hey here are a couple things abt my portrayal of carver that are probably good for folks to know!
- he doesn’t make it very commonly known that he’s the younger brother of the champion of kirkwall, although he resembles both of his siblings and mother very strongly. he usually just goes by ‘carver’, rather than ‘hawke’. in his later years he doesn’t consider himself to be in their shadow as much, people do have a tendency of underestimating him or wanting to know hawke more than they do him, which is very emotionally exhausting for him.
- all of carver’s emotions run high. if he’s sad, he can be sad for days. if he’s angry, it takes a lot of effort to calm down. if he’s happy, it’s hard to ruin his good mood. he’s also petty. he strikes low blows and doesn’t feel shame for it. growing up, more often than not he was sticking up for bethany and on occasion, hawke, so he knows what to say to fuck people up.
- bethany’s death ruined him. most of his nightmares, even after becoming a warden, revolve around her. in every meaning of the words, they were best friends and going without her all of a sudden is like losing a limb. he grieves for years, and doesn’t really start to “get over it” until he’s inducted into the wardens and given a purpose.
- carver struggles quite a bit with self image (physically and mentally) as well as depression. he doesn’t talk about it, and doesn’t plan on talking about it.
- carver loses his lower left leg around the time the inquisition is just starting to dig its heels in the dirt. he has a prosthetic, but is still learning how to use it and has chronic pain issues. he walks with a limp.
- if the inquisitor leaves hawke in the fade, the chance that carver will ever warm up to them even slightly is low as fuck. a part of him believes hawke is somehow alive, but they were the last true family he’s had, and he’s never going to get over the fact he’s well and truly alone now.
