May 23
denial
#void#comic#plural comic#plural#...posting this is very scary#being very vulnerable#but the anonymity helps#i guess... this is where ive been. just me. and my denial#(is it denial if i'm right ???) (i don't know. i can't tell)#i genuinely do not know if i am a system or plural.#it always feels like im fabricating it or making it up#i think it doesnt help that i've been ''''frontstuck'''' for almost 6 months now#my brain used to be much more active with varying 'kinshifts' or whatever they are happening more frequently#but being alone makes everything else feel so fake#especially since zee is gone. and flower too#i don't know whats happening to my brain#i dont know who i am or what i am#can i still be “me” if i don't know who “me” even is anymore..?#... this post is very raw#apologies for the dump of emotions and whatever#i originally did just want to make a small comic about the last bit. but i already had a comic in mind abt venting abt this denial stuff so#they kinda combined together#just note that the 'voices' or whatever was happening at the end there ARENT the grey texts from the previous frame#i just don't remember what they were talking about ...#something something on the topic of denial (talkin about me ..??) and they were upset#too vague to remember the exact thoughts/words though...#...also PLEASE do not bring discourse here this is just me venting