#*motobe

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Also I like the idea of Motobe being not necessarily Jealous but also not exactly Not Jealous of L.L. & Sashi I think it would be too the like, fear, I guess, like idk if he'd trust him. And he cares about L.L. a lot so he doesn't want them to be hurt emotionally or physically. It'd take him a while to like, accept it. He'd be like you don't know him you don't understand him because you're not japanese but he's dangerous. I think if he outright was like "he doesn't love you" L.L. would get really pissed off at him, like, REALLY pissed off. But idk if L.L. would let the conversation get that far y'know?

I love making their relationship on this arc be complicated 🤤

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I feel it's extremely crucial to Motobe and L.L.'s relationship that neither of them communicates in terms of... How they view the other. Like their feelings are strong, and they're very close, and when they're together the love and passion blooms, but there's no moment of talking like So What Are We. Are we fuck buddies, are we boyfriends, are we lovers? Is this private, can we be seen in public? Can I hold your hand outside? What about kissing you? Am I something you're not ashamed of showing, or is this meant to be just for us? How close is too close, what is allowed, what's too far? Etc.

Motobe doesn't think about it much because he has other worries in mind (like the art of war lol) and L.L. avoids thinking of it because they have ocd and spiral and get scared way too easily. And so they exist in this weird gay thing state where the love is so real but nobody can give it a name.

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I just realized Motobe and L.L.'s relationship dynamic; mutually attracted but one is repressed and keeping to themselves while the other is a tease and loves to embarrass them and push their buttons; is the same as L.L. and Nomi's, except flipped around. They're experiencing a dose of their own medicine 😭

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I wanted to see my old carrd that is now deleted (rip) bc I didn't remember what I had written for these two but it's funny seeing it again.

Its interesting too bc I don't fully get the vibe I was going for w Sashi back then but 100% understand and still live by the Motobe description, in fact, flusters me a little. The fact that it was actually romantic but undiscussed gives it extra pizzazz. It's cute it's literally cute. But for Sashi I assume it simply started more platonic and then went romantic. But I seriously cannot remember + have very little written down from 2021

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Finally back in touch with Motobe. Unfortunately our reunion was me just calling to see if he was free and upon hearing he was just running sobbing to his arms, to his great confusion and worry, with the only explanation being "i missed you" and "something else too but i don't want to talk about it". After i calmed down i just lied face up between his legs playing with my hands and his top and belt until i got better and we talked for a while <:]

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I bet Motobe would be like "oh fuck not this again" every time they saw lil Luly, i would love to tease the guy and annoy him and fluster him ajsfnwsfsjsv nothing too... Embarrassing nor mean ofc ofc i just want to annoy him not humiliate him! Ah i love Motobe...

I imagine how confused but more worried he would be if he ever saw lil Luly when very stressed, just walking up to him and asking for a smoke, weird totally quiet and gloomy, opposite of their usual self... I think it would only take a pat in the back in a moment like that to get them in tears AKWGKASGH