and myself at the same time as I was writing that.
Cupid: Probably
What's a motorcycle
Castor: You ever ride a bike growing up? Did you... have bikes back then?
Cupid: They were gigantic. My brothers and I stole one once
Castor: Well,
shrink one of 'em down,
put an engine on it,
and add a loudmouthed swearword-spewing hooligan,
and you've got a motorcycle.
Cupid: Sounds fun!
Castor: Not to people with already thin patience who've got to listen to 'em scream by and eff and blind everywhere
Cupid: Well you're already dead, what's the worst that could happen?
Castor: Earache?
Cupid: I guess
Just shoot them
Castor: CUPID
1: I don't have a gun
2: Just because I can't get killed doesn't mean they wouldn't try and hurt me, they're not like you where they can't hurt me
3: They're already gone
Cupid: Poison their food
Castor: ... You *are* Chaotic Evil today.
Cupid: I'm usually Neutral Evil
I go up and down the spectrum
Castor: Hm
There was this post I found a few months back, before I met you
let me see if I can
http://narcyztalksagain.tumblr.com/post/139982607810/liveyourlifelovely-tag-yourself-im-stressed Here we go
Lessee, I'd put you at...
Poetic Evil,
or possibly Chaotic Cynical
Cupid: I'm chaotic violent
Castor: That... also almost works
Cupid: Almost?
Castor: I still think Poetic Evil suits you a bit better
💖
Cupid: Thank you dahling. That's very nice of you to say
Castor: 💖💖
I've just realized placing the two hearts side by side like that makes them look like eyes
Cupid: They do! I never noticed that!
Castor: Now if only I could make them pink
Then we'd really be getting somewhere
Cupid: They are pink?
Castor: No they're not
They're black on my end
Cupid: The hearts? They're pink for me
I always forget that Vidcund’s on mobile and I’m on PC pretending to be on mobile, which explains the discrepancy.
Castor: ...Huh.
Well, all the closer to your eyes then! 💖💖
Cupid: OH
You smooth hypnotist
Castor: You've been hit by
You've been struck by
;)
Cupid: You are referencing something, but I don't know what it is
Castor: You've never heard Michael Jackson?
Smooth Criminal? Bad? Leave Me Alone? You've Really Got A Hold On Me?
I mean, I know he was after your time, but... no one in Hell's brought him up?
Cupid: I only listen to music from my era really. The name sounds familiar, but it's not in my league
Castor: So stuff like freeform jazz?
As Castor sends that particular message, someone shows up outside their door.
Cupid: Yep!
And electrojazz, I think that's what they call it?
Castor: Any specifics?
Electrojazz?
Can't say I've heard of that one
Cupid: It's jazz and swing mixed with electronic music
It's like going to a party back when
But like modern
It's something
...
Cupid: I said it's something
...
...
Cupid: Castor?
An hour passes before ‘Castor’ responds again.
Castor: Sorry. The electrojazz is definitely something.
Cupid: Are you okay?
You went kind of quiet
Castor: An important, petty job came up. Permission for a short break has been granted, though.
Cupid: Permission?
Castor: Yes.
It must only be short. The needles won't sort themselves out.
Cupid: Are you okay?
Castor: Unit Castor's as okay as they'll ever be.
Cupid: I don't like the sound of this
Unit Castor: The sound of what, Unit Cupid?
Cupid: Stop calling me that. Cas doesn't call me that
Unit Castor: The circumstances of your name are outside of Unit Castor's control.
There's no need to worry, Unit Cupid. This is necessary. The counting of the needles, out of the boxes and back into the boxes, is all necessary. Unit Castor needs to square the debts they owe. It is important.
Cupid: This seems like a bad thing
And I know bad things
Unit Castor: It is necessary.
Cupid: I really don't think it is
Unit Castor: Unit Castor incurred a majority of the debts they are paying back for Unit Cupid's sake. In a way, this is a gift to you, isn't it? And that is necessary if nothing else.
Master Butler is ending the break. Unit Castor will talk again at the earliest opportunity.
Cupid: Please do
Don’t be deceived by the tone. Cupid’s sounding a lot calmer here than he really is because, to quote Vidcund: “He doesn't want to seem controlling or frighten castor. Inside he wants to rip apart everything until things start making sense (...) He's broken as least one lamp”.
Using a lot of backreading (albeit while, to quote again, “getting distracted by the sweet stuff”), he works out that Lidon’s behind this, and sets about a plan.
Cupid (10:02pm EST): Castor, I don't know if you can understand this. But I think something might be seriously wrong. I'm coming to check on you in the morning. I don't want to come off as controlling but I'm a bit concerned. If your fine, we can laugh this off as a funny story. I'm willing to take that risk
A futile plan.
Unit Castor (4:46am EST): Master Butler says no.
Specifically, Master Butler says that Unit Cupid is overreacting, and is letting his uncouth brute nature get in the way again. It also says that Unit Castor is unharmed, and will be done with the job within the week… or month. Master Butler is inconsistent on if it’s a week or a month.
Also - and this is an opinion Unit Castor shares - we are not exactly certain how going to the surface is going to help.
This is necessary, Unit Cupid. Things will be fine.
Cupid (8:30am EST): I'm not going to the surface?
Look clearly somebody has taken you mentally hostage. That seems bad
Unit Castor (10:00am EST): Master Butler has asked Unit Castor to remind Unit Cupid that "you used to take people 'hostage' all the time, and that never stopped you".
Cupid: Yes of course, but I never took their brains.
You need that
Unit Castor: Unit Castor still has their brains. They're just... putting them to a better use. An important use. Everything is fine.
Cupid: Needles are important?
Unit Castor: To Master Butler, yes.
Cupid the Hypocrite: Castor. Dahling
Mass murder is important to me but I don't take somebody's free will with charms to do it
Unit Castor: Everything is fine, Unit Cupid. Unit Castor isn't much hurt. They're intact.
Cupid: 'Much hurt'?
Unit Castor: Well... the needles do dig into Unit Castor's fingers when they pick them up. That's the point of needles. But everything is fine.
Cupid: I can hardly throw stones here. But this man, your friend, is hurting you
Unit Castor: Everything is fine.
Cupid: Everything does not seem fine
Unit Castor: Everything IS fine.
Cupid: If you say so
I can get there in ten minutes if you need anything
Unit Castor: Unit Castor *needs* to get back to work and square the debt.
Cupid: Castor needs to be who they are
Note that Castor is only the second person to be openly Ensorcelled on this particular Simblr; the first visible Ensorcelment was with Quartz, and hen was an outlier in that hen could defy Lidon even while under its control. So consider Castor the benchmark for how Ensorcelled people normally speak and act.
Then consider me thoroughly terrified of what Lidon at full capacity would be capable of.
Unit Castor (14:08 EST): Unit Castor's fingers are bleeding.
Cupid: Are you okay?
Do you need anything?
Unit Castor: Un it Castor's fingers shouldn't be ble eding, but they are. They are bleeding and this is e cho bl ood.
Cupid: What do you mean you're bleeding?
What did he do to you
Unit Castor: Unit Castor's fingers are bl ee ding from the nee dles. They pi cked them up a li ttle clumsil y the second go a ro und.
Master Butler is brea k ing giv in g them a break and it is getting bandaids.
Cupid: Shit you might have never encountered this before you're not all that long dead shit
Castor. Though it's frightening, we can bleed
Unit Castor: Should Master Blu tler not be gett ing bandaids?
The eecho blood is get ting on the screen, Unit Castor's wor ds are s lurring.
Cupid: No you need them especially if you're bleeding like that
I'm just saying that it can happen and don't be frightened of it. You're confused and I don't want you to be more so
Unit Castor: Con fused?
Unit Casto r isn't confused, Unit Castor is fine. Eve r ything is fine.
This is ne cessar y.
Cupid: You are not a unit. You are Castor Erkens
You are a hypnotist
You are a parent
You are brilliant and handsome and kind
You are far more than just a unit
Unit Castor: And currently, Unit Castor Er kens is serving Master Butler to repa y the brill iant and handsome and kind man in their own life.
Cupid: A brilliant man who uses others to take care of his own problems. A kind man who uses their friend and strips them of their personality
Sounds great
Unit Castor: Unit Castor wasn't talking about Master Butler!
Cupid: What?
Unit Castor: Unit Castor was talking about Unit Cupid.
Their fingers have stopped bleeding now. They have bandaids. You don't need to worry anymore. Unit Castor should get back to work.
Cupid: No. No no no no no.
Nope. Don't do this for me.
You can't do this for me
This isn't right, Castor. You have to be you. Fight it, destroy it, do whatever. You cannot do this to yourself
Cupid: I
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I drove you to feel this way
I'm sorry you feel like you have to erase yourself to 'repay' me
You have nothing to repay me for
I I ow e yo u
I owe yo u so much
And I don't want you to damage yourself
So pleae
Try and stop it
Unit Castor (6:44pm EST): Unit Castor can't stop it.
Obedience to Master Butler is most of what is, and most of what ever should be. There is no desire to fight or flee, only to do what is right by those Unit Castor owes - Master Butler and Unit Cupid.
There is MUCH to repay you for. You have been better to Unit Castor than, at times, they have had any right to expect...
This is necessary. This is important. This is being done to please Unit Cupid. It is the least you deserve.
... But Unit Castor will try to minimize the pain of it. Minimize the bleeding. Maybe that will make you happier.
Everything will be okay, Unit Cupid. It will. It must.
Cupid: No! I don't want you to do this!
You not doing this would please me!
Do right by me by doing me wrong.
Unit Castor: ...
Unit Castor is already ensorcelled. They cannot break out. They are not Unit Quartz.
Cupid: Try! For pity's sake, you have one of the strongest wills I know!
Unit Castor: Master Butler's is stronger, if it wishes it to be.
Cupid: Master, master, master! When I get my hands on him...!
Unit Castor: ...Unit Cupid will do well to keep in mind that it is in the same room as Unit Castor at all times, and would likely see that threat if it was so inclined.
Cupid: Fine. I'll watch my tongue
Unit Castor: Unit Castor is sorry.
Cupid: You have nothing to be sorry for, Castor
You didn't ask to have your soul sucked out
Your mind take
Tajen
Your will forfeit
Here is Cupid’s Epiphany wind-up...
Cupid: Oh
Unit Castor: They really thought this would be without issue. They thought the debt would be squared, not multiplied in turn. They thought Unit Cupid would be happy. They thought it would be enough. They thought they would be enough. They thought they would be enough.
Cupid: You are enough
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I didn't mean to do this
I'm sorry
Once Cupid has resurfaced, he grows more determined than ever to set Castor free from what he sees as Grey’s fate. And after one warning, he does the only thing he can think of: he tells Quartz. Predictably, having been there henself, Quartz yells at Lidon about it, which inadvertently dredges up terrible memories for the terrible lord (#tw glass)... which ultimately tips it into setting them free prematurely.
The Ensorcelment affair, ultimately, has three results. 1: those who feel guilty about triggering Lidon’s past pay penance, voluntarily for the most part... though Quartz still has doubts. 2: Cupid is doubled over with guilt about his own past, his present, his splintering possible futures. 3: Castor, caught in the middle, retreats into passive-aggressive horoscope reblogs and unusual solitude.
Cupid is the one to tentatively approach them on the Friday.
Cupid: Castor? Are you feeling any better?
Castor: Hey, Cupid.
Cupid: Hello
Castor: I'm getting there.
Cupid: Is there anything I can do? Are you 'you' again?
Castor: I think so? Vaguely
Sorry I've been quiet for the past couple of days
I've kinda been needing some time just by myself for a while.
To get back into 'me'.
...Needing time by myself... not a feeling I'm used to, I gotta admit.
But that's this week in a nutshell ain't it?
Feelings I'm not used to.
Cupid: I can imagine. This week has been...trying
Have you heard from any of your other associates?
Castor: You mean Lidon by that?
Cupid: And the small yelly one
The
The one called Rose Quartz
Castor: I was gonna ask that next: how do you want me to call henom in front of you? I don't want to...
but I also don't want to lie about henom's name anymore, not like last time
Cupid: It doesn't matter
I don't care
I've done enough damage to the yelling one
Castor: ... Forget about *me*, Cupe, are *you* okay?
Cupid: I fucked him up.
You were soulless and scared but were forced to go on
And I did that to grey
I fucked him up, Castor
I fuck everything and everyone up
Castor: You do not...
They stop, unsure of how to go on while still telling the truth.
Castor: Look. I don't know if this'll make it worse or better for you, what's going through your head right now, but I do gotta be honest: I *knew* I was gonna be Ensorcelled going in
I was the one who brought up the possibility to Lidon in the first place. I volunteered to have it done to me.
I just... didn't know what being Ensorcelled would *mean*, is all.
I'm not sayin you didn't... do what you did. I'm saying the situations aren't exactly... the same... and I just realized that that *definitely* isn't helping, is it?
Cupid: I made you do it
I made you give your will away
Your mind
Your soul
You
I did this
Castor: You didn't *make me* do anything, Cupe
Cupid: You told me you did you said you did it for me
I don't imderstand
Castor: I do remember writing that. That doesn't mean you made me do it.
Only Lidon *made* me do stuff.
You didn't hold a wand to me and say 'pay me back for everything I've done for you,' did you?
Cupid: i let you think you had to do it
i let this happen
and I tried to stop it and I feel worse
Castor: You did what you thought would help me
Cupid: I'm sorry
I'm sorry I'm sorry imdorry
Castor: Cupid, breathe
Cupid: Sorry
Castor: Me too.
Cupid: why
Castor: I'm not helping you right now
Cupid: Deserve it
Deserve more
More bad
Castor: Yes you do
you deserve help
Cupid: No
Castor: this week hasn't been the best for either of us and I'm just making you freak out worse
Castor: What do you want me to do?
What do you need right now?
Cupid: I'm sorry
Bad things happen to you and I get upset
Castor: I get it. I'd freak out if anything bad happened to you.
And right now, something bad is happening to you to make you shut down like this and I'm freaking out.
What do you need me to do?
Cupid: Help
Don't understand but want to help
Castor: Yeah I do
Or are you saying you want to help me?
Cupid: Help others
I
I want to make amends
Castor: What did I tell you?
Brilliant, handsome and *kind*, just like I said.
Cupid: Not kind
Once maybe
But not now
These feelings scare me
Why do I care that I could have ruined that relationship?
Castor: You're fixing to make amends. You've got to be kind in some capacity.
Cupid: More cowardly
Don't like these feelings so want to get rid of them
Not kind
Castor: You may be the k- elected official of hell, Cupe, but you're still human. And you just said yourself, there was once good in you. It's just... coming out again now.
I mean, I'd argue it's been coming out since the - getting the birds, but that's neither here nor there right now.
Cupid: Well I want to put it back
It was easier before
Again uncertain as to how they can help, Castor lets him... be for a bit and turns their attention to the ‘associates’. (These two are both simultaneous, just split for ease of comprehension.)
Castor: ...How are you doing, Quartz? After Wednesday, and all.
Quartz: I've been sleeping like a baby
I wake up and cry every hour
Castor: So, not good?
Quartz: Things got better
He accepted my gift
He still loves me
Castor: I can't imagine how he wouldn't.
Quartz: I yelled at him
I made him upset
whoops there I go crying again
Castor: No, no no don't cry
Quartz: Sorry. It's been hard
Sbeen hard and I wasn't even the ensorcelled one this time
How have you been
Castor: ...On the topic of that, actually
I don't know if this'll help - not with my current track record -
but if one good thing's come out of this, it's that I've got more respect for you now than I had before
and I wasn't exactly low on respect for you to begin with
Quartz: What makes you say that?
Castor: I knew you'd been Ensorcelled. Lidon told me, and you told me. But I didn't know until... I didn't know what being Ensorcelled really MEANT.
I didn't know it would be this - all-encompassing. This absolute, this -
this still sticking with me even afterwards.
Quartz: Yeah. It is
Castor: I've had to stop myself from calling people Units out loud three times in the last two days.
Quartz: It takes a bit to shake off
Castor: It takes a LOT to shake off.
Quartz: My first few days in the underworld were scary
Cause I went from ensorcelled to like, dead
Castor: Exactly!
You died because you WERE able to shake it off!
*I* couldn't shake it off, and I've got the strongest will of anyone, so Cupid said.
But for YOU to do it, to be able to resist him, even a little bit, alive or dead, to...
For you to retain *you* under all that.
You're a trooper, Quartz
And I mean that
Quartz: Narcyz I'm crying again
That's wow
Nobody's every told me that
Castor: Glad I could be the first, I guess
Quartz: Have you talked to Lidon since?
Castor: I'm talking to him right now.
Trying to make amends to - everyone involved really haha
Quartz: You didn't do anything wrong
Castor: Sure feels like I am
Castor to Lidon: ...How are you holding up?
Lidon: As per usual. More importantly, how are you?
Castor: You're not... flashing back anymore?
Lidon: Your concern for me is adorable, really it is. As of now, I am no worse than I was before all this kerfuffle.
Granted, Dr. Smudge knows more than she really should, but confidentiality says it wouldn't tell.
Castor: I'm sorry I couldn't last for the whole few days week month, M- Lidon
If I hadn't brought Cupe into this, things probably would've gone along fine. You and Quartz wouldn't have fought over this.
Lidon: It's fine, Castor. I'm fine.
Castor: Cupe's sorry too. For what it's worth.
Lidon: Oh, I'm sure that's a lie, but thank you for trying.
Castor: He is.
He's actually kind of freaking out about how sorry he is about it
"These feelings scare me
Why do I care that I could have ruined that relationship?"
Lidon: Tch. He doesn't care. He loathes hen, name and all, and certainly I've fallen out of favor what with harming his dearly beloved in such a manner...
He's no reason to feel anything.
Castor: I'm... not in the right frame of mind to argue with you, Ma- Lidon. But he does. He's told me he does. And... I think I can trust him on this one.
Lidon: Well, tell him forgive me if I come off as callous, but I've no reason to believe he means any word he says about the matter. That's the end of it.
Castor: Understood.
Lidon: ...And for Azaz's sake, stop talking to me like that. You're out of this enchantment, Castor.
Castor: I know. But some bits of it stick. I've had to stop myself three times since Wednesday from calling other people Units.
It's insidious, Lidon. You've done it enough that you ought to know that.
We can't all be Quartz.
Lidon: Hmmph, and people wondered why I was so quick to leave the others behind when they grew useless to me...
Quartz: This is all just a...really bad mess of stiff
Stuff
I don't think it's anyone's fault in particular
We're all just hot heads that fanned into one another
Castor: And I owed Lidon one thing too many and volunteered to be put under without knowing what it meant
so I started the fanning to begin with
Quartz: Nobody knows what it feels like until they do it
Castor: even still
Quartz: You need a hug, Castor
Castor: I think we all do
*hugs*
Quartz: *hugs*
have you heard from that guy since then?
Castor: Lidon, or Cupid?
Quartz: Both I guess
I meant Cupid thoufh
Castor: he's... not in a good place.
either of them.
Quartz: Ohhhh
My poor spaceman
Castor (internally): Spaceman?
Quartz: I wish I could help but I don't think he wants to see anyone
Especially me
Castor: He does love you. He's said so. It's me and Cupe it's cheezed off at.
Quartz: I yelled at him though
Castor: You were scared.
Quartz: I made him remember scary thins
Things he doesn't ever talk about
Not even with me
Castor: People do a lot of things when they're scared. Cupid shuts down, you yell, it gets triggered and lets me go. That's how fear works, it makes you not think.
Quartz: I'm sorry
Tell it I'm sorry please
And ask it if it needs anything
Castor: Okay
They pass it on, and get this back.
Castor: "...Tell Quartz that hen is forgiven. It's my fault for being...Hasty."
Quartz: Min gubben
Somewhere in the middle of all that, Castor notices that Cupid hasn’t said anything since.
Castor: Cupe...
Are you sure there's nothing I can do, or say, or - be, to make you more at ease right now?
I'm trying not to make your hurt all about me, but - it does make me... ache, seeing you like this.
Cupid: I'm sorry
I've hurt you again
Castor: You haven't...
It's okay. I forgive you. Will either of those work?
Cupid: Yes
Castor: Anything else? Will anythign else make you happy?
Cupid: I don't deserve happiness
Castor: I meant what I said there too: about wanting to please you. That part was all 'me'.
Cupid: I want to lie in the acid pits until I feel mean and nasty again
Castor: Won't that hurt?
Cupid: I deserve it
I'm in hell I should suffer
Castor: ... Well, I guess I can't stop you. Not in this state.
Are you going to do that now?
Cupid: No. Figure of speech
I don't thing even acid would help this emotion
Castor: Good. I don't wnat you to burn
Cupid: I'm sorry. I sound so bad. I can't even comprehend a basic emotion
Castor: You sound no worse than we've all been the past few days, Cupe.
Cupid: It was easier before.
Why do these two people stick in my craw
Castor: ...because I do, I suppose. And I'm friends with them, so they come up a lot.
Cupid: I tried to destroy a Rose Quartz once and I laughed. This one, I try and set you free the only way I can see how and I feel sick with misery
Castor: You did what you felt you had to. You did your best.
Cupid: Which is the worst I can do
...And then Castor makes another one of their daredevil-esque decisions in an effort to SOMEHOW do or say the right thing.
Castor: ... Cupid, where are you?
Cupid: My office
Castor: Are there lots of things you could collide with in there? Or do you have a clearer area you can be in within it?
Cupid: It's pretty large
I don't see what you're going with hete
Castor: Do you still think you deserve hurt? If you did collide into that stuff, would you feel good about that?
Cupid: Yes
Castor: Good, then it won't matter so much if this loophole doesn't work out
I just -
need to try something
Cupid: What?
Castor: 💋
Cupid: OH
Castor: Thank you.
For caring so much about what I was - while I was under.
Thank you for your best and your worst, treasure.
