#... don't mind me

[jonathanbyersphd]

Hozier really did put his whole hozussy into Damage Gets Done

[hobipaint]

why is it an annual thing that I feel shitty just before my birthday lmao

it's just annual at this point of time ;_;

[essieeeeeeeee]

[mean-scarlet-deceiver]

would the engines totally all be more or less into buying GameStop this week or am i projecting

[codex-lupusnocte]

Why am I such a sad person. It's unfair.

[baeuwuxian]

I’m in a downswing into what looks like will be a major depression... It feels similar to the headspace i was in last february... incidentally around the time i first started playing Dragon Age...

probably why i’ve been throwing myself so hard into my Malenna replay... or the replay is causing the shit... probably the former...

I feel a little useless, inadequate, unloved... which i know is bullshit... but hey my brain kinda is a pain in the ass like that...

Doesn’t really help that my dash right now is a whole bunch of people that are all friends with each other and it’s like being on the outside looking in.... I have the worst case of the “Notice me, Senpai!”s right now. And my anxiety brain is popping up with a vengeance every time i try to interact with people and reinforcing the aforementioned shit feels...  and just uuuuuuuuuughhhh...

then there’s all the physical shit that’s been going on too... my sleep schedule is doing the thing where i don’t all asleep til noon and then wake up at like 9-10pm... and my period is over three weeks late now (not pregnant, thank glob...) 

TL;DR -- My brain sucks, and I just need a little social interaction and/or validation.

[silkyskykitten]

(Kinda... possibly petty venting after the break. Word of warning...)

... you ever end up getting disappointed by something that you feel like you shouldn't be disappointed by and it's really petty and shit? Yet it really seems to irk and drag you down?

Specifically... about a month ago my dad and his girlfriend asked what I really would like for Christmas, wanting to make sure to get stuff we really wanted and whatnot. So I cobbled together a little email consisting to links to about six or so records that I really wanted and told them they could pick from one or two of them and I'd be cool with that. And I know they got the email, since my dad texted me saying he did. Sooo... I got a little overly excited and waited anxiously until today when I was going to meet up with his side of the family. All curious about which record they picked and ordered.

They didn't pick any of them. I got $50, a calendar, a book, and little Twilight Sparkle and Pinkie Pie toys instead.

... now... I know I probably am really stupid and sound like an asshole for this. Since hey it's Christmas and they still got me stuff and combined with all the money I got from everyone else I should have plenty to buy some records myself. And the two MLP toys were a very pleasant surprise. I liked those. Yet... I can't help but feel really disappointed. I built up so much anticipation about the mystery of what record (or maybe records) they got from the list I sent, that I just can't help but feel really bummed out that I didn't get any of them.

That's probably my fault. Getting too overly hyped up for something always seems to cause me nothing but disappointment in the end. And I guess I shouldn't be too surprised, since it's not like its the first time my dad has built up my hopes in some manner and then failed to deliver. Far from the first time. But... still...

*sighs* Don't mind me, though. I'm probably just being really petty.

Really pathetically petty... yeah...

[lavellanenaste]

SIN TIIII NO SOY NADA UNA GOTA DE LLUVIA MOJANDO MI CARAAAAA

MI MUNDO ES PEQUEÑO Y MI CORAZÓN PEDACITOS DE HIELOOOOO