May 22, 2021
Me, realizing that my unrealistic expectations and comparison to others has been hindering my progress and ruined the fun at drawing:
#ramble#also my art prof who told me that learning the fundamentals takes ''only'' 2 year....#i put myself under such of pressure to be good in such a short amount of time#drew 12+ a day and took no breaks at all the past years#plus compared my progress so often with artists who I admire and hoped to be as good as them#which basically lead to burnt-out and low confidence in my art now :/#it bothered me as well seeing each work I posted is getting ''numbers'' which I automatically tied my worth to#so well i guess I need to take a longer break til I feel alright again :(#i still draw but way less than before and will abstain from posting my work for a while#*years#*12+ hours#*under pressure#bro I cannot form coherent sentences anymore 😭