HE FEELS GUILT. love. lust. the things he feels for ara are so beyond complicated but ultimately, guilt sits above them all. he’d do anything for this girl, and he’s convinced that the universe reunited them for one reason or another. and it’s complicated, isn’t it? for arlo to be hung up about someone and sleeping with other people in the meantime. his underlying fear of commitment to one person makes his skin crawl, because whose to say someone’s not going to get hurt in the process? and he’s not even sure what would be worse: his own feelings getting hurt, or his capability of hurting others. right now, he’s concerned for ara. the last thing he wants to do is hurt her but sometimes, it’s as if his attraction to her is overwhelming and all he can think about is how much he needs her, wants her by his side, touching his hair and wrapping her arms around him.
as they walk back to the house, arlo looking like the complete drunken mess that he is, he sticks out a hand for her to hold, though there’s a good distance between the two. some makeup is smeared on his face, his hair is sticking up in every which way, his shirt is draped over his shoulders, his zipper is down, his left shoe has skid marks all over it, and there may or may not be a few... marks on his neck. “are you sure you didn’t wanna–” he hiccups. “you didn’t wanna spend the night with tempest?” his voice is small, almost child-like in how innocent and timid he sounds as he speaks. “i feel bad that i– i took you away from her.” well, it could’ve been his inability to stand up straight and how he may or may not have vomited into a bush across the street from eleutherios that sent arlo and thus ara home. plus, it was ridiculously late— or early, depending on how you looked at it. “sorry.”