#* headcanons !

[grievemillcnnia]

// Blue Diamond & Steven repressed emotions gang !!!!! ( even though that’s pretty freaking sad ).  Steven uses alcohol to cope & Blue Diamond uses her own powers on herself to make her feel better / cope with her guilt ( even though she won’t let anyone know that she’s still struggling with depression. )

@partcfyouruniverse​

[jadedhunt]

despite  the  fact  that  she  has  been  all  around  the  world  ,  england  holds  a  very  special  place  in  chloe’s  heart  .  more  specifically  ,  her  childhood  home  where  she  was  raised  until  her  father’s  research  had  them  pack  up  and  move  to  india  .  it  wasn’t  until  a  particular  london  gig  saw  chloe  travel  to  england  again  that  she  got  to  see the  place  where  she  had  once  grown  up  in  again  .  it  is  perhaps  the  only  place  in  the  world  where  she  feels  like  she  can  really  blend  in  ,  without  sticking  out  like  a  sore  thumb  due  to  her  accent  or  her  appearance  .  

australia  came  really  close  to  feeling  like  home  ,  but  it  all  happened  way  too  fast  for  her  to  process  the  move  .  one  evening  her  father  is  kissing  her  goodnight  after  reading  to  her  from  his  journals  to  lull  her  to  sleep  ,  and  the  next  day  he  rushes  breathlessly  into  their  home  ,  mumbling  incoherently  about  passports  and  packing  bags  .  australia  was  where  chloe  had  to  learn  how  to  lead  a  life  without  her  father  ,  a  life  where  all  she  had  of  him  were  cryptic  letters  and  a  few  meaningless trinkets  here  and  there  .  they  were  meaningless  because  ,  while  they  were  from  HIM  ,  they  weren’t  really  him  .  

india  is  a  different  story  .  it  is  the  place  where  she  lost  her  father  ,  and  with  him  her  memories  of  a  beautiful  childhood  of  nurture  and  love  .  she  would  later  bury  all  memories  and  thoughts  of  india  deep  into  her  mind  where  she  couldn’t  easily  access  them  ,  in  hopes  of  never  reliving  the  pain  of  losing  her  father  ,  or  the  memory  of  the  day  the  letters  just  ceased  to  arrive  .  it  would  all  be  buried  deep  within  ,  until  the  day  she  accepts  ,  and  embarks  in  her  journey  to  continue  what  he  couldn’t  finish  .

[jadedhunt]

Charlie will always hold a special place in Chloe's heart. It's the kind of friendship that even if they don't see each other or hear from each other for months at a time, it still doesn't weaken their bond. Chloe trusts him with her life and the jobs that she got to work with him on are probably among the best ones she's ever had. Whenever she has a bad day, she texts him and he immediately brightens up her entire day. Due to his age and his experience, he is the go-to person Chloe trusts to give her good advice, and that can't be said about many others. It's also worth noting that when Chloe is back home in London, she texts him the address of a pub and a time to be there in hopes of catching up with him.

[extricae]

– 𝑩𝑰𝑷𝑶𝑳𝑨𝑹 𝑰 𝑫𝑰𝑺𝑶𝑹𝑫𝑬𝑹 !

Let’s talk about Bipolar disorder and how it affects Elizabeth.

Below I am going to outline Bipolar I Disorder as it is presented in the DSM - 5. (Disclaimer -- I have my bachelor in Psychology, and any information presented here is my interpretation of the disorder based on characteristics we are presented with in the show, and what the Diagnostic Manual describes as being Bipolar Disorder.)

Bipolar I Disorder — defined by manic episodes that last at least 7 days, or by manic symptoms that are so severe that the person needs immediate hospital care. Usually, depressive episodes occur as well, typically lasting at least 2 weeks. Episodes of depression with mixed features (having depressive symptoms and manic symptoms at the same time) are also possible.

Manic Episodes

Symptoms:

Talk very fast about a lot of different things.

Think they can do a lot of things at once.

Do risky things that show poor judgment, such as eat and drink excessively, spend or give away a lot of money, or have reckless sex.

Feel like they are unusually important, talented, or powerful.

Feel very “up,” “high,” elated, or irritable or touchy.

Depressive Episodes

Symptoms:

Feel very sad, “down,” empty, worried, or hopeless.

Have trouble concentrating or making decisions.

Feel unable to do even simple things.

Feel hopeless or worthless, think about death or suicide.

Lizzie’s manic episodes are closer to her typical every day actions, though are interrupted by moderate to severe depressive episodes that can often hinder her day – to – day activities. This gets in the way of school, work, and general life.

This disorder is often characterized by her quickly shifting emotions and her heightened states of emotionality. In order to bring this to light I have highlighted the key symptoms that I noted through watching the show.

Treatment

As we know from the show, Lizzie has undergone intense behavioral therapy.

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy

Determine the problem.

Examine the thoughts, behaviors, and emotions associated with these problems.

Spot negative or inaccurate thoughts, behaviors, and emotions.

Change your reaction to personal issues.

[grievemillcnnia]

✧ ∗ * ✧ * ∗ ↠ @partcfyouruniverse​ said: Headcanons for blue and steven please!

// I’m not the best at headcanons but i’ll try !!! <3 

Blue pushes her powers of emotional regulation / happiness on Steven because she knows how it feels to suffer & doesn’t want Steven to have to go through it. Though she doesn’t mention this to Steven directly ( because that would just make him think of his negative feelings more ) Blue will make more ‘happiness clouds’ while he’s around in hoping he’ll get tempted and hop on one, forgetting his worries for a while. 

Blue doesn’t want to bother Steven often because she, herself, is aware of how her tyrannical past has affected Steven. She feels her presence is off-putting but makes an effort to make her visits to Steven as nice & comfortable as possible - offering him gifts & comfort foods in hopes he will associate her with good feelings as opposed to negative ones. 

// I’m sorry there aren’t very many !! I hope these are okay. :) 

[grievemillcnnia]

✧ ∗ * ✧ * ∗ ↠ @partcfyouruniverse​​ 

// Blue refuses to call Rose as ‘Rose’. She doesn’t believe in ‘Rose’s Legacy’ or anything to do with it. She calls her by Pink. Rose, ( in Blue’s opinion ) is NOT Pink, and will never be the little Diamond she had known.  After some meaningful conversation, she might consider using Rose’s name — but it would take a lot of talking & convincing on Pink’s part. 

[grievemillcnnia]

Blue Diamond:  ❛ I’m totally happy now ! the past is in the past, I’m okay, everything is fine ! ❜  Was incapacitated by depression for thousands of years because of grief, uses her own abilities on herself to force feelings of happiness because she carries so much guilt from her past that she physically cannot be happy unless she forces it, makes moves to liberate Homeworld because she cannot fathom any reason for Pink leaving other than her own actions & the weight she put on everyone in her court to be perfect, can’t look at any of Pink’s gems from her old court because she can’t handle it, feels weird talking to Steven because of her tyrannical past & what she and the rest of the Diamond’s had put him through, resents Homeworld in itself because of the past, cannot stop working to make other gems happy because in the moments of silence her own feelings of self loathing creep up on her & she shuts herself down, wishes she had shattered herself a long time ago.  ❛ yup, everything is great, homeworld is free & I’m so happy ! ❜