#021409

[holdontoeighteen]

“If I could tell the world how much I love you, I would.”

3 years ago I met this girl... at first I hated her because my third grade crush liked her, not me, but over time we got along. I met her at my friend's Valentine's Day kick back. Never have we spoken till that day. We spent the whole day together, playing basketball, skateboarding, and walked to the park and swung on the swing set. We just clicked. I wrote our initials on the sand and I acted like I didn't know how to skateboard when really I knew :') After that day something hit me. Huge feelings grew but I never took my feelings seriously till now... I'm the type of person that falls to easily and hard for anyone. I went through a lot of hard times these past 3 years and it's amazing how the only person who stayed with me was her. Hynna Ann Agustin, no words can comprehend our friendship/relationship. She was my friend, venting buddy, & my shoulder to cry on when all I felt was weakness. Even when people told her to leave me she never did. I can never recall a time where she wasn't there for me. I was a bad person, I admit. I never thought about anyone else but myself. I did so many things I regret & all I cared about was boys, boys, boys. Hynna brought out the best of me. I'm a way better person now because of her, she is my every reason i'm sober, confident, happy & alive. I was a wreck. Without her guidance and love I honestly wouldnt know where I would be... I fell in love with my best friend. Today is our 2 year and 10 month anniversary! This is just a simple post to tell everyone that I am deeply & insanely in love with my best friend. Hynna is my best friend & girlfriend. I'm my happiest when i'm with her and it's a relief to finally be open about us <3 

"I wish I could show you off to the world and tell everyone how lucky I am to have someone like you as my boyfriend <3 I want to tell everyone how much you mean to me, I want to tell the whole world how amazing you are, I want to tell the whole world how deep in love I am with you, I want to tell the whole world that there is no one i’d rather be with than you. 

Face it, I’m in love with you. Unconditionally. Even if you pushed me away, even if you told me you hated me, even if we couldn’t tell people about us… nothing will ever change my feelings for you because I sincerely and deeply am in love you."

It was worth the wait :') 

I love you Hynna Ann Ermita Agustin, Happy Anniversary <3

[jlynaaliyah]

Sleepless night.

Philippians 4:12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.

Lord You still show a love that we cannot afford and grace that we do not deserve. My mind is everywhere tonight. You are Lord of all comfort who will calm my waters and bring me at ease. I know that You will help me. I may not be good with spoken words, but I just wanna thank You that You have given me the ability to write it all out. Just continue to write and write and write and write. Your compassion fail not. You won't let us stumble, for I know Your mighty right hand upholds me. You never sleep nor slumber, but You're keeping a watch over me. Billions and billions of people in this world, so many things to ponder upon but You still maintain to have time for me. You still yearn to fellowship with me. The best part is that Your fellowship is free, Lord why don't we take our precious time that You have given us with You? All Your asking is for a couple of minutes, but I can spend hours. As Your servant I will do what is needed to do even when it's inconvenient. I know that You're so much more worth my time than anyone here. Not my parents, not my family of faith, not my best friend or closest guy friend - but You. Help me to respect all of the people you set in my life, help me to be there for them, to encourage them and love them. But Lord, if I don't have You leading me, taking over, surrendering my life to You, loving You, what use is all of this? You know how I'm feeling right now. My tears are dry for now and I'm so glad to be in Your presence because there's no place I would rather be. Hearing Your soft-spoken voice, understanding that You're always listening to me, knowing that You hold my future and comforting me in whatever I'm going through right now. My thoughts will not try and control me. I won't let it. The same thoughts that keep replaying in my head, the same thoughts that are being kept over analyzed and over thought - it'll be over. I claim the victory and I can't do this without You. I'm sick and tired of it Lord. Your Spirit will lead me. I am just so grateful for what You have put in my life. I really am rich in the glory of Your kingdom. This isn't for anyone but this is for us. The beautiful people that love and care for me, the food that you set on the table for me, I may not be tall but I'm glad I have all my five senses everyday. I learned and I'm still learning how to accept myself, how You made me perfectly the way You wanted me to be. I need to stop calling myself names and keep in mind that I am Your creation, too. All that You have created is beautiful. I'm trying to accept it Lord, You know this. You know my heart Lord. I'm not perfect and I'm not tryna be but I just wanna serve You, who is perfect. Please guide every relationship I have, be in the center of it so that everything will run smoothly and perfectly according to Your will. Oh, how You love me that You gave Your Son for me. You didn't have to do that Lord. It wasn't easy Jesus to do all of that, but You claim that it was worth it. Who am I to be worthy of all this Lord, really. Jesus You didn't have a double mind when it came to me, You said You would carry that cross, suffer for me, get beaten for me, shed blood for me without even second guessing Yourself. Lord please help me to make my decisions the final decision and the right one. Now I know Lord You won't be doing all of the work, but I need to put my input as well - but I just need Your guidance. I need to have that broken spirit so You can fill me each and everyday. I need You, I'm nothing without You. I'm only dust yet You care so much about this piece of dust. I can't thank You enough Lord, so please take this offering of my life so that I can glorify You. People may look at me weird or say mean things but I know who gives me strength and I know what You have done for me. Especially these high school years. Oh how You're so awesome. Please forgive me Lord, for the wrong things I've done to a brother or sister, dishonoring my parents, and anything that has been displeasing to Your sight. Help me not to waste my time anymore. Every second is another blessing. Instead of complaining, grumbling, or being upset help me to rejoice more often in those situations. Lord I just wanna thank you that You have taught me not to dwell on my past - the good and the bad. My life is in Your hands and I'm living it all for You. Thank You, for being You. I feel so much better now. You're the greatest.

[kkawaiikittenn]

Couple 365: Day 45 by the urban mermaid on Flickr.