WHY CAN'T I?
I watched a video shared by my friends in fb, ANNIVERSARY SURPRISE and I was really amazed dun sa idea nung guy kung pano niya isusurprise yung girlfriend niya sa Anniversary nila. After ko panuorin yung video, ang weird ng naisip ko. Nalungkot ako nang si *past* pa rin ang una kong naisip. I should think of Alex instead kasi siya yung nagpapasaya sa akin ngayon. He's a God-sent. I MUST forget every single thing about *past*, I should MOVE ON, tulad nga ng lagi kong nasasabi pero hindi pala talaga maiiwasan na mabalikan mo ang past. Sabi ko, PAST IS PAST pero mukhang nilunok ko ang sinabi ko. I feel guilty kasi alam ko naman na nageeffort si Alex para sakin pero hindi ko masuklian. I cannot do what Nanay told me, GIVE and TAKE. I want to be into Alex to forget the past, I am not a user though I am trying my best na kahit papano eh masuklian ko yung effort na pinaparamdam ni Alex sakin. Alex is a nice guy, he always makes phone calls lalo na kapag magpapaalam na siya kapag mag-aaboard sila. He always sings for me even though he really does not. He writes letter and poems about and for me. For me, he's absolutely better than *past* but why can't I?