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ANTON WALBROOK as Philip in ALLOTRIA (1936) dir. Willi Forst

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how can someone be okay after you’ve bore your soul? and everyone turns their heads to whisper, to mock, or simply to say it is messy, grotesque. they want nothing to do with it, or maybe it’s just not enough.

everybody makes it out to be easy— “protect your heart,” they say, and i see them happily chaining their hearts, keeping them in locked chests.

i have tried—perhaps, not enough—because the chains rust with every thrashing wave of emotion. entire tsunami waves of hatred surge to break it, maybe not now, but overtime, and when i burst, i aim only to hurt myself.

it is not that i make myself a martyr, but that no one should have to see something ugly—a small face twisted in tears and piercing screams. once carefully crafted nails rake my arms to hurt, to bleed, and when the waves subside, they take, take with them blood and dirt.

and maybe, i can tell myself i am washed anew, clean, but the wave will return, and i will be made to hurt once again.

— from an angel, and perhaps, i am selfish

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