Well yeaaaah of course there is more to snuff bait than just the dead part~ theres a good amount of get murdered simulators out there that do that build up so well~ like well fuck hammer a nail into my knee and attach it to car cables fuck it why not, haha right this means you wont kill me right? right???
A song about coming to terms with my chronic illness. I wrote it last winter during a period where I could barely move and was felt like I had lost huge parts of myself. Sometimes all you can do is exist, but that's enough. (Recorded on my phone, so sorry about the lackluster audio!)
Here (To The Witch Who Cursed Me)
Was this a curse of dark despair
Your witch-knots tangled in my hair
That whisper all my losses in their strange sad litany?
That slow my voice, that dull my mind,
Oh did you think that they’d unwind
The threads of who I am until there’s nothing left of me?
Well there are birds outside my window,
There is breath within my lungs,
There is wonder to be conjured from this trail of winding crumbs.
Cause I am here and I am here and I am here
And I am here and I am here and I am here
And I am here and I am here and I am here
And I am.
Was this a curse of loneliness
This weight you planted in my chest
That binds me to this ruined tower with neither door nor key?
You struck my body half-asleep
And left me here to sit and weep
Until I cracked with longing for the world that used to be.
Well there are pilgrims who will find me,
Who will scale these crumbling stones,
So I trust to legs and minds and hands and voices not my own.
There is no quest can save me, though I know that they would try
There are curses we cannot dispel and knots we can’t untie
So I’ll live and let them love me; we will write a kinder tale
Whatever doom you dreamed for me, I hope you know you failed.
Cause I am here and I am here and I am here
And I am here and I am here and I am here
And I am here and I am here and I am here
And I am.
There are friends to take my side in all the battles I can’t win
And we’ll pluck out threads of gold from all the straw that I can’t spin
There are wildflowers blooming in the garden I can’t tend
And you may have changed my story, but this life is not the end.
And I am here and I am here and I am here
And I am here and I am here and I am here
And I am here and I am here and I am here
And I am.
And I am.
And I am.
Rating: Teen and Up
Fandom: Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
Words: 3,269
Characters: Aizawa Shouta, All For One/Zen Shigaraki
Tags: Blood and Injury, Coercion, Manipulation, Human Experimentation (mentioned and implied but not explicit), Villain Aizawa Shouta, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
Series: Part of Necrosis, a vigilante-villain aizawa au.
Summary:
Aizawa Shouta finds himself unexpectedly kidnapped and he has no interest in complying with his captor's demands.
They're not planning to give him much choice in the matter though.
I say we just be unapologetically ourselves. Goof off but in a respectful way (in the way of not putting down anyone else or anything that would be considered Very Serious).
(Lil'. Lil' rant under the cut. Because this is something I encounter and dearly hate.)
'Cause telling someone not to do something that is essentially just them expressing their emotions is, in my opinion, almost akin to going up to someone who is hard of hearing or deaf and holding their hands to stop them from using sign language.
It's like shutting up people, and if there's anything in life I really hate, it's that.
I may not agree with people's opinions but I most definitely do not tell them to stop doing a thing that they do.
Like part of society that people need to understand is that if you are uncomfortable, simply do not interact.
If it's about a Big Thing that's Highly Disrespectful, then yes- that makes sense. You should probably tell the person that they might be crossing lines, but if it's just a goofy thing they say or part of their comedic self then for fucks sake just leave them be.
You'll always find people out there that you don't like, don't agree with, and things that they may say as a joke (like, "i love >insert name<", "that's my spouse", "i want to smooch them") that may make you uncomfortable- but that does not mean you have a right to put them down and tell them to stop.
Yes, there will always be exceptions to this rule. No, do not take this out of context.
I do not mean if someone's being an asshole you don't tell them that they're acting stupid.
I'm just saying that you should not be out here repressing people's personality traits and goofy shenanigans.
( I am also not saying not to tell someone if they are making you uncomfortable- boundaries are very important- but if you are on some Content Creators blog telling them not to do something that they enjoy/is essentially Their Thing at this point, then please just reach maturity so that you can understand that you have the power to click off and leave that Content Creator alone. )
Oh! I always thought the line "rich parents, super popular, chicks love him" means he's jealous Steve gets to be a womanizer and I thought the cynical eyes thing underlined that 😅 But I always thought it didn't fit his character if he wanted to be popular with the chicks. What's your take on that? I feel your takes are more fitting than mine 😅
I think that... we know Eddie's capable of being jealous. He outright tells Steve he's super jealous. but it's not about the listed things. He says he's jealous before all that. He's jealous of ONE thing: Dustin's love. Dustin's good opinion, which Steve actually has in scads, and Eddie's acutely aware of it- says as much, when he tells Steve Dustin talks about him to Eddie.
And the REASON he's jealous that Steve has Dustin's love is... because Eddie doesn't think Steve is a good person. Or didn't. He had the image of Steve in his mind that he's got rich parents, he's super popular, chicks love him.... all of which, to Eddie, reads as 'this person is a douche.' Has to be, because NO ONE Eddie has experienced that has those things has ever been good to him. His personal experiences, INCLUDING with Steve at least through observation, have been the opposite of good.
So what Eddie is jealous of isn't that Steve is those things and Eddie isn't. It's that he thought Steve was bad AND somehow still managed to get Dustin's love. When you're bad, you don't get the love of good people, right? Isn't that how the world works? It's probably how Eddie's been told the world works. He's got enough wounds that say that's how the world is supposed to work. So how can Steve, a bad person (as far as he knows), have earned the love of the kid Eddie's been trying to impress all year, whom Eddie considers to be a good person?
Eddie doesn't want to be popular with the chicks. Eddie wants to be loved despite what he might think of some of the things he's done in life, despite the way he was brought up by his father, despite the way the popular kids like Steve and Tommy and Jason and Billy looked at him, despite the magazine articles calling him evil for playing a game. He's spent the last 24 hours thinking he ran away from danger, that he's been a coward, that he isn't good, and he's being faced with the realization that every bad thing he thought about Steve may not, actually, add up to him being a bad person after all, and that maybe Dustin was right to love Steve. And he's a little (super) jealous of it turning out that way, all things considered.