#02.26.18

[1oath]

surprise surprise! not another bakery

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Stream of Conscience No. 1

I want. 

I've already fallen in love with the idea of being away, but now I want to fall in love with being away. We will drive to a coast, with denim shorts and chromatic slushies. Then, bigger. I want to see every van Gogh painting, because he understood more about the human condition than I ever will. I want to sit in an art museum and sketch the things, but do the same thing on a street corner because the world can be art if you let it. I want to make art. God, I want to make art. In an apartment in a beautiful city somewhere, in a room with tall windows and a warm breeze. 

I want to stop living in such fear and restriction, hiding from a monster that can't bother itself to recognize me.  I want to dye my hair lilac without telling anyone or go cliff diving or do something that is nothing but dumb, because I can. I want to write, and everywhere. Bathroom stalls and cinder block walls. Wet cement. I want to write notes in bottles and throw them into the ocean, or leave them on windshields. I want to send a letter to someone I've never met because strangers deserve love too. I want a thousand pens to run out of ink in my name. I want novels and a dozen short stories and journals that line my shelves and spill onto my floor. 

I want to speak beauty and truth. I want to live unattached somewhere far away where no one is checking for my footprints in the snow. For a moment, I want someone to be so endlessly interested in the way I talk that they can't think of anything else to do but listen. I want to absorb beats and laughter and knowledge and be interested in every single thing I come across, because I need to remember that the Earth is more beautiful than we give it credit for.

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Untitled Poem No. 1

The place I grew up, she is classically beautiful. She probably has curly hair and olive skin. She is pleasant, and everyone thought that made her enough. She seems always a little distracted and easy to view without feeling seen. I want to move to the city, some day. Her beauty is striking and looking away means you might miss something. I hear that she sprays paints in the dark and sits in coffee shops during the afternoon. That sounds lovely. 

[drumshoww]

I'm hot and cold at the same time. pain. pain. pain. pain. and more pain. everywhere. but especially cramps. and PMS PMSPMSPMS UGSHSHSHHSHSKSKSKSKSKKS

[homicidehusbands]

i had no idea netflix had released a live-action mobpsycho100???? wtf is this????????

[lame-kid-on-couch]

I passed my boss in the hall twice in the span of 10 minutes and this time I just said "We can't keep meeting like this," and honestly I don't know what came over me but it was fucking hilarious

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Catching some morning sunshine 🌞

[lame-kid-on-couch]

Genuinely worried I'm going to pass out from brain shit today, or alternatively, just slip out of the mental driver's seat entirely and lose 5 hours