04.11.2022 - 4.15.2022
I didn't take Lexapro for two days and then my brain shook. Freaking weird. I must say though, I freaked out for a whole half hour today because my dnd character commissions came in~ My baby Lynne looks amazing!!!!
Well. Work went well. Oh yeah I totally stuck it to one of the guys on my team by sticking to what I believed in!! Proud of myself for that. I'm officially nine months locd~ I'm trying to eat these spicy shrimp Crackers my sister got me and...it's spicy....I can't.
Also... I know that I watched Human Centipede. ...But I don't remember with who... I remember there was a guy there but I can't remember when or where or what... It's actually really bothering me. OTV girls were talking about it and like. It brought up a memory that I forgot.
Well you know what, I was going to do this as a weekly thing, but turns out the camera from this phone ain't bad either. So I'm gonna keep being obnoxious and keep this as a diary :3c Gonna have to install those emoji faves again though, they were too cute and I miss them~
My sibling wants to do the Meow Wolf's trip around their birthday and like...I hope they know that if that's the case they aren't getting anything for their birthday from me lol. I'm kidding but still, this trip is a sibling get together (at my expense) so I hope they do take advantage of that like they do with father...
Still really looking into real estate, not as much with bitcoin tho. Someone tried to spam me on Instagram lol like you wish. And I tried to put them down easily and they got angry! Like bitch I will kill you shut up.
Okay so like. For one of the possible DnDs I'll be in I kinda want my character to be a Paladin with Oath of the watchers because she's very much a protector kind of person but like. I would be playing too hard into the stereotype I think. She's just a kid who got put too much responsibility on her shoulders, a Katara-like character who's the mother of the group. So I'm wondering if I do go that route for her, what can I do to make her break or make her normal...
I'm also following a lot of investor types on Instagram and one of them actually followed back. Thing is though, I keep on thinking of it as get rich quick things while really they should be long term investments but that's blah to me. Hm... The account actually followed me back so maybe I can ask...
I don't know why I stayed up so late tonight. I could have gone to bed and not eaten so late but I didn't.... And I'm getting comfortable again. I can imagine staying at this job, getting a place to live, and taking yearly trips for the rest of my life. Which means something is about to change. The best thing I can think to do is to get ahead of the change before I reach the edge of my comfort zone. Be better.
It is now Wednesday and for the whole time I've flinched at the thought of my name. It's good for Work but I'm hating the idea of giving the people I do DnD with my real name eventhough I wouldn't mind having them call me something other than Jinx or my character name... Jocy works, but she's not officially me, you know? I have such a hate-compromise relationship with my name...
When yous et up a meeting and the people for it are like "Why are we here again?" Did you not read the fucking email I sent RIGHT BEFORE THE INVITATION???? Did you read the fucking email my dude?????? FUCK
Okay now I'm wondering... Was Bast pissed with me because I didn't get a tattoo with her symbol yet? Is that what this is about?? I wanted to get it once I got an apartment so I wouldn't have to worry about my parents seeing, but it did happen right after I decided to hold off on it. Now I kinda wanna get it...
Anywho. On Tuesday after work one of the people from DnD told me about their character and campaign and I'm loving the stories, it's so creative. He shared his DnD books with me and I'm super grateful, and he said he was willing to help me develop character backstories~ Admittedly I messed up with Lynne because I didn't have the time to think on it, but I know how to make characters. Just you wait.
Then on Wendesday I stayed up late to watch a movie, The Witch Part 1 Subversion and ohmhgosh I'm so glad I did. I knew it would be good and it really really was~ It got me thinking that if I created the perfect creature, I would be fine with it killing me. I've already got 100% result, I'm good to die now and to die at your hands my beloved creature would be a privilege~
Also. My coworkers are excited for me to go to Italy!! Which is hyping me up to go even more!! It feels silly but I'm really so glad I get to work with them. If I had to work only under the one boss lady I probably would have joined another company, but they are making the job so fun and great for me. Super grateful.
And okay I've gotta figure out what to do for Easter. Maybe I'll just make bread with my sister and ask her to choose a deity to present it to. I want her to believe in something, even if it's of her own creation. Of course I know who I'll dedicate my bread to~
Okay so mother made some inane comment about how we followed her request and therefore honored her by cleaning the house. So I'm moving out in August :) Honestly that was the last straw lol
I'm fucking dying Scoob... My cramps are so bad today, they're usually not this annoying. But at least I got to play DnD~ The regular game was canceled so someone made a one shot dungeon crawl for us and it was a lot of fun! I played a rogue~ And I gotta say, I'm low-key attached to the character now. I'm keeping her. And since that was one character too many, I had to pay for a DnD Beyond subscription. Worth it though, now I get to make more characters~